STATION TO STATION

Oh Simon

2012-01-30T18:41:00.001+07:00

We all believe in Amsterdam
Paris and Spain and Vietnam
But no one believes you
when you said your heart was blue...

I read, I thought, I watched, and I talked about suicide lately;

- Suede's song, Simon, I read it yesterday that it was indeed based on true event. Brett's friend called Simon Holdbrook commited suicide because of melancholia in 1996.
- Cyenz just found out that Alexander McQueen is already died, yes, he hanged himself.
- Ghost Whisperer episode that I just watched talking about a woman try to commit suicide because her boyfriend had an affair with his lecturer.
- In Napola which I watched two days ago, Albrecht drown himself.
- Every time I saw Carl Barat I always remember about how suicidal he was.

I always have special relationship with suicide. Not that I'm suicidal, hmm... I don't know maybe I was thinking about it at some point when I was an angry teenager, but no, I always thought that it was a stupid thing. I even had a speech about how to deal with those feelings in my Indonesian final test. But I do interested in those kind of things, you know... sadness... sorrow... it feels so romantic.

I look for sorrow movies these days, nothing is come close to my expectation so far. It's romantic if you watch it on films or read it on books or listen it in songs. What makes sadness is so beautiful? I never understand. If we talked about real life, it might be romantic if it has something to do with love, but if it was about something else like money, or, career, or... just more general life problems, it won't be that beautiful, it sucks. It's what happened to me now, I still sad about the fact that I couldn't do what I really love to do for my final project. I can't do Hedi Slimane, David Bowie, or British Rock Acts... it's so sad and devastating I couldn't even care about the plan B. I hate to think another plan. I always hate plans actually.

You know what so ironic? even for my final project, the biggest project in my 21 years of life, I can't do what I REALLY want to do. Think about it.

Even in highschool I had this freedom to collect questionnaire about how you hate the school and how the school should be and present that issue in front of the class. The title of our presentation is "School is Only For Formality". That's the spirit of teenagers, that rebellious spirit you had. And school didn't banned us. If you think about it, why we hate school so much, it's because school didn't give us freedom to do what we like. But I was so naive, I always thought it would all change in college, then it didn't change in first semester, it didn't change in second, third, fourth, fifth, sixth, seventh semester, ok... I can deal with it. Having this hope that I could finally embrace my juvenile passion again for the final project. But hell no, it was all falling apart.

I'm still this whiny kid, but I don't have the bravery to throw everything against the wall, be angry and screaming to the world.

Do I have the right to do nothing and running away from problems because I'm sad?. Because I think it's the only freedom I have now.

Spare Us The Cutter

2012-01-19T00:45:00.001+07:00

Halo. There are actually many things happen I don't know which one I should accentuate in this writing. I guess I'll go with which I digest first.

Internship is finally over, like many said, 3 months are very fast gone... I don't know about this. But I'm quite tortured actually in those 3 months. Hahaha. I'm just being honest, I know I have problem with new environment that I don't really fit to, I don't know actually... I go well with my mates in German Course, I go well with my short semester classmates, kind of... I don't know why I don't get along with people in the office. Maybe we're just different. Maybe office life is different. I'm not actually a silent and boring person in real life, in fact I'm quite random. Yeah... I just want to say that. And the fact that I survive in those 3 months... such a relief. I will gladly embrace my normal - alone life back... Sometimes I do think being alone is such a bliss, if it's not with people you can connect to, it's better that you're alone. If that's not the place you're belong, then why should you waste your fucking time. If you don't enjoy it, leave it. Life goes on...

Hahaha, I've been thinking about my future, what will I do next, what job I'll be into. I do want a scholarship, I do want to see the world. But after that, what will be my job?. I really don't know. I want enjoy my life, I want to keep make works, but I hate to be entangled on other people needs, and commands. I don't wanna die boring with my life. Like seriously, I'm 21 and I haven't do many things... there's ton of things I haven't done yet. See, I never get drunk, I never go to desert, I never go overseas, I never drive a car along the highway, I never watch classic concert... Should I blame Lonely Planet hosts to have fortune that I don't have (yet)? should I scream and runaway from home, should I burn the college to make a statement or something. Oh God, scary to think that I won't live forever and have to hurry things up.

The Libertines. Sudden topic change. Well, what a band... WHAT A BAND. See, I want to dedicate one entry to them only couple days ago, then my mind quite occupied for some other things, and I didn't manage to write one. It's because (another) Seven Ages Of Rock marathon, I didn't realize this before but since I watched the series for the first time until now, I journey from age 2 - 7. With amazingly different reasons. I think I write it down somewhere else, but I don't remember where so I just write what I remember;

- Art Rock, well you know Bowie..
- Punk, hmmm randomly pick The Clash that time.. you can trace this story back in my old entries
- Heavy Metal, I don't follow them but I have Metallica because karaoke and my sis
- Stadium Rock, I don't remember what makes me listen to Queen, w h y. Cia? The Police too.. I don't know why I have their greatest hits. Just try something new I guess.
- Alternative, here there goes... Suede Live in Jakarta, shifting to 90s as I said on my twitter that time (it's loooong before this 90s euphoria happened, kay), got Nirvana from Ebi too. I guess I'm quite done with the 80s and I continue with the 90s haha
- Indie (BRIT indie, yea right), Suede, again... and the 2000s it's Hedi Slimane fault. I dig some of the bands because of him at first.

I knew Libs from some times ago, since in my Renaissance era I dug lastFM quite a lot. I found this band and give them a try, but after I watched Up The Bracket video I left them. "Not kind of music I want to have in my library" - that time. But... when I watch Seven Ages Of Rock again, and actually pay attention to the last age, I thought "OH. Libertines. Such a pioneer". I can't with "pioneer" title, so I search them and love them. Not for their music at first, but you know what, guess it. It's about Carl Barât - Pete Doherty relationship. Biggles and Bilo. Their relationship is unique to The Libertines.

It's really one of a kind. You can see their feelings for each other from their songs, how they fight-play, how they look into each other's eyes on the stage, how they're singing like they're talking to each other. It's that weird feeling you want to get involve with them. Further, sailing the Albion to the Arcadia... you know what I mean. It's like you want to walk with them, get carried on in their dreams and ideas. You want to have journey with them. It's amazing thing really, you can't have it with other bands. I think what Nicky Wire said about them really sums everything up;

"The last band I believed in, for all there raggedness, was The Libertines. They were more than just a band, they were a lifestyle, a mythology." (NME, September 2010)

Their songs anyway, you love them because the story contained them. With ear-catchy tunes, voila, you suddenly addicted to them. For me at least, listened to them for only one week, and they're already topped my 3 months top artists on lastFM. Crazy. Sometimes maybe I think what a shame they only got 2 albums and disbanded very soon. But that's what makes them even more beautiful, that short-lived revelry make such a long lasting impact, a forever fairy tale....

But in the real time, in period of 2002-2004, I never heard their name, that time I think I just heard about The Killers and Franz Ferdinand, Libs are big in UK, but didn't achieve that super-mega-mainstream-worldwide status I think. It's even more beautiful.

If in 20-30 years no one made movie about Libs, I WILL. Like, I really will. See, Ian Curtis and Joy Division, I guess they're not that big in their time, but 20-30 years after that, see what happened... they're everywhere. I'LL MAKE SURE THE NEXT GENERATION KNOW ABOUT LIBERTINES.

Next topic, fashion week is started since last Saturday. Not as hype as one year ago. Normal. Haha. But the collection is pretty bland too I guess. And I see Hedi Slimane heroin chic reign really died. Again, normal.

Next Friday, there will be a Final Project brief. I'm so high spirited about final project. I know what I want to make. I want to make something I will cherish for the rest of my life. Since Hedi Slimane's name appeared constantly in this writing, I'll say I have plan to make a book about him for my final project. I'm not really sure about one part of the plan, but I think I can manage it... somehow. And his book will called

NAVIGATE, NAVIGATE
book about hedi slimane by otakbolong
and his devoted fans.

It will be awesome really. I love drawing, it's been my passion since I know I can hold a pencil and make some lines with it.

Wow, I write so long that someone who actually reading this... is not actually exist. Bonne nuit.

Ich finde das ist interessant

2011-12-11T13:06:00.001+07:00

Halo, Wie geht's?

Yesterday I took my German report card, the result is "sehr gut". Hahaha and despite my awful grammar, hilarious writings, wrote "a kitchen" as "ein küche" instead of "eine küche", forget to write noun in capital letter, don't really understand what the difference between auf, in, im, and am, I got 86 in my final exam. I don't know how… hahaha, I guess the speaking part saved me?. Don't get me wrong, I do understand the lesson… I was just being spaced out two weeks ago. German grammar is hard, though. The Konjugation, and the Artikel… I was so bad at remembering. I'm not talking German except in Saturday, see my English grammar isn't good either, they're still foreign languages after all. Make the learning fun.

That's exactly the reason why I had this class, just wanna have fun. I began attending this class since September, at first there was this conversation with my friend about doing something new, which is learning new foreign language. This idea stuck in my head, from early this year I guess. I want to learn Italienisch at first, but then I found out there's no Italian class in UI, next best thing is French or German. It's like feminine vs masculine you know… haha, then I picked German, because of its masculinity… meinführerbauhausworldwartwoetc (my fave stuffs). I registered the term before this but I failed because of lack informations, I was late for registering, then in September I finally registered. I just want to have something to do in weekend, meeting new people, have new knowledge, and just try something new. Then I met these people in class, talking about scholarship and just basically want to continue their study there… I was like, ok, I really WANT A SCHOLARSHIP. I've been thinking about scholarship before I joined the class, but since these people talking about scholarship a lot, I began to think it seriously. Life oh life.

Maybe I'm too dramatic, but this class is such a refreshment for me. I'm so stuck with internship and stress around it and when Saturday came, meet these different (totally different) people from different group of society is such a refreshment. It's interesting. I think this kind of activity is important, look at other people ways of talking, responding, and joking. It's different from people I met in campus or office, in a definitely good way. They're all nice people, it's been awhile I don't meet nice people, really.

So yesterday when I was walking over the Teksas Bridge (insert some melancholic song right here) I thought that I probably won't see these people from my class anymore, it's bit sad. After all these time… though it's only 4 months, lol, sharing knowledge, sharing a bit of life, sharing same amount of confusion about choosing lunch, we won't see each other again. Bam, just like that. It's always like this.. people just come and go. I've talk about this topic a lot in my diary, and this is definitely not the first one but it keeps happening. Why oh why… well, all of them are experiences. We have them and they're will be there forever, well, not in physical form, but in memories. It lasted forever, you see.

And who knows, maybe someday we'll meet again somewhere at a cafe in Germany… asking "Entschuldigung, ist hier noch frei?" "Was trinkst Du?" etc… Uh, what's wrong with me, really… is my period near or something.

Living Dream, Sunday Girl

2011-12-08T22:30:00.001+07:00

Guten Abend… Long tiiiime no see.

Well, actually many things happened in my life, but it's whether too personal and dramatic, or too bitter to share. So… I'll share some random stuffs like usual. Lol

This morning in bathroom… I've done my daily musings. I listened to my cellphone in bathroom, quite noble thing to do. And Blondie's Sunday Girl was played. I was like suddenly "damn, this song is so last year". It was the time of Cole Mohr, Josh Beech, and… Jeremy Young, etc. It was also the time of my DKV failure, but I managed to make Hologram flash video clip (remember that?), oh and Cole Christmas e-card.. lol, and Ethan James in Justin Wu xmas video! holy cow, that was the time of my early tumblr… If I thought about it again then it's like… wow. That time is an artistic awakening for me.. I've done tons of artwork, building up my today's style.. then it's developing when I went crazy about Hedi Slimane earlier this year. Damn… it was definitely a great great time.

Then I thought about, how about two years ago? What song that "so 2 years ago"?. And my cellphone played Pony's Shoot. I was like "This is it, this song is so 2 years ago". I won't tell you that cliche "How time travels so fast" anymore, but it's still amazing thing. Hahaha… let's see.. two years ago is Kpop year… I know I explore my music taste because of Kpop, it made me realize that I could listen things other than JRock. Kpop is definitely amazing, no matter how many people mocking it, we can't doubt that Kpop is such a phenomenon. And it's a bit phenomenon too when three of my friends, Cia, Ferin and Ebi went to Korea for Summer School. I asked Cia to buy me a Pony's CD (hell yeah) and she got it for me! she said it was the last piece. Hey it's so lucky, I got the last piece!. Here's the CD

Not particularly amazing package hahaha, but I buy it because their music, that's all. I never buy original things from overseas if they're not high quality stuffs. Well, I only had 2 original stuffs actually… haha, it's really because I DO LOVE these artists. So, Pony members, get done a new album, please, I will definitely buy it!. Actually, I had a funny and awkward twitter chat with the drummer couple times ago. I asked for their new album, he said it will be out in October and now is a fucking December… I don't know anymore… like blah. I don't know where to monitored them anyway, I can't accessed cyworld. Naaah… If we meant to each other then I would see their new stuffs… somehow.

Talking about new… I got new gadgets these last 6 months (?). I got Samsung Gio and Macbook Pro. Hahaha it's funny when Steve Jobs died, I was so sarcastic towards those Apple Worshippers, I don't understand their overly-dramatic reactions or those are just euphoria? I don't know… I said "maybe because I don't have Apple gadget then I don't feel sad" and I just imagined Steve Jobs as Hedi Slimane, I would jump off the bridge if knowing that Hedi died. See people, I tried to understand anyway…. Then, voila! couple weeks after that, I got my macbook because of internship duty. You know… I never imagined to have my macbook before I got my own money, but my father and my siblings are great so… I got my first Apple!. w o w. Not that special, actually. Not as special as if I got a Dior Homme SS2007 blazer falling from heaven.

And Cia tweeted me this while she was on subway... a poster of concert I suppose, and Pony was one of the performer. Hahaha, if I was there maybe I would screaming out... no, I'm actually quite emotionless.

By the time Cia saw this, the performance already held so...

Popcorn Time #1

2011-04-16T01:06:00.003+07:00

holaaa... I'm on a stage of wildly picking up movies and watching them. I'll write some of the, if not the best, the most memorable ones. Here we go...

Control [2007] 4/5

This movie is about Joy Division's singer Ian Curtis. It based on biography written by his widow, Debbie Curtis. Firstly, I would say this movie is like an extended video clip, where the songs are beautifully placed, it was almost like the film being the soundtrack of its music. B/W cinematography is a plus point since it fits the moody atmosphere really well. And the best score is belong to Sam Riley, he played Ian Curtis very very well. It's almost like seeing the man himself. I enjoy it as a fan of Joy Division, it was a lot of "wow" and "ooh" moments, I don't know if a non-fan would feel the same.

24 Hour Party People [2002] 3.5/5

If Control focused on Ian Curtis and Joy Division, this movie talking about a wider scale of Manchester music scene, with memorable Tony Wilson as the main role. It was a perfect companion for Control actually, or vice versa, since I watched Control first. It takes lighter approach on this somehow legendary era of a certain city. I didn't like some illustrations of Ian Curtis and JD there, or other events occurring through the movie. But if you take it as light as this movie, you would just laugh it off. Because there are a lot of good laughs, seriously. I love it. I love its smart jokes, shallow and yet fascinating story...

Boy A [2007] 4/5

Oh yeah, Andrew Garfield ladies and gentlemen... This movie is about a former prisoner, went out from jail, got a new identity and struggle with his new life. What a sad and touching movie I must say. You couldn't help not to pity Jack, though he killed a girl in his past. I can't forget how his childhood with Philip, how they share same irony in their life. This movie really has a strong storyline, and also strong performance by Andrew Garfield, who always good at playing sorrowful character. "Do you love me?", said Jack to Michelle. I'm out of words. You should watch this movie by yourself and understand how beautiful it is.

Red Riding Trilogy [2009] 4/5

The Trilogy... can I talk about the 1974 only, the one with Andrew Garfield in it? hahaha. Red Riding is a movie about how policemen could be so dick at times. It's really irritating, the police department which are the antagonist characters throughout the trilogy are very draining. But if a movie could gives you such a real emotion like that, then it was a great one. Red Riding is smart in making our detective minds craving for more revelations and truth, which costs a lot to its protagonists. In case of Ed Dunford [Andrew Garfield] the irony is too much, it's too sad, and I like it. See what I said before, Andrew Garfield is good at playing sorrowful character. Anyway, the conclusion for me is bit odd and forced, though it was a happy ending. But that's okay, since the movie is very good in overall scale.

Before Sunrise - Before Sunset [1995/2004] 4/5

My fave romantic movie all time... Let's look at it, it was about two people, strangers to each other, making conversation along the way, find themselves in the most engaging relationship ever, falling in love, or maybe not... it's just... sexy. The thoughtful dialogues of life or just simple playings they do. Romantiiiic... where could I buy a romance like this? I'll trade it with everything I got. PLEASE. Sounds desperate? well yeah... hahaha. I'm in love with the romance, with them, with Jesse and Celine. How fascinating their journey was. And they seem destined to be just "there" for each other. So complicated love, so beautiful, so... I don't know, I almost think if they met again on December in Vienna that time, it won't be this beautiful. Though it's hard knowing their love wasn't meant to be out from heaven to reality, but they also understand it's the beauty of it at some point. Oh yeah I'm rambling right now and being so far from giving relevant review. But I really really truly madly deeply in love with this movie, so... I'll stop here.

I guess that's it. Five movies is enough. I'm on my way watching My Own Private Idaho right now... it sounds so promising.
And oh, I'm officially watched every Andrew Garfield's movie, including the short movie "I am here". How cool is that? hahaha can't wait for the Spiderman, and "Now" [Cillian Murphy] and also "Belle Du Seigneur" [Jonathan Rhys Meyers]. NEXT YEAR WILL BE EPIC

Beautiful Ones

2011-03-21T15:47:00.001+07:00

[c] http://www.flickr.com/photos/herdiankurniawan/

Cracked up, stacked up, 22, psycho for sex and glue
lost it to Bostik, yeah,
Shaved heads, rave heads, on the pill, got too much time to kill
get into bands and gangs... oh

It's on March 19th, two days ago... about 10 PM in JIExpo hall A... Suede rocking the stage, everyone... Thanks to BlackBerry I was able to see them and other artists live... wonderful experience.

I got the giveaway ticket cos my friend, Amel, who also with me at the venue, told me to join the giveaway on live n rocking site. My other friends took that chance to see 2PM, and well... me too... I thought I'll go applying ticket to see 2PM, oh yes, I'm that 2PM fans... just happy go lucky you know, have a free ticket though I'm not a big fan anymore hahaha. Then I found out Suede was the big act of that event, and I thought "wow, there's a rock band performed", since I never watch any real rock band's live, I won't miss the chance, decided I'll be an ultimate poser of Suede, I listened to their Singles album.

I'm not growing up in their heyday and not in the BritPop scene either, so I only remember their two songs; Beautiful Ones and She's in Fashion. Their songs weren't love at first sound if I might say hahaha... but Trash is really a good one, and it turns out that I know "Lazy" and "Positivity". Anyway, on the d-day, I barely know their songs... even it took me minutes to figure out Trash was played...

But you know what, it doesn't matter. Though the long long sound checking and exhausting ad plus MC talks, it's really worthed when they come down to the stage and rock the venue. It's not like looking at their pictures cos it's totally different. You can go like "oh yea, they were those pretty boys playing music" when see pictures but when they actually played, it was heavenly phenomenon. Hahaha... now I'm talking about Mr.Anderson, yes. What should I say? those moves, attitude, hair flips, mic swings, walks, sweats, chest... God, he's so damn sexy...! it's not like anything in pictures or youtube videos.

After watching him awhile on the stage, I came realizing that he reminds me of Bowie... the walks, and the shaking I guess, was so Bowie... I mean, I don't mind, I really like it. And he got this lean, slender feature... it just clicked on me. I'm pretty sure he's a fan of Bowie. But sadly I was standing behind this mad fan, and on my left is this guy with big hair... hahaha so funny, it was a big no no when you're a not-so-tall woman, so my vision to them is quite limited, it's only spanned from the vocalist's mic to the keyboard, I was in lefty-center position. They feel so close though, since I was only a bar behind from the VIPs.

Soo... when I was not looking to sexy Mr.Anderson, I looked at their keyboardist-guitarist Neil Codling. Man, he got attitude too... like that stiff - puppet like attitude... that's so sexy too... hahaha. They really put their great energy on their performance that night, everyone just enjoy and scream, and up their hands to the air... like it. Like it so much, though I can't sing along since I didn't know the lyrics, but I really enjoy the vibe. The vibe of watching real rock band... hahaha amazing. Like what VJ Daniel said, I guess I'm proud for being one of the lucky ones to see Suede live, babyyyy.. whoooo!

About other performers... 2PM was ugh, how should I put it in words? the fans are crazy, I couldn't see a thing because I've been pushed here and there. They're nuts, barbar! yeah, that's the word, shame on you guys, you're barbar fans, thank God they're gone after 2PM. Shontelle and Taio was good, the DJ before Shontelle was amazing.. dancing all the waaaay! really good feelings. BlackBerry and the EO was doing good job, if there were people said bad things about them, I guess they're just being childish, and stupid.

Love Will Tear Us Apart

2011-02-12T23:50:00.004+07:00

Benoni Loos, at least it's more successful than the last one

Long time no see. Nothing spectacular happened in my life, just feel like to filling this blog... like always, hehehe. Hmmm finally 5th semester was over, and yes I failed the DKV class due to doubts, lack of commitments and despair. Three things to make the worst, so I was like "ok, I'd better let it go, I didn't have any point on keep doing this anyway". Better to wrapped up the bad things and start the new one on blank paper, right.

Thinking about this past 6 months of college, I probably could sum it up with three things; models, livestreams, and randomness. Hahaha I love my life, it's been a very colored journey through the internet, knowing many new things. God, is it sad knowing "new things" from the internet? well if it was, then let it be. Time flew so fast, it's already 3-4 months I'm digging in-out about male models. Finally last January I watched my first real time fashion week...! it's awesome. Excitement for being a part of something big, you know... hahaha.

I remembered this, it was Monday, I have new media class until 7pm, and The GUCCI show, which I had the e-invitation FOR THE FIRST TIME (the invitation was very brilliant idea, I like it so much hahaha) was scheduled at 6.30. I was checking out the Gucci homepage all the way as the class goes, watching the countdown as it slowly come down to the show time... my body was there, but my soul was somewhere else. And oh, that day Mark Cox replied my tweet in breaktime, suddenly it was exceeding from "exciting" to "super exciting" day. That day I was so high spirited somehow... hahaha.

Then when the class actually finished at 6.30, I'm running down to my friend's dorm and dang. I couldn't sign in to Gucci. That was... devastating. I don't know why, is that because I late? it's too real, Gucci.. it was only a livestream. Please. I asked loveorhateorlove if only she had it recorded, cos I requested it days before.. and she didn't make it... hahaha, it was fine... But I tell you, I really love the thrill.

Another show, Z Zegna, I watched it at Vera's dorm, that day we did the calendar assignment together and should go home at night. There was no choice, I streamed it down in her dorm. Her connection is waaay faster than mine. Lucky... I should spent the whole fashion weeks in her dorm... hahaha. Hh, I could only tell that Milan-Paris was awesome, for a first timer like me. Imagine how awesome it was, if I really there, not just screaming out in front of monitor...

Other things that prominent these days are... tumblr was actually very addictive, and useful since my models updates are came from tumblr, and it makes me very productive somehow like, "boreeed, I have nothing to do, let's draw something and put it out on tumblr"... Couple models are friend accepter. They're great. It's exciting to see the notification, like you want to tell the whole world but then "Now what?". Hahaha...

I guess that's it. This week is time for NY-London. NY is a tricky one cos our 12 hours difference, how could I wake up at 2 am just to see a lagged livestream... I'm hoping for London though.

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"Nothing too useless to know, nothing too worthless to remember"
that's why
"I find excitement through looking for names, faces, words on the internet... feel such a stupid achievement which I love so much"

New things on my library: Blondie, These New Puritans, Spleen United, The Go! Team, Joy Division, museum (indie band whose mp3s could be downloaded for free on lastFM, that's why I had them hahaha, but they're good), and will added Billy Idol soon, after I finished this Bowie's Reality Tour. DAVID BOWIE I'M YOURS

Spaceman says everybody look down

2010-12-17T23:36:00.006+07:00

Yesterday's lucky charm. My beloved Ethan James. I love his lips so bad. See, I'm bit more concern about lips when it came to drawing. My fave boys all have intriguing lips. And yes, drawing Ethan while doing assignment is not a wrong thing to do, look how lucky I am last Thursday hahaha.

Today's topic is about Space. There's a show on NatGeo called Travellers Guide to Planet. Basically they talking about tourist spots on each planet in our solar system. Yesterday I watched about Saturn, and today is Jupiter, I just realized their "giant ball of gas" names means literally they only consist of gas, no soil inside. So the show bit more focused on their moons for tourism spot.

All I can say is... it was really an amazing view, from staggering miles miles tall geyser in Enceladus, volcano at Io or endless icy surface on Europa. Ah, really bring back my childhood dreams. I used to dream about cosmos back in my elementary school. Hahaha... I used to read my sis' highschool book of astronomy. I used to remember all planet's sattelite names, believe me. I guess I actually love remembering names, for something I like of course.

But yeah, although I don't understand apex point and another calculation on that book, I really love studying those planets, when I actually met these planets on science subject at 5th - 6th grade, I already understand them all. I knew more than all my friend did, quite proud about myself here. Hahaha. As a child I always wondered how it feels like to travel the universe, seeing millions stars and nebulas out there. To touch and feel the alien air. Once I dreamt about going on amusement park then I saw big planets so close against the night sky, I felt so small... but I can touch the universe with my hands. It's really a beautiful dream, eventough I forget the rest of that dream but I still remember the scenery.

Science is so much fun in elementary school... getting to know many exciting things out there, and when it came to highschool, it's damn frustrating. No fun in it. We began too theoritical. There was just no space to dream and imagine and just be amazed with what nature offers. So sad to think that actually it's so beautiful when we didn't have to think about numbers and equation.

Well, maybe just it. I uploaded some new short stories on my WP. One is about highschool crush hahaha... I still remember my conversations with him, or them? I have many highschool crushes.

Straight to Library

2010-11-26T23:17:00.004+07:00

HELLO. It's rare to see me put entry two days in row, except when it was WC months ago. Hahaha.

I just look back at my entries until World Cup madness back then, and there were a lot of captures of my lastFM, it's bit shocking. Because, you know what, I only got 70 artists back in July and now I got 100. What I've done?! 30 artists... it must be so random like, I was picked up tracks from fashion ads and runways and some old bands, one hit wonder... hahaha. Well, I guess it's fine even tough I quite principal to not adding one track only and adding one full album instead. It feels guilty if you only listen to one song from an artist, like you don't quite appreciate their works. But now maybe I will applied it to like.. very good artist only. Yea, like The Cure!! hahaha yes. Love their Boys Don't Cry album. Yummy yummy post punk. I'll search more post punk when it's holiday. YEP.

Today's like the other days, keep looking at fashion spot's thread hahaha. And got bored so I wanna talk about good music. Or, good song, yea. People can blabbered about their knowledge or over the top smart thoughts about good music. Which is, very relative between people. For me, good music is feel clicked since the first time you hear it. Like... love at first sound. Hahaha I guess it's quite it.

So, today I'll list some of my "love at first sound"s. I will concentrate on some my new entries on library even it's not impossible to include the old ones when I run out of idea. Hahaha

Killing an Arab - The Cure
The Cure really wrote many great songs. I'm sad because me, living in my generation, grow up listen to their two songs only, Friday I'm in Love and Boys Don't Cry. Hahaha. Ok, I watched Killing an Arab on youtube first, and it's my instant fave because the guitar sounds, and the rhythm. It's FLAWLESS. You know FLAWLESS? I never used flawless to describe song before. I guess I like guitar sounds that fast.. melodic.. sophisticated... I can't really put it in words. And it sounds Arabic at the same time. See, I guess musicians from that certain era express their thoughts through music perfectly. Their music speaks its message. You rarely find this kind of things today. See, how many people will write about a play or scene from a book in their songs?. Today's musicians are less intellectual. Oh God, I said that. Hahaha

Spaceman - The Killers
Somebody told me that you had a boyfriend... or girlfriend... or I don't know. Forget about that song. The Killers write another song called Spaceman. Yep. Before one of my friend talk about The Killers, being a big big fans he was, I never considered The Killers to enter my library. I know The Killers as "one of that eyeliner guys-band". Back in 2000s there are a lot band sound like this, isn't it. But yeah, I'm just curious why my friend so in love with The Killers, I search them down on youtube and find word SPACEMAN. No doubt, I hit it right away. It's really a good catchy and stylish song. I'm falling in love, DEEPLY. I can spend 30mins only to hear the same song. But sadly, it's the only song from The Killers that I found love in to.

Ghosts - Ladytron
Introducing... Ladytron. Hehehe... I watched Josh Beech in Levis ad, and this song was its background song. When I saw the music credit I was just like "I should have it". I said it a lot these days that I want something that feels so "runway". Ghosts is a mysterious song first time you hear it. It's detached (look I learn new word from fashion... hahaha) and... fashion..

Plug In Baby - Muse
Again, it's the guitar sounds.. quite alike Killing an Arab, I will pretty much dercribe it with same words... fast, melodic, sophisticated. Ok, I don't know anything about music so I'm afraid if I went too far I will sound ridiculous. So I guess fast melodic and sophisticated just enough. I heard this song first time when my friend did karaoke for this and I was like "What sound is that???!"

Planet Earth - Duran Duran
Should I write some intros? hahaha, I guess it's not necessary. I watch Duran Duran in VH1 and this was the first song I listened. Just love Nick's synthesizer riffs (can we said riff for synth? or it's just for guitar?). And of course the bass beneath it, and the bop bop bop... It's SEXY. And the time when they said "Planet Earth Planet Earth Planet Earth" in bridge, then the sound of JT's bass came across? that's nuts. Sexiest song ever. That's the beginning for me to got into new wave.

Man Like Creatures - Straightener
I found them in AKG's similar artist. Yes, it's LastFM fault again. I like this song... I don't know, what we called this song's genre... indie?. Ohhh I hate indie as genre because it's weird, indie is way of act, genre is like... rock, punk, jazz, blues. Indie musicians plays garage or punk or something... why indie should be a genre? I guess it's already too many fusions and genre itself became blurred... well yea.
Check out that Straightener band. Their latest album "Creatures" is worth to try. Even it's not great. But... Man Like Creatures is great. Hahaha... apa deh gw bingung sendiri.

And this is my lastFM latest look

Maybe this is the last time where J in no.1 spot. Hahaha. Let's enjoy it for a moment.
My last 7 days top artists

1 The Cure 212
2 David Bowie 137
3 Maroon 5 136
4 ASIAN KUNG-FU GENERATION 74
5 Duran Duran 71
6 Keane 54
7 BUCK-TICK 44
8 이민기 29
9 ストレイテナー 26
10 The Clash 25
11 The Yellow Monkey 24
12 Ladytron 23
13 A Flock of Seagulls 22
14 Aerosmith 20
15 Soft Ballet 19
16 Muse 16
16 박효신 16
18 Dead End 13
19 The Stone Roses 10
20 포니 9

Abuse

2010-11-25T21:52:00.004+07:00

I did a lot of mistakes and have so many regrets. But this one is unforgivable. Try to not mourn and worry, I decide to do something fun to distract myself. I called this activity abusing pen tablet.

I traced some my fave models' photos and decorate them. I did them for 12 hours hahaha... sucks. But yeah, kinda help.

I guess I will give the credits for photos I've been traced.
Thomas Penfound by Hanuk
Benoni Loos by CosmoMacdonald
Cole Mohr by Nicolas Ripoll
Ethan James by... it's only credited with "Ford", his mother agency, in place where I got this pic from.

I kinda like them, look how it turn more intensely from the beginning to the end. Hahaha, I wanna do Jeremy Young but didn't find the right image, I'm lazy to googliiing so yeah, maybe next time. 4 is enough today.

I wanna be adored. Check this song from Stone Roses. I love this song so bad. I always wanna be adored. Other things are great, but adore, is for ego, the most hunger people would find. Just my deepest thought... never happened in real life though. I wanna be adored is... just how cool that sounds...

My drawings, no tracing...

Ethan was yesterday and Cole was 3 days ago... I love drawing... I guess. It's so much fun, it's different from edit some photos or traced people... you see it needs more skill. True. I know it's true, you know it's true.Hahaha...but, I need to learn like.. so so so seriously.

It's not so bad

2010-11-01T23:43:00.006+07:00

son of sorrow... hh..

um, the son of sorrow... he's very in his own world and his own trip

he's cool, calm and collective

he's very mysterious

I have too many time in my hand, so that I listen to all sayings in Gucci Campaign video. Hahaha... It's beautiful. Gw ga nyangka pertamanya kalo bisikan bisikan itu actually means something sampe gw tonton videonya dari awal sampe akhir. Trus gw dengerin bener2 soalnya suaranya saling numpuk saut2an gitu... hahaha. Beneran kebanyakan kerjaan gw.

So, who's the son of sorrow?
The one who's nameless
The one that didn't talk his own "name"?

Yeah of course it's Benoni. With that face? Son of Sorrow... Hell Yeah.
Hahaha, pas ga sih?. Gw ga bandingin sama kelakuan2 backstagenya karena udah pasti ga akan cocok. Mukanya sorrow sih, tapi ketimbang sorrow, lebih cocok "hate". Sorrow tu lebih lemah, whiny kayak mukanya Hyuksoo tuh. Kalo Benoni ini suremnya kayak penuh kebencian, nyimpen rencana jahat buat balas dendam. Hahaha

Oh I'm so in love with Benoni, I started drawing him about 2 days ago. It's awful hahaha... I should learn better anatomy. I have a bad reflex on drawing people's face. Rahangnya ga pernah kotak, pasti lancip, semuanya jadi salah tempat deh ah. The title of drawing is "Cut Here". It's The Cure's song.

THE CURE! hahaha, newbie in my library. Well, actually I started listen to their Greatest Hits like... a week ago? They're great. I always love repeated sounds and strong rhythm. Sexy, sexy bassline. I used too many sexy words these days. It's infectious. Hahaha. My fave songs should be In between Days, Cut Here and The Walk. The Walk and Cut Here are very runway show!. Hahaha... I'll remember those songs along with my models obsessions someday in the future. Cut Here is a very sad song... So romantic, Britons are very good at this. Pertama kali gw baca liriknya gw langsung nyimpulin ini lagu tentang pertemuan sama long-time-no-see love, tapi dia ga sempet ngapa2in dan akhirnya si love-nya ini pergi lagi dan semua selesai begitu aja. Love this idea. I always love this kind of idea.
Trus pas gw baca di wiki dan tau ni lagu buat vokalisnya Associates yang meninggal bunuh diri jadi tambah sedih deh. Abis bunuh diri sih, "until later, doesn't always come"

Nyesel, sedih... pinter deh liriknya
Ketimbang nangisin kepergian temennya dan berkutat di kematian dan ucapan selamat tinggal, dia justru nyeritain pas dia ketemu tapi ga sempet ngobrol atau liat dia tampil lagi... sampe akhirnya say goodbye gitu aja. Hhh...

Talking about new, akhir2 ini gw DKV diskusi sama kelompok gw yang ga terlalu familiar orang2nya. Alias ga bareng koloni. Hahaha... rasanya beda deh, kalo sama koloni udah ketebak banget. Kayak pertama si Hencoi pasti bakal ngasih one general solution,
Trus gw bakal "Tapi Hen, ini tu xxx. Gimana kalo xxx aja?"
Cia: "Gw rasa sih bagus juga tu Bol, jadi ntar xxx"
Hencoi: "Tapi Ci, masalahnya kan xxx"
Cia: "Nah tu dia Hen, kalo yang tadi tuh xxx"
Gw: "Udah Hen, itu xxx aja, kalo xxx kan nanti maksudnya xxx"
~terdiam~
Vera: "Oh atau ga, xxx aja, kan ga harus xxx"
Gw: "Tapi Ver..."
Vera: "Nggak nggak maksud gw kan xxx, jadi ini ga usah xxx gitu"
~terdiam lagi~
Hencoi: "OH! atau ga, gini aja... Jadi kita xxx trus yang ini tinggal kita xxx aja, gimana?"
Semua: "Hmmm"
Ebi: "Atau ga... Ci, gimana kalo xxx aja?"

Hahaha, I won't say it was bad, we've done a lot of good project together... it's just so predictable. Karena so predictable kayaknya gw ngerasanya kita ga bisa liat sesuatu dari sisi yang bener2 beda. Karena udah sama2 kenal dan sama2 tau, lama2 ada polanya. Enaknya kerja sama koloni sih gw bisa se-aneh dan se-bergelombang yang gw inginkan... gw bisa "semales-males"nya yang gw inginkan... hahaha... tapi kalo belom familiar jadi serius deh kerjanya. Beneran "kerja" gitu. Hahahaha...

Nanti kalo kerja kayak gitu ya?
Musti siap2 team work sama siapa pun, bagaimana pun.
Hmm... dealing with new people never easy for me. But I'll try.
Maybe it's not that bad after all...

_________________________________

02 Nov

I'M WROOOONG. Benoni is literally means "son of sorrow"

"The boy's name Benoni \b(e)-no-
ni\
is of Hebrew origin, and the meaning of Benoni is "son of my sorrow". Biblical: Rachel, mother of Benyamin, knew she was dying after his birth and called him Benoni, but Jacob, his father, changed the name to Benyamin"

See, this what happened when you didn't ask google first... so lame. Hahaha

The Return of The Thin White Duke

2010-10-27T01:23:00.005+07:00

Dosen gw pernah sekali bikin note di buku sketsa gw, komentarnya "kamu kalo nggambar kok selalu memanjang ya... syuuuut" sambil pake gambar wujudnya dia yang bergelombang memanjang.

Bawaan tangan susah ya, gw selalu suka fitur yang panjang2 begitu, style manga taun 2000an, gambarnya Tomoko Hayakawa, Ai Yazawa... and such and such... figur yang panjang, kurus, berkontur sudut2 selalu bikin gw bergairah untuk megang pensil. Ok, let's say rockstars and models. Hahaha

Guilty Pleasure gw sempet sering banget nongkrongin FMen setiap jam 7. Hahaha... vitamin mata, liat yang indah-indah selalu menyenangkan memang. Akhir-akhir gw udah jarang nyempetin nonton FMen, tapi ternyata ada hal lain yang akhirnya malah bikin gw nyari model-model cowok. Gw lagi penat banget mungkin sampe David Bowie dan Duran Duran aja ga cukup buat gw killing time. So, waktu itu gw lagi bosen banget, cari2 artis seru lagi di lastFM, trus gw ke forum "I was born several decades too late" liat2 thread tentang celebrity crush, trus gw baca seseorang yang demen sama Paul Simonon. Sering denger dan sering liat, dan oh, ternyata bassistnya The Clash yang keren itu. Iseng lah gw cari2 om Paul di gugel, eh, keluar foto anaknya, Claude dan Louis Simonon. They're gorgeus and do modelling. Ini lah yang disebut ganteng genetis. Seru banget dong nemu yang ginian, hahaha... gw google lagi pake namanya Claude, bersualah gw dengan web models.com. Racun banget... hahaha... gw mulai liat2 ini itu, si anu si ini... gw liat Top 50 modelsnya, trus beberapa kali berkomentar "aaah ini kan yang sering ada di FMen"

Tentu saja wajah-wajah yang gw kenali di FMen wajah-wajah yang beda dari yang lain. Gw sering nganggep omongannya Hencoi tentang artis Korea yang mukanya sama dan dia ga bisa bedain tu rada2 ga bisa dipercaya, tapi setelah gw mengalaminya sendiri dengan kesulitan membedakan wajah model A dan B karena hampir semua model potongannya seragam, mukanya setipe, gw percaya kata-kata itu. Hahaha.

Kayak Josh Beech, Cole Mohr, mereka berdua mukanya beda banget tu dari yang lain makanya gw langsung hapal. Fave gw dari model yang ga tipikal itu, Benoni Loos... he's not traditionally beautiful... but that's how I like him. This is one of my fave photo:

http://www.andreavecchiato.com/

Lurus, berkelok mengalir... manteb dah ni foto. What a long neck. Benoni Loos orangnya absurd, just leave it there. Hahaha seninya "ngefans" sama model itu lo bisa menikmati wujudnya tanpa harus terlibat jauh dengan perasaan. Sangat ringan dan bergizi. Kalo yang idola beneran idola kan udah kayak beli "brand", semua fotonya lo bilang bagus dan lo donlot, bukan karena emang bagus, tapi karena itu "idola lo". Sok-sok hubung2in aja gw.

Fave gw yang lain, Jeremy Young, killer cheekbones.. I always love cheekbones. Tirus mutlak tu mukanya Jeremy. Trus gw liat dia tipikal orang Inggris yang well-mannered gitu... lucu deh. Terus tentu saja kawannya, atau pacarnya? si mas ganteng di ujung jalan yang ngeben dan sekaligus modelling (orang kayak gini ada beneran), the one and the only... Josh Beech. Ganteng lah doi, pesona yang sangat laki laki. Hahaha, siapa lagi... hmmm Mathias Bergh, muka golden ratio... ganteng absolut itu. Another names that I had in mind... Cole Mohr (again), Taylor Fuchs... ahhh... dia nih salah satu model yang selalu gw perhatiin dulu di FMen, gw tau namanya Taylor, tapi penyakit emang mereka ga pernah kasih nama belakang, dulu kalo mau gugel dia ga akan dapet deh. Trus... Francisco Lachowski, Jume nih demenannya hahaha, Nicolas Ripoll, quite a good photographer, lucu karena dia masuk model justru karena pengen belajar fotografi, I see a future Nigel Barker here... hahaha... siapa lagi... Ash.. pecicilan, labil, malesin deh liatnya, Thomas Penfound, blondie... Gordon Bothe... typical European beauty... Tyler Riggs, Charlie France, Mathias Lauridsen, Simon Nessman... see how many things you can actually get if you dedicated to something. Hahaha... setiap onlen ngeliatin mereka aja... jadi gini kan. Bentar lagi harus cari lahan baru deh... apa ya? atlet kali? hahaha ga lurus2 bersudut2 deh. Pengen banget gw gambar salah satu dari mereka, kemaren gw coba gambar Benoni sedih melulu hasilnya... my imperfect hands are not for perfect faces ya... hahaha.

Okay... I think that's it. Writing something meaningless make my life happier.. a bit.

NB: 1st picture is actually my drawing of Hyuksoo... hahaha alisnya kurang jauh ke atas jadi ga kayak dia deh, so lame

Blank New Plain

2010-10-20T22:19:00.000+07:00

Feel so sad these days...
Walopun udah selese dapet
Walopun bentar lagi udah mau 20. Ah iya, katanya mereka yang lebih tua umur ga ngaruh...
Hahaha... tapi buat gw harusnya makin tua itu makin stabil, ga ada yang tiba2 sedih terus putus asa. Sama hal yang entah apa...
Kayak gini ni ga keren. Strong and independent baru keren.

Atau gw tau, tapi pura pura ga tau...
Pura pura ga tau buat apa ya... Gw ga ngerti. Gw selalu memposisikan diri gw jadi yang "Ooh, I don't understand".
Kalo gw milih buat jadi yang nggak ngerti, mana ada yang bakal ngerti.
This world won't care so I should be strong and face it myself. No one would mourn with me, or cry with me... My own problem. My own issues.

I need to talk with stranger now. I run out of strangers... I can't spill my mind anymore.
Need blank canvas to paint
Need new place to belong
Need plain paper to write

There's something funny about my quiz result on FB couple days ago. Tentang bahasa apa yang harus gw pelajari, katanya bahasa Belanda. Tapi bukan bahasanya yang penting... yang penting itu kenapanya... kata kuis itu gw
"A soft but hard language, you are afraid to move away from familiarities but are desperate to escape to where you rightfully belong"
Hahahaha... yeah.

Hm, mau SMA lagi. Udah sering lah ya dibilang.
Kangen waktu bisa nyalahin "dunia ini" buat semua masalah gw, instead mikirin "gw harus gimana" atau "gw kenapa". Simpel banget nyalahin "dunia". Gw rasa menyebar kebencian itu ada enaknya ketimbang mencoba berpikir.

Mungkin beberapa bulan dari sekarang pas gw baca tulisan gw ini gw bakal malu sendiri. But well... I can't do anything to this empty feelings than write it and "tell" it to the world.

I will watch Inoran and go to sleep. Oh, I don't understand. What should I do. Why am I like this.
Kenapa gw beginiiii? bahasa kerennya.

Talking for Free

2010-09-08T22:58:00.001+07:00

I'm talking for free...
I can't stop myself it's a new religion...

I still find it so difficult to draw with tablet, it's different with manual drawings... geez... Can I have manual tricks and feelings with digital results? ahahaha, I'm just lazy to learn new stuffs I guess... yeah, because those new stuffs didn't work well with me. WHY OH WHYYY. Liat tu gambar gw idungnya kemana2, proporsinya parah ma meen... hahaha.. tapi gw suka sih komposisinya.

Anyway, I'm writing blog this time to postpone something... hahahaha. My last entry talking about my new story in progress, right, it's still in progress... hahaha. It's near the end, but I don't know why I'm adding new twists and stuffs. And because my usual habit writing assignment with my friends, now I always have extra attention on details, why one thing can happened, that should lead to another and everything should have an explanation. This kinda sucks. Hahaha... But anyways, still loving the process. I think... XD XD XD

Hahaha I wonder... if write this short story needed this much attention to details, then how about writing movie like Inception? hahaha, Nolan must had a lot of works. That's why this movie always talking about explanation in its 2hours or more. And yet, many people still questioning about this and that and demand more explanation!! hahaha, I think the solution is making story that not make the audience analyze too much.

What happened in my life? not much, next Saturday I will go to Manado, yeay holiday, which means unconnected with internet worlds and I can't continue to write my story for about a week. Oh Gosh, that's why I should finish it quick... geez.

Still digging about Duran Duran... hahaha, still haven't got any new idol... hmmm I think I will be fans for the rest of 2010. Yeaaay.... This is how my latest lastFM looks like

Poor Inoran... hahaha. My top artists of the week:

1		David Bowie
2		Duran Duran
3		LUNA SEA
4		Enya
5		Soft Ballet
6		L'Arc~en~Ciel
7		J
8		Red Hot Chili Peppers
8		Aerosmith
10		Maroon 5
11		The Clash
11		INORAN
11		ギルガメッシュ
14		BUCK-TICK
15		HYDE
16		雅-MIYAVI-
17		A Flock of Seagulls
18		Pearl Jam
19		박효신
20		Depeche Mode

Whoah, Enya done a very good job. Soft Ballet!! wahahaha remember in "Punk Poser" entry I kinda hated this band and yeah, it's really not wise to judge a band from one song only. I listened to them a lot these days... mwakakaka. Again, it's karma you know. I'm digging new wave sounds....! it's great. Flock of Seagulls is really good too, sadly I just have their two songs, I Ran and Space Age Love Song, maybe I will added more soon.

Tablet REBOOT!

2010-09-01T00:54:00.002+07:00

Today oh, it's 0:14 already?
Yesterday LUNA SEA announced that they will have a world tour (...)
and J has a new haircut (YEAAAAY)
That's the most important thing of all... it's even more important than the press conference itself.
He looks younger, fresh-er... EVERYTHING. Oh... he looks skinnier too... double yeay for that... hahaha...

Critanya ga ada ni foto om Je yang udah potong rambut, ada capture streamingan gitu... gw aplot icon YM gw aja deh ni... hahaha... cuma 100 x 100

Hahaha... aduh cakep ya... terharu banget gw... mau world tour harus ganti penampilan dulu gitu? XD XD XD. Gw stuju oom lo kayak gini rambutnya walopun terlalu boiben atau Justin Bieber sih... Si om Je... kalo potong cepak kayak model2 gitu ganteng dah... beneran. Mature dan tetep fresh. Beuh kalo ampe potong rambut kayak gitu... ckckckck... senyam senyum 24/7 gw... You are my heaven.. yeaaa

Tadi gw juga gatel banget pengen gambar si om Je, ampe (akhirnya) install lagi tu tablet... hahaha... trus gini jadinya

Hahaha... om Je yang terlalu muda dan terlalu kurus... aduuuuh... tapi gw kangen rasanya nggambar pake tablet... hahaha. Emang jadi tambah kebanyakan mikir sih, karena dibetulinnya gampang banget. Tapi kalo gambar om Je yang di atas itu nggak sih, jelas lah ya... XD. Gw abis gambar om Je maen2 lagi... gw gambar... AOI.

Tokoh di cerita baru gw... harusnya dia lebih kurus lagi... kalo di sini kayak rahangnya terlalu lebar. Tadinya gw pengen bikin dia mukanya feminin, jadi agak ngebulet gitu kerangka awalnya. Tapi ga tau kenapa kayak gini akhirnya... jadi maksa gitu... "kayak cwe ah" "ah, nggak nggak... gw pengen kayak cowo si Aoi". Tangan gw berantem sama otak gw. Gambar di kertas sama di "monitor" laen banget rasanya... gw selalu kesusahan sama proporsi kalo nggambar pake tablet, shasilnya ga kayak yang gw harapkan pokoknya.

Gw lagi nulis crita baru lagi... belom ada judulnya sih, tapi ni cerita pendek, nggak sambung menyambung walopun agak panjang sih. Ber scene-scene. Nah di situ tu masalahnya. Gw akhir2 ini banyak banget ide, tapi gw mulai males nulis rangkaiannya, males nulis paragraf deskriptif buat jelasin tempat atau situasi, alurnya perlahan2 yang membawa kita ke inti ceritanya... yang kebayang langsung garis besar kejadian sama percakapannya... random. Iya, random. Mungkin kata itu yang paling tepat buat cerita yang lagi gw tulis. Random and strange. But I love it that way. It's so fun to write. Just write what you want to write.

Aoi should remind you about someone... David Bowie in The Man Who Fell To Earth... Hahaha... reddish hair, pale and skinny, who else.

Turn to the left, turn to the right

2010-08-29T22:21:00.003+07:00

I'm upset because I couldn't be upset with people that will said my Stardust name came from Daigo Stardust, I couldn't be upset with people that know The Man Who Sold The World was Nirvana's song, and I couldn't be upset with people that will said I imitated Lady Gaga if I had a lightning mark on my face.

I couldn't be upset with Lady Gaga for having influences, and I couldn't be upset with people who didn't know David Bowie either. Like I didn't know who the hell Jeffree Star was, then you'll kill me? No. Shit happens, and it's annoying. And oh, I know who Jeffree Star is, I just set an example.

If you didn't know who Jeffree Star is, go on try google, people. Ah, really. I always annoyed with people that didn't know many things. I know I couldn't hate people because of that, sadly. And yes my hate is maybe immature and temporary. But still... hahaha. I really happy if people know what I know. And be exciting as I was when know those things!. That's important. Geez... Zodiac Facts said I'm extremely good at promoting something. Maybe because of this. Interesting. Well, couple days ago, Zodiac Facts wrote some facts about Sagitarius and rarely this time, all of them are true... let's see. It was all good sayings... so it's good for mental health.

Sagittarius are ones who can often daydream over matters and events. (this one is not really a good thing)
Sagittarius are likely to always have some form of honourable objective onto which to target their mind.
Sagittarius can be reluctant to take on responsibilities, a little anti where rules and regulations apply.

Sagittarius are the ones who are always seeking to broaden there horizons and knowledge. (see? see?) XD XD XD

I'm proud of myself right now. Yeay. Hahaha... some times ago, I said I was quite geeky this holiday and then I posted something like this on my plurk "If I become popular one day, my silly youtube videos will be a rare treasure for my fans, right?" Then one of my friend replied "Yes, but only for GEEK!". It was like DANG! on my head. Oh dear, I laughed so hard, to myself, to my life. Then today I watched Criminal Minds when Dr. Reid try to approach a girl, Morgan said "What thing you master the most in conversation?". Reid said "Statistics". Mwahahaha... we all know no one will listened someone talking about statistics. But I'd love to, actually. That's what make him different, I play stupid for that!, well yeah actually maybe I'm stupid indeed. But of course magic is interesting too. Hahaha it was a cute Criminal Minds episode today.

Aduh tadi pas mandi banyak bener kayaknya yang pengen gw tulis... ah begitu pegang web laen ilang semua bubar... bahasa Inggris gw pun bubarr semuanya.

Ah udah lah, so here's David Bowie; The Man Who Sold The World

Oh oh oh gw tau gw mau ngomongin apa. Influence... hahaha ini lagiiii... Aduh ya sedih banget emang cerita lagu The Man Who Sold The World itu. Gw juga ga nyangka itu lagunya David Bowie... mwahaha. Bayangin betapa ngeselinnya kalo karya lo lebih dikenal sebagai karya orang lain? BETAPA ANNOYINGnya bukan. Ini hal yang paling menyedihkan yang bisa terjadi di musik gw rasa, kaya kalo di visual arts ngomongin nyuri style. Haaah... fashion dalam hal ini paling seru ya berarti, influence itu erat kaitannya sama tren, ga akan ada yang nyalahin lo ambil style desain orang lain, dengan alasan tren. Gw ga tau fashion banget emang, tapi influence gw rasa paling fleksibel di fashion ketimbang seni2 yang lain.

Chic Ironic Iconic

2010-08-23T22:39:00.006+07:00

Ripped *caela* from my diary

22 Agt 2010_Minggu

Nyamss

Ok, gw ngedonlot album RHCP yang Californication hari ini.

Setelah gw selese, gw sadar ngapain gw donlot satu album

Pikiran pendek.. karena liat 3 single di situ yang gw kenal enak-enak semuanya, langsung gw donlot aja... hahahha.

Tapi, thank God albumnya bagus,

Mulus dari track satu sampe selese. Dan ada 2 lagu yang ngehit juga, tapi bukan single kali ya... Around The World sama Road Trip.

Hhh, so, gw bener bener mundur ke belakang, abis Maroon 5 pas SMP, sekarang RHCP, jaman SD itu. Hahaha....

Dulu pas Scar Tissue - By The Way, mereka boom abis2-an tuh. Di tv ada terus lagunya, MTV nayangin biografinya segala macem. Pokoknya gede banget deh.

Oooh, I love "By The Way" so so much.

I remember every time the song started on tv, I run to it and do some "air-guitar" stuffs with a bamboo stick.

Hahaha... That crazy. Oh yes, I'm so so in love with that song.

Dulu, gw sering bannget pura2 punya acara countdown sendiri, ngomong sendiri kayak penyiar radio atau pembawa acara tv. Hahaha... gw rasa ada beberapa lagu yang pernah masuk ke "acara countdown" gw dulu. Hmmm... Janet Jackson's "Doesn't Really Matter", Coldplay's "In my place", Aerosmith's "Jaded", Pearl Jam's "Last Kiss", The Corrs' "Summer Sunshine", RHCP's "By The Way", Bryan Adam's "After Cloud no.9", Blackstreet's "In a Rush", Craig David's "Walking Away", maybe.

Hahaha... coba deh besok gw cek lagu2 itu, pasti around year 2000 semuanya.

It makes me think something funny.

Selera musik jaman gw SD-SMP itu lebih bagus ketimbang jaman sesuadahnya, alias JRock era. Mwahahahahaha....

As a teenager, music is about identity. Well, it's still until now... Tapi dulu waktu JRock era *caela*, hahahaha... Gw menutup diri dari yang ga Jepang, dari yang ga LArc, dari yang ga vkei maybe. Not because I hate them, but it's more like I didn't have any intention to listen music other than my fandom. Hmm maybe simply feels like "ah, it's not ME"

I said before

"For me, teenage is dark age when everything except yourself seems wrong. And young adult is Renaissance when everything seems right"

Hahaha, it's mostly talking about my music issue. Bahkan istilah history repeating itu kejadian di hidup gw sendiri!!. Hahaha...

Dulu waktu SD-SMP gw menilai lagu yang gw suka beneran pake kuping, lagu yang masuk countdown gw, mana peduli gw apa mereka keren, apa mereka keliatan aneh, beda dari yang lain, apa mereka pionir dari suatu movement, apa vokalisnya cakep, apa gitarisnya seksi, apa liriknya nyakitin, ga, ga sama sekali. Gw bahkan belom sepenuhnya ngerti sama apa yang mereka omongin, Gw beneran cuma jatuh cinta sama yang kuping gw denger.

Cool, huh. Hahahaha

Wow, gw dulu berarti anak televisi sekali ya. Tiap hari nongkrongin MTV gw rasa. Ah, sama satu lagi acara di RCTI, acara countdownnya sampo Clear, yang host Dewi Sandra, apa ya judulnya... hahaha. Gw inget gw liat videonya Pearl Jam yang Last Kiss di situ, pas gw kasih tau kakak gw, dia bilang "Emang itu ada video klipnya?". Dan pas gw cek sekarang, emang Last Kiss itu ga ada video klipnya. Haha

Oke, dan hari ini gw cek tu lagu2 di countdown gw... hmm semuanya pas antara taon 1998-2002. Yang aneh itu Summer Sunshine, masa gw cari tu lagu rilisnya taon 2004, sementara gw inget banget itu waktu gw SD atau at least SMP kelas 1 atau 2, jamannya nulisin diary yang warna kuning itu (kemane ye tu diary). Gw dengan lagu itu ngehayalin punya romance yang berhubungan dengan padang bunga matahari. Quite a vivid imagination, I still quite remember places that I imagined before... how the buildings look mediterannian... and a scenery about somewhere on the edge. With decaying wall on it, blue and red, strike the clear blue blue sky. Hahaha.. it's beautiful.. summer days... with orange scheme... warming.

Dan satu info lagi, ternyata Last Kiss itu lagu coveran. Damn, jadi pengen nyari aslinya kan. Hahaha...

Ada hal yang menarik lagi yang gw baca hari ini, gw nemu di Ask Katy @Duran Duran.com. JT ternyata punya ide tentang ngasih orang kado di hari ulangtahunnya dengan satu album dari tiap tahun hidupnya. Jadi let's say lo lahir taon 60 kayak JT, dari taon 72 lo beliin dia The Rise and Fall of Ziggy Stardust, dari taon 76 lo beliin dia Station to Stationnya David Bowie... and so on. Menurut gw itu ide yang sangat KEWL (finally I used this word). Tapi masalahnya kalo gw, lo bakal kasih apa...? taon 90an masih banyak yang oke walopun gw ga tau2 amat. Ya masalah besarnya selera gw ga di range umur gw.... hahaha... gw akan lebih berterimakasih kalo lo beliin gw albumnya David Bowie ato Duran Duran. Hahaha... but still, it's a cool idea.

Talking about years and my diary entry above... gw mikir lagi kalo gw SD di saat ini, di tahun 2010 ini... gw bakal suka sama lagunya siapa ya. Lady Gaga.. ada kemungkinan, secara gw yang SD pasti belom tau banyak tentang originalitas dan ga terlalu masalah sama itu. Hahaha... well.. siapa lagi, gw ga gitu tau banyak tau tentang musik jaman sekarang. Gw ga se-anak televisi yang dulu... XD XD XD. Hm, sebenernya mungkin ada patternnya tu lagu2 yang gw demenin dulu... gw cenderung suka sama artis lama yang lagi comeback.

Gw bisa bilang mungkin sedikit banyak kalo SD-SMP itu seleranya masih kebawa kakak2 gw, pas nemuin yang bener2 beda, dalam kasus gw LArc, gw mungkin secara ga sadar ketelen euforia "AHHH INI MUSIK GW". Adeknya Hencoi mungkin mengalami yang sama dengan Justin Bieber. Oh wait... Justin Bieber... that cute baby baby boy... apa kalo gw SD di saat ini gw akan demen sama dia? NO. No way. I guess no. Just no.

NB: chic ironic iconic is from ask katy section too... hahaha. It's talking about Red Carpet Massacre album cover

Not sure if you're a boy or a girl

2010-08-21T02:03:00.006+07:00

Good... morning mates. Nothing special...
I just want to share something interesting. Why ALL my idols have done androgynous looks before? even in case of Cillian Murphy, he played girl role TWICE. Hahaha... it's funny... it's all coincidence. I never planned before that I should idolize someone that played girly in some time of their lives. Hahaha..

Let's start with David Bowie, oh yeah, master of glam, make up diva!. Ziggy Stardust is really is. It's as simple as Rebel Rebel lyrics "You've got your mother in a whirl, She's not sure if you're a boy or a girl". Bowie brought concept of gender bender and whole sexuality things back then. That's the concept, concept that I think lasts in many ways, in life we seen today, in all aspect of art, music, fashion, entertainment...

So, Bowie put that concept in early 70s and in 1998, a movie called Velvet Goldmine try to captured that concept again. With Jonathan Rhys Meyers as Brian Slade, a character that surely heavily based on David Bowie's Ziggy Stardust. I think I shouldn't explain it twice, hahaha... Jonathan Rhys Meyers did look great in that movie. With the fact that he already had androgynous face from the beginning. He just rocked that face! geez. BEAUTIFUL.

Glam put colors on guys' faces and then it died, punk came in, bla bla bla... then, New Romantic strikes! the era of pretty boys came back, and yes, John Taylor is a part of it. Lipstick and hairsprays played their part again in music business!! hahaha... it's mid-80s I think, when visual bands showed up at Japanese music scene. Yes, then we talked about 90s band boom.. visual kei... J, is a part of this fever. Don't forget he also used lipstick back then, red and juicy. Ah... that dark age. So, all my JRock idols were part of this visual kei things and yes they all did make ups.

Let's see.. how about my Korean idols... hahaha... well in variety shows, I think they're pretty much played some girl roles. GD GD... did he ever played girl some time? hmmm, oh, BB parody about coffee prince. Can we include it? come on, it's so BL. And talking about BL there's Kim Jaewook... ahahaha that gay of demonic charms. Yeah, well I think I can conclude that all my idols are either played girly or gay. Isn't that cool?. I guess I just love "freaks". Never boring.

I also want to upload a wallpaper of Cillian Murphy that I love so much because I can't upload it somewhere else and yes, it's been years I don't make any wallpaper. Wallpaper is thing from the past huh. Hahaha, it was the time when I was crazy about LArc en Ciel

Don't you just love his cold look??????

2010-08-18T23:54:00.002+07:00

Gw iseng, copas ginian dari tumblr... sorry blog, I fill you up with the most trashy thing of all

1. Bold the names of guys you’d definitely get with.
2. Italicize the names of guys you get with after a little persuasion.
3. Leave the guys who don’t do anything for you alone.
4. Put a question mark after the guys you’ve never heard of. (?)
5. ~~Strike the guys you wouldn’t touch with a ten-foot pole.~~
6. Add three more guys to the list.

Russell Howard (?)
~~Robert Pattinson~~
Jeffrey Dean Morgan (?)
Hugh Jackman
Brad Pitt
Jared Padalecki (?)
~~Taylor Lautner~~
Robert Downey Jr.
Jared Leto
Adam Gontier (?)
Christian Kane (?)
Michael Welch (?)
Jensen Ackles (?)
John Cusack
Matt Dillon (?)
Ryan Reynolds(?)
Andrew Lee Pott (?)
Lee Pace(?)
David Tennant (?)
John Krasinski (?)
Rupert Grint
Justin Chambers (?)
Ed Helms (?)
Patrick Dempsey
Johnny Depp
Bradley Whitford (?)
Paul Rudd
Cory Monteith (?)
Dominic Monaghan
Zachary Quinto
Jon Hamm (?)
Joseph Gordon-Levitt
Taye Diggs (?)
Allan Hyde (?)
Christian Slater (?)
Alexander Skarsgard (?)
Sam Worthington
David Boreanaz(?)
Sam Trammell (?)
Ryan Kwanten (?)
Neil Patrick Harris (?)
Adam Lambert
Michael C. Hall (?)
Matthew Morrison (?)
Chace Crawford
Robert Carlyle (?)
Milo Ventimiglia
Chris Pine (?)
Tom Cruise
Joshua Jackson (?)
Ewan McGregor
Oguri Shun (tiba2 ada dia??)
Orlando Bloom
Zachary Levi (?)
Raza Jaffrey (?)
James Murray (?)
Jonas Armstrong (?)
Logan Lerman (?)
Keith Urban (?)
Andy Roddick (?)
Henry Cavill
James McAvoy
Matthew Perry
Lucas Till (?)
Ben Whishaw
Tom Sturridge (?)
Michael Cera (?)
Matthew Gray Gubler
Ian Somerhalder
Paul Walker (?)
David Beckham
Jason Segel (?)
Matt Smith (?)
Simon Baker (?)
Jude Law
Colin Farrell
Alex O’Loughlin (?)
Jonathan Rhys Meyers
Adrien Brody
Jim Sturgess (?)
Ryan Gosling
Jared Followill (?)
Hugh Dancy (?)
Paul Wesley (?)
Zac Efron
Bradley Cooper (?)
Jesse Eisenberg (?)
Jason Dohring (?)
Michael Angarano (?)
Xavier Samuel (?)
Jim Parsons (?)
Hunter Parrish (?)
Dominic Cooper (?)
Steven Strait (?)
Channing Tatum
Stuart Townsend (?)
Gerard Butler
Adam Gregory (?)
Ben Barnes
Justin Long (?)
Sebastian Stan (?)
James Marsden
Oliver James (?)
Taylor Kitsch
Ed Westwick (?)
Matt Dallas(?)
Kiefer Sutherland (?)
Josh Duhamel(?)
Mark Salling (?)
Nathan Fillion (?)
Kevin McHale (?)
Shia LaBeouf
Jerry O’Connell (?)
Adam Brody (?)
Christopher Walken
Daniel Bruhl (?)
George Clooney
David Strathairn (?)
James Franco
Matt Damon
Heath Ledger
Ashton Kutcher
Billy Joe Armstrong
Antonio Banderas
Michael Phelps
Matt Thiessen (?)
Scott Michael Foster
Aaron Hill (?)
Elijah Wood
Joe Anderson (?)
Jeremy Sumpter (?)
Aaron Johnson (?)
Luke Wilson (?)
Hayden Christensen
Adrian Grenier (?)
Tal Cooperman (?)
Kellan Lutz(?)
Dave Franco (?)
Tom Wellington
Justin Hartley (?)
Nick Jonas
Mitch Hewer (?)
Freddie Stroma (?)
Eric Dane(?)
Chad Michael Murray
Joe Jonas
Dave Annable (?)
Nick Valensi (?)
Chase Utley (?)
J.R. Celski (?)
Leonardo Nam (?)
Carter Jenkins (?)
Daniel Radcliffe
Charlie Hunnam (?)
Shaun White (?)
Leonardo DiCaprio
Josh Hopkins (?)
Christoph Waltz (?)
Mark Ruffalo (?)
Jay Baruchel (?)
Justin Bartha (?)
Adrian Pasdar
David Anders (?)
Greg Grunberg (?)
Eric Szmanda (?)
Jim Carrey
Matt Derwin (?)
Jimmy Robbins (?)
Jonathan Togo (?)
Daren Kagasoff (?)
~~David Cook~~
Kasey Kahne (?)
Bodan Mulholland (?)
Alexandre Bilodeau (?)
Trent Ford (?)
Sidney Crosby (?)
Josh Ramsay (?)
Kristopher Letang (?)
Nico Tortorella (?)
Matt Lanter (?)
Sterling Knight (?)
Brandon Boy (?)
Will Smith
John Mayer
~~Justin Bieber~~
Shemar Moore
Steve Burton (?)
~~David Archuleta~~
Kevin Jonas
Adam Beach (?)
Steve Carell (?)
David Bowie
Tim Burton
Tom Felton
Alex Pettyfer (?)
Chris Evans
Jesse McCartney(?), siapa dia, anaknya Paul McCartney? never see him. Oh bukan... ahaha sapa deh
Enrique Iglesias
Jack O’Connell (?)
Luke Pasqualino (?)
Kurt Cobain
Ben McKenzie (?)
Topher Grace(?)
Liam Hemsworth (?)
Michael Copon (?)
Dylan & Cole Sprouse (?)
Austin Butler (?)
Boo Boo Stewart(?)
Rob Kardashian
James Marsters
Rider Strong (?)
Jonathan Groff (?)
Stephan Moyer (?)
Brendon Urie
Alex Meraz
Cristiano Ronaldo
Jason Mraz
James & Oliver Phelps
Jamie Campbell-Bower
Ryan Ross (?)
Bob Dylan
Jackson Rathbone(?)
Alexander Ovechkin (?)
Oliver Sykes (?)
Kaká
William Beckett (?)
Tyson Ritter (?)
David Henrie (?)
Andy Clemmensen (?)
Joe Dempsie (?)
Matt Czuchry (?)
Charlie McDonnell (?)
Josh Farro (?)
John Barrowman (?)
Gareth David-Lloyd (?)
Aiden Turner (?)
Guy Berryman (?)
Matt Bomer (?)
Anderson Cooper (?)
Burn Gorman (?)
Martin Freeman (?)
Arthur Darvill (?)
Jesse Spencer
Kimura Takuya
Ezra Miller (?)
James Lafferty (?)
Austin Nichols (?)
Alex Gaskarth (?)
Jeremy Abbott (?)
Alex Day (?)
Danny Jones (?)
Dougie Poynter (?)
Tom Fletcher (?)
Harry Judd (?)
Lee Williams (?)
Owen Wilson
Iker Casillas
T.C. Carter (?)
Timo Kahl (?)
Jack Barakat (?)
Dev Patel (?)
Mitchell Davis (?)
Seth Rogen (?)
Kett Turton (?)
Keegan Allen (?)
Fernando Torres
Mitchell Musso (?)
Patrick Wilson (?)
Charlie Day (?)
Dhani Harrison (?)
Gael Garcia Bernal (?)
Josh Franchesci (?)
Caleb Turman (?)
Hugh Grant
Michael Weatherly
Misha Collins (?)
Matt Cohen(?)
Patrick Chan (?)
Michael Vartan (?)
Dominic Sandoval
Jake Gyllenhaal
Cam Gigandet
Chris Brown
Kyle Gallner (?)
Pierre Bouvier (?)
Chuck Comeau (?)
Seb Lefebvre (?)
Cillian Murphy
Paul Bettany (?)
Anton Yelchin (?)
Mark Wahlberg
Wentworth Miller
Liam Aiken (?)
John Leguizamo (?)
Freddy Prince Jr.
Hugh Laurie

Banyak banget yang gw ga kenal.. mwahaha, itu yang ga gw tandatanyain aja ga semuanya langsung tau gw, musti gugling dulu... XD.

Limbo limbo hanging on the wall

2010-08-11T13:27:00.002+07:00

Morning folks... bwahaha... aduh gw laper banget ini tapi kalo mimpi gw ga gw catets nanti lupa... soalnya cepetan ngetik daripada nulis, apa kebalikannya ya, ya intinya sekarang gw udah di depan monitor bukannya di atas tempat tidur gw.

Gw tadi ngimpi sangat random, dengan berbagai macam pemaen seperti John Taylor, oknum T, oknum W, oknum N, oknum A, Chiya, Riku sama Kazu... asli ini aneh banget. Maybe it's what Inception called limbo... aduh kapan dong gw ngimpiin Cillian Murphy. Ga pernah deh

Scene pertama gw lagi ngobrol2 jumpa fans gitu sama JT, di sinar matahari yang kemerah2an, di atas meja kayu yang beruas ruas, kayak piknik gitu dah. Hahaha.... gw inget ngobrol banyak hal ama dia, trus menyimpulkan kalo he's indeed a nice guy. Ramah pokoknya, trus pas dia ngomong2 gitu sama fans lain (ato ternyata temen gw) gw merhatiin dia, aduh mukanya emang bikin terharu, terus gw ngomong gini tiba2 "Aduh John Taylor lo cakep bangeet... gw ga tahan liatnyaaa" ahahahaha. Trus dia cuma nanggepin gini "Emang gw secakep itu ya" sambil senyum. Aduh senyumnya lagi itu... ckckck, iya gw ngimpiin dia yang sekarang bukan yang 30 tahun lalu.

Lanjut gw lagi di pinggir jalan gitu sama seorang temen gw ga tau siapa, lagi mau nyebrang, suasananya masih sore gitu keoren2an, padang ilalang... hahahaha. Trus di seberang jalan ada oknum T yang nyeberang. Gw ngobrol sama temen gw ini.
Gw: Eh itu si T, katanya dia punya tato ya
Dia: Iya tato bulan, di perutnya (bayangan gw sih bukan di perutnya tapi di garis pinggul itu lho)
Gw: Hah tato bulan? ngapain coba.. gw bikin aja apa tato matahari... bwahaha. Oh nggak2, bikin tattoo bintang2 di tangan, atau di belakang leher kayak Rihanna. Kan bagus juga tuh bulan dan bintang...
Mwahahaha... trus ending2nya temen gw sama gw ngomongin Kat von D yang punya tattoo di pelipisnya.

Scene ketiga, ni suasananya sih masih agak nyambung sore2 gitu... aneh banget pertamanya si JT mau maen drama atau gimana dia jadi detektif SVU bareng Stabler... ni lokasinya di depan rumah gw, gw lagi duduk2 di dahan rambutan yang pendek, kayak yang gw sering lakukan pas SD dulu. Trus si JT ni karena jadi detektif pake shade gitu kan, dia kasih shadenya ke gw. Trus gw cobain, sempit gitu shadenya, gw bilang "Shade apa nih, kok ketat banget, ga muat di gw"

Scene ke empat, hmmm ada si T lagi sama temennya, temennya yang atu lagi, sama yang satunya lagi. Hahaha... trus datang segerombolan laki2 lain, sekarang gilirannya W. Suasananya ganti tu jadi kebiru-biruan... si W ni bareng temennya satu, ga tau siapa... mereka maen2 apa gitu deh, maen bola kali ya. Gw yang masih duduk2 di pohon rambutan tawa2 liat si W sama Chiya ama Riku... tapi kok mereka ternyata ketawa2 gara2 temennya si W, yang katanya lucu. Pas gw liat... ga selucu itu, masih lucuan si W ni yang ada di depan samping kiri gw, potong rambut bagus banget pokoknya... ahahaha. Trus temennya si W yang "lucu" ini mundur2 gitu, hampir ngenain gw, gw dorong kan, dia bilang sori tapi malah gw lempar tisu... aneh dah. Kemudian datang lah Kazu yang cerita ke gw "Eh kemaren gw ketemu sama N dan A di Bandung, katanya mereka mau maen bola juga. Gw bilang sama mereka sekali2 maen kek ke IPB". Aneh abis IPB ada di Bogor, tapi percakapan mereka tu terjadi di Bandung dan kesannya IPB tu ada di Bandung.

Iya gitu aja deh, mau melakukan hal lain gw sekarang. Next time gw mau copasin mimpi2 gw yang ada di tret cielers... ahahaha

Ternyata di Cielers cuma satu mimpi yang aman buat diceritain ahaha... ini seru banget ni, salah satu mimpi paling terang gw

Kamis, 5 Agustus 2010

Kemaren gw ngimpi gw nonton Sex Pistols bareng temen gw Cia, Ebi dan... JOHN TAYLOR... hahaha
Yeah, John Taylor yang di avatar gw ni... manteb kan. Tapi yang nonton bareng gw John Taylor yang sekarang, yang udah 50an bukan yang masih muda...

Adegannya pertama gw sadar ada Sex Pistols manggung, there's a riot in front of the stage, mereka maenin satu lagu yang terkenal, tapi bukan Anarchy in the UK, ga tau apa tapi gw mikirnya gitu aja pokoknya. Gw sempet ngomong gini "Kalo liat Sex Pistols gw jadi inget Amel deh". Si Amel ni temen gw juga, tapi sayang dia ga ikut nonton... hahaha
Lucunya, ni gw, temen2 gw, sama John Taylor nontonnya duduk kayak konser2 Jepang gitu loh, trus jarak pandang ke panggungnya kok jauh, kok panggungnya jadi gede... hahaha. Namanya juga mimpi kan
Si JT nonton sambil berdiri2 gitu. Posisi duduk2nya gini

gw, koridor, Cia, John Taylor

Pas udah selese lagunya Sex Pistols gw berdiri juga, gw ngomong gini
"John Taylor, This is your time"
"Your Era!", maksud gw Sex Pistols itu jamannya dia banget.
JT senyum gitu "uh huh". Kayak tertarik sama kata2 gw
"You're about fifteen or something?", kata gw lagi
Di mimpi bisa juga gw akurat... hahaha. Sex Pistols ni emang ada pas pertengahan taun 70an gitu, JT lahir taon 60
Trus dia ngomong sesuatu gitu ke gw, tapi gw ga ngerti entah karena berisik ato emang gw ga ngerti English-nya dia... hahaha. Padahal gw pengen tanya lagi "Are you into punk back then?" Sok2 pengen tau aja padahal udah tau gw... hahaha
Sayang ga sempet gw tanyain gara2 konsernya mulai lagi

Nah, yang di panggung selanjutnya bukan Sex Pistols lagi ternyata, tapi LUNA SEA. Masih jaman visual gitu, taon 93-94an hahaha apa lebih lama lagi ya soalnya Ryuichi ama Sugizo masih gondrong rambutnya. Mereka bawain suatu lagu dimana bassnya J ketara banget pas terakhir2, Sandy Time gw rasa. Trus gw nanya gini ke JT "how's the bassist?" mwahaha... si JT antusias gitu dengerin bassnya J menandakan dia suka (FYI John Taylor itu bassist juga). Mwahahahaha...
Terakhirnya akhirnya Duran Duran yang manggung. Asli seru abis mimpi gw nonton tiga artis di satu konser.. beuh
Pas gw akhirnya bangun pagi2... gw langsung tersenyum bahagia "OMG I watched Sex Pistols live with JT last night!!!"

Sound and Vision

2010-08-07T21:59:00.006+07:00

Still remember when I was in 2nd semester (?), for Visual Communication class we have an assignment to "visualizing the sound". I try to do that again today. It's fun. I try to visualizing the sounds of David Bowie, Duran Duran, Maroon 5, LUNA SEA and LArc en Ciel.

David Bowie sounds like this

Well, I focused on his Berlin Trilogy works, I'm obsessed by their sounds right now... hahaha. Complex, scattered, but somehow well stuctured, moody... little bit here and there, drown deeper and deeper...

Duran Duran sounds like this

Hmmm what can I say... hahaha. It's fun, has consistent rhythm that flows nicely, and it wrapped up with electricity there... ah, just love it!

Maroon 5 sounds like this

I would like to do Maroon 5 because I love how their sounds move... It's dynamic, has wonderful rhythm... rhythm that I think every band should have, rhythm that tidy, not full of rage but can say things perfectly. I don't care about genres, Maroon 5 is definition for ROCK to me.

LUNA SEA sounds like this

I think it's typical, LUNA SEA sound is a mystery, mystical, it has something divine about it. Even in their later works, which many people said more poppish.

LArc en Ciel sounds like this

Hahaha I think the last two bands here are more about "feeling" than "sound". LArc en Ciel... it's always remind me about nostalgic things. Something that bright and lovely, yet very sad.

So... I also changed my layout and banner two days ago... hahaha... I really love the layout, the colors and shape, eventough the banner is really a contrast... ahaha. It's Mr.Bowie... I hope you notice it. Dress in uniform, he's a pilot for our outer space train, roaming from Station to Station.

This work on my DA

UFO ep.5

2010-08-03T00:41:00.003+07:00

It's UFO time... hahaha. The only reason I write UFO is I have so many random things going on my head, until I can't put it all together in proper structure of story-telling.

# Gw akan menegaskan ini sekali lagi, lagu2nya David Bowie itu kayak elektromagnet yang dibuat di baja. Magnetismenya susah dibikin, tapi juga susah ilang. Dengan begitu gw akan mengatakan lagu2 KPop yang udah pernah gw dengerin itu seperti elektromagnet yang dibuat di besi. Walopun tentu saja suatu saat listriknya bisa tiba2 muncul lagi dan magnetnya bisa dibikin lagi sesuka2nya kita.

# Kerjaan gw yang paling menonjol selama liburan ini adalah nonton Top Gear dan Law n Order, Law and Order yang ga SVU ternyata menarik juga... hahaha. Gw suka seri Law & Order soalnya ga kayak drama2 kriminal lain, penjahatnya suka ga terduga, trus suka ada ironinya... mantabs.

# Kalo ga nonton tivi, pastinya gw lagi di depan internet. Nonton yutub, dari mulai nontonin felemnya Cillian Murphy, interviewnya Cillian Murphy, montagenya Cillian Murphy, sampe behind the scene felemnya Cillian Murphy... bwahaha. No. Not that "Cillian Murphy". Duran Duran.. of course! masih belom bosen, David Bowie... ni gw lagi buffer sekarang. Apa ya, Roxy Music, A Flock of Seagulls, Japan, hahaha.. oh kemaren gw liat TRex, Village People! that's hilarious. Gw rasa kalo internet gw cepet banget gw bakalan apal semua artis yang ditulis Rolling Stone di 100 greatest artist all time.

# Oh waw, actually Village People is very effective for PROPAGANDA. Listen their "In The Navy" or "YMCA" song... hahaha. So cheesy, no, I mean really good at promoting something. Ah, we should hire them to make Colony national anthem

# Selaen nonton yutub, tentu saja gw baca wiki, karena gw ingin pintar, ingin tau. Ingin ngerasa keren karena tau padahal orang juga ga mau tau. Kepuasan pribadi, owkei. Gara2 mbak hei waktu itu ngomong Inception being so "post-modern". Gw jadi baca2 wiki (lagi) tentang paham ini. God, philosophy... it's so fascinating isn't it?. Gw menyimpulkan banyak hal di diary gw, tapi yang saat ini gw inget cuma "Modern selalu objektif, Postmodern selalu subjektif". Ada hal yang menarik tentang pandangan Lyotard mengenai Metanarrative, atau grand narrative (kamarnya osushi... hahaha). Lyotard intinya, atau seperti yang gw tangkep, mengatakan, waktu post modern, pandangan orang modern tentang meng-universalkan segala sesuatu (berkaitan tentang "selalu objektif" tadi) mulai runtuh dengan opini2 subjektif. Tapi filsuf laen berpendapat gini

"Apakah pandangan Lyotard yang skeptis terhadap metanarrative secara menyeluruh merupakan metanarrative itu sendiri?". Hahaha... seru ya. Kerjaan ni orang2 emang, kebanyakan space di otak gw rasa. Andai gw punya space sebanyak itu... mikirin ginian seru pasti. Nihilsm, Aesthethicism, even, Stuckism... hahaha... silly yet so cool creating that -ism. Obolism maybe? or, Bolongism?

# Gw punya kemampuan yang luar biasa dalam melupakan hal2 yang gw anggep humiliating or embarrassing. Gw inget gw pernah disindir sama guru bahasa Inggris gw waktu SMP. Gara2 apa ya? gw duluan sih yang sering ngomongin dia di belakang, siapa coba siswa yang ngaduin gw... betapa iri atau bencinya dia padaku, or simply she can't shut her mouth up... Tapi gw sama sekali lupa detilnya, dia nyindir gw gimana, rasa bencinya juga udah lupa. Yang gw inget cuma satu, gw ngomong ke temen gw kalo ni guru childish banget. Dan tentu saja ga ada alesan ni guru jatohin nilai gw, jadi gw lulus dengan bahagia. Hahaha... mungkin gw traumatis sama hal kayak gini, gw benci banget disindir. Talk to me straightly, I might even say sorry.

# GW MENENTANG LAKI LAKI DI ATAS 40 TAHUN MEMAKAI HEAVY MAKE UP. Gw masih memaafkan eyeliner, tapi kalo ampe kliatan kaya tante2... hadeeeh. Ga peduli gw dulunya mereka artis visual atau glam rock... kalo udah tua ya jadi om om biasa aja-tapi berkarisma-keren2 gimana- gitu aja deh... getting older is about how being normal and less experimental huh. It proves that you already experienced enough in life.

Ih udah, ga ada lagi yang mau gw tulis atau kemungkinan besarnya gw lupa.. andai gw bisa mandi sambil ngetik, pasti banyak banget yang gw tulis di sini

Ahh, Maroon 5 latest album will out on September. So the end is near?

Saddest songs ever

2010-07-30T02:29:00.005+07:00

I'm lifting you up... I'm letting you down

I'm dancing till dawn.. I'm fooling around

I'm not giving up.. I'm making your love

This city made us crazy and we must get out....

So, being so mellow I am this moment, I will write the saddest songs ever... Ahaha

Must Get Out - Maroon5

Actually I don't really get what this song all about. Maroon5 always talk about condition before break-up didn't they? hahaha. So I guess this song about that too. What I really love about this song is, you can imagine drive through the highway with dry emotion. Of course my favorite part is This city made us crazy and we must get out. Ahaha... regardless the whole meaning of the song, I just love that line.

All Year Around Falling in Love - LArc en Ciel

Hmm... sweet song yes. I don't really understand about this song too... hahaha, it's maybe about separation too... He recalls the memories about moment he spent with the girl... spring, summer, autumn, then in winter day she's gone. Ai dake ja tarinai... kimi e, all year around falling in love. It means like "Love" only isn't enough, for you, I will gave all year around falling in love. Got it? hahaha... Japanese songs usually didn't use a proper English but you still understand what they're trying to say...

Oh, this is the saddest part

Are you feeling the same?

Are you sharing the faith? (ahahaha... damn, another mistake here)

It's a fine winter day

All year around falling in love

TWICE - LUNA SEA

Oh, this song is the suckest sad song eveeer. Ahahaha, it's talking about regret for not telling someone about his feelings, then he got suddenly (can I said suddenly? hahaha) feel lonely, remembering that day. This song repeatedly said Koe o kikasete... namida o tomete. Koe o kikasete, aah mou ichido. Let me hear your voice, stop these tears. Let me hear your voice, ah once more. I can't say which my fave part of this song, because there are a lot of OMG moments. I basically love this kind of songs, yeah...

That day the sky was blue, but to a point that it is so sad
Because I didn't tell you how I felt

Blank - J

This song is sooo highway. Believe me, it has "runaway" word in it, and it's repeatedly sang. Mwahaha... Oh yes, I don't know the real meaning of this song, but I can guessing... um, probably it's about two people, in their verge of breaking up. But the two of them still grasping about their relationship, being so stuck and it feels like "I want to just let it go!". Bwahaha, got it?. Dare mo todokanai hikari no basho e drive, jiyuu sekai e dive sou ou ou ou... Well, that's my fave line, it means Drive to the shining place where no one can reach, dive to the world of freedom... Feel just so free huh... XD XD XD. I have memory about listen to this song while watching my industrial wallpaper desktop... hahaha

Crazy yeah... crazy yea...

Crazy yeah... blank de yeaah...

Good bye blank days... (oh, do they finally break up and leave all behind? hmmm)

Eh, do we talk about sad song here, this song isn't so sad. It just feel melancholic for me... hmm yea. Definitely.

9th - Inoran

Ahahaha Inoran's song. What can I say, I talked about this so much before huh. Again, like many other songs, it's about separation. Itsuka aeru kara, tegami wa kakanai yo, namida ga kareta to shite mo sora o miageteru kara. Because we will meet again someday, don't write letters. You can look up to the sky and your tears will dried. Ah, Ino try to comforts here. This song has bright melody but somehow sad. You know what I mean... I feel this when I even still clueless about the meaning.

Shoot - Pony

I don't know what this song talked about, I don't even know the lyrics. But for me this song has a distinctive sound that.... feels... so distant. Yea. Like don't wanna face the reality, running, yet you want to go back but don't have home to go back to... (?)

Brilliant Years, I'm so happy, Anata no tame ni - LArc en Ciel

Hahaha.. what can I say... LArc has the best coupling songs ever!

I want to see you want to see you

I love you I love you I'm so happy with love

Repeated line means one thing, he's so desperate.

Hitomi no Juunin - LArc en Ciel

Can LArc be more sad than this? aaah... LArc took it all. If I continue to write, do I will have LArc songs all the way down?. Probably. Hitomi no Juunin is just classic, fed you with crying voices, desperately need to be next to his loved one. What I really love about this song is, they don't make it so desperate too soon, they let this song flow... make you feel the sadness drip by drip then in the end you will be so thirsty and cry for help. Yea... actually I don't really remember the meaning of this song. The melody already said it all., perfectly.

*just googled the translation* Oh yes, the lyrics are rather absurd than beautiful.

me me she - RADWIMPS

Wow. RADWIMPS. Hahaha... Unlike Hitomi no Junnin, me me she has the most beautiful lyrics that ever written... mwahaha. At first, I found it has a melancholy melody, then when I found out the lyrics, I cried like crazy (I'm exaggerating here). You can read the lyrics here

The lyrics and telling-story-like melody just so simple and honest, but it really hurts... ahhh... really a "dada-bolong" moment. Yes yes.

I'm sleepy now... actually I still have bunch of sad songs, but not sure if it's good enough because at some point it's kinda boring, let's say G-Dragon's 1 Year Station, J's Mirage... um, Lee Minki's Eternal Summer, Park Hyoshin's After Love, hahaha maybe I just bored to them because I listened too much...

Oh, I'm listening to AKFG Aru Machi no Gunjou now... It's very melancholic song. Not necessary about lyrics or melody, but it's Tekkonkinkreet ending song! No one feel brightly happy and positive when remember that movie...! hahaha

Breakfast on Obology

2010-07-26T23:38:00.003+07:00

LIAT NI JACKPOOOOT!!! hahahaha

Hellow. I have nothing to say except my new addiction. Cillian Murphy. Hell yeah. Ahahaha... I've been so clueless this holiday, so I watched his movies!!! yeaay. I watched Inception last Tuesday, right. Well... what can I say... it's a complex movie, intense... and yeah, there a lot of people arguing about this and that. They thinking so hard about everything that movie offers. Which means it's a great movie, have a deep impact, leaving impression that will lasts on its viewer.

My opinion personally... just enjoy the movie. Hahaha... I'm fascinated about how Inception interpret dreams and sub-consious. I'm so fascinated by its idea and story until I didn't really notice the special effects...

Cillian Murphy. Gw ga inget pertama kali liat dia dimana... hmmm... Girl with Pearl Earring? kakak gw beli DVDnya, gw inget ada Scarlett Johansson (sorry for misspelling), gw inget ada dia sih. Mukanya surreal gitu mana mungkin ga inget. Trus kemungkinan besar gw nonton suatu acara di E! tentang... beautiful eyes, maybe? actors with beautiful eyes? hahaha... dan di situ ada dia. I realize that time, his surreal face is unique, rather beautiful.... Namanya lucu lagi, Cillian. Jarang banget nemu nama Cillian.

Terus, Batman Begins... yea... gw sempet nyariin gambarnya dulu, gara-gara apa ya... kayaknya jaman2nya Jonathan Rhys Meyers juga deh... hahaha. Sama2 Irish. Lagi inget aja kali ya gw waktu itu sama Cillian Murphy. I can't forget his name... hahaha.

Gw pernah nonton Sunshine di HBO (kalo ga salah), cuma gara2 mau liat dia doang. Gw tahan 2jam yang membosankan itu cuma mau liat mukanya doang... hahaha. Tapi baru pas kemaren abis nonton Inception ini gw mulai bener2 menggali, gw donlot felemnya yang Breakfast on Pluto. Just because he's a transvetite there... hahaha. Gw ga ngarepin banyak tadinya, karena di Rotten Tomatoes cuma dapet rate 58%, tapi semua pendapat kayaknya setuju kalo aktingnya dia di situ oke banget, bahkan dapet nominasi best actor di Golden Globe.

Dan... mereka bener. Aktingnya oke banget. Gw ga liat "Cillian Murphy" di situ. Yang gw liat cuma seorang Kitten, yang menertawakan dunia cuma buat nutupin rasa sakitnya *tssssahhhh*. Kasian banget gw liat karakternya di situ... hahaha. I don't have any idea why Breakfast on Pluto classified as Comedy. It's not comedy at all!!!!!! Hahaha, nothing funny about that movie. It's only bitterness. Kalopun lo ketawa atau senyum itu gara2 tragis atau nggak terharu.

Momen fave gw, pas Kitten ditinggalin sama si penyanyi rock "I know you were only joking about the roses... and sweets too, probably". Hadeeeh... langsung bolong dada gw rasanya... wakakaka. Overall, critanya sih bagus, jarang2 nemu crita yang kayak gini. Tapi, ada suatu yang kurang gitu... entah apanya ya.

Kemaren, gw nonton lagi felemnya Cillian yang jadi cewek (lagi), judulnya Peacock. Hahaha... don't judge me fond of him playing women roles. The only reason why finally I chose Peacock over The Wind That Shakes The Barley was, I accidentally read its spoiler on youtube comment!!! aaahhhh... what an unlucky moment!!!. Again, he proved that he's a good actor. But this movie lack of drama... apa ya... hmmm... Menurut gw emosinya kurang digali, jadi walopun nebak nebak "ah kenapa gitu, gini, ih, oh, hmm", tapi ujung2nya ga dikasih sesuatu yang bener-bener wow. Gw juga ga suka kenapa akhirnya gitu doang. Ckkkssss sayangs.

Ahhh gw pengen banget nonton The Wind that Shakes The Barley. Kayaknya oke tu, ratingnya di RT 80-an%. Dapet menang di Cannes apa ya, walopun... gw udah tau karakternya si Cillian mati.. graooo... I HATE SPOILER. IT'S MORE FUN IF IT'S SURPRISE, ISN'T IT?. Apa enaknya kalo akhir semester lo dapet IP 4, sementara dari awal semester lo udah tau bakal kayak gitu? ga ada fun funnya.

Felem lain yang pengen gw selesein nonton itu Watching The Detectives, di sini Cillian jadi geek toko sewa felem, maen sama Lucy Liu. Aneh2 kocak gitu sih gw liat awalnya... hahaha. Liat deh, hebat banget si Cillian ni, udah jadi penjahat, jadi anak orang kaya, jadi cewek, jadi dokter jaman perang, trus... jadi geek di felem komedi romantis... Apa ga keren tu. Hahahaha... kayak semua komen2 yutub yang gw baca... CILLIAN DESERVE AN OSCAR. Come on... he needs a movie that blast off his name!

Another thing... I re-open my story blog... hahaha

OBOLOGY

Gw butuh publish cerita baru gw, tapi bukan di sini. Gw ga mau sembarang orang bisa baca, trus tiba2 di belahan bumi lain ada yang nyuri ide itu... hahaha. Gw parno, maaf. Crita baru gw "John in July" hahahaha... cheesy banget judulnya. Ah, itu crita yang harusnya jadi tugas AV terakhir, tapi ga jadi gara2 susah syuting pake mobil, yang gw bayangin mobil convertible pula... dimana dapetnya... XD XD XD.

Awal dapet ide itu, gw masih ga tau detil2 percakapannya gimana, sampe kemaren gw kebayang2 flashbacknya tu cwe, jelasin si cowok...trus secara alami gw membayangkan Cillian Murphy dan John Taylor... hahaha, dan terciptalah percakapan-percakapan di otak gw. It's fun... mungkin tulisan yang paling enjoyable yang pernah gw tulis. Kind of remind me about "love letter". Yeah, falling in love is the best thing to boost your creativity in writing.

Eeehh... masih ada jackpotnya... wkwkwkwk... Aduh berasa sesuatu ga... si Cillian awkward banget, si JRM-nya sok akrab gitu... hahaha. Si icy blue eyes and burning blue eyes. Mantabs emang kalo gw milih idola tuh.

Summer air

2010-07-16T19:51:00.001+07:00

Bored. Um what else. Sad Lonely Sloth...
This holiday can't be more wasteful if I didn't go to Bunaken with my sis next Lebaran. Well... that's also mean I won't go to my parent's hometown this year, in traditional way of getting in the car and ride on, I mean.

Ah, so sad. Pergi ke Bunaken atau mudik itu kayak milih mau pergi nonton bareng orang yang disuka atau hangout bareng temen-temen lama. Yang satu sayang kalo dilewatin, tapi yang satunya bakal berasa ada yang ilang kalo nggak dijalanin. Kapan ni gw liat jalur mudik lagi, tahun depan? ah... year 2011. Then year 2012... Euro... go to Mars, graduation.

Well, someone said future isn't frightening once you get there. That's true. But once you get there and feel "ah I'm ok" then you look behind and said "God. What I did to my life?". It's very unhealthy being sloth like me. Doing nothing in particular, but always have a dream to rule the world or making history. (I ALWAYS talk about this stuffs didn't I?)

I really want to have my own money, then do what I really wanted to do. That's when I feel fullfilled I think. And that time is lie in the future. Damn, this future again. And yes I'll turned 20 this November. 20 is the age when GD already well known, Podolski get ready for senior national team, LUNA SEA getting ready for their major label, and Justin Bieber will decide more manly image.

In the middle of these thioughts, I always have an idea for new story. Which is sucks, because I knew I wouldn't finish it or even start it. Hahahaha... God. At least yesterday I didn't waste one idea of making that steward lady vector above. I thought to having back "my style" which I carried on my 1st semester calendar assignment. It's kinda work isn't it. Eventough I got through overthinking situation, and done that in full one day. It's still need a lot of improvements since I don't really have determination to do details.

But at least I can feel freed when I'm doing that artwork. It's important so I shouldn't think about things that not important. Or.. important or not important... ah.

Painting and drawing is also a therapy method for mental illness... isn't it?. Am I correct?
I understand why.

John Taylor is gorgeus. I always think to make an artwork of him... Hahahaha.. let's see if I can get rid all of these doubts.

David Bowie is beautiful.. I don't understand. His face is a piece of art, you can changed it the way you want it. He always delivered each of his image perfectly.

And I can't wait to see Cillian Murphy in Inception next Tuesday!!. And oh, eating BK and that watermelon ice cream... hangout with my friends!!! yeaay social life.

The Final

2010-07-12T13:28:00.001+07:00

Congratulation for Spain!!! winning the world cup after depressing game. Won by 1-0 against Netherland.
Gw udah tau dari awal Spanyol bakal menang kayak gw tau Yunani bakal menang Euro taon 2004. Hahaha. Jadi gw sante2 aja nontonnya. Setiap Belanda ada peluang gw yang "ah, nggak...". Hahaha, lucu deh, taon 2006 gw pegang Itali di final juga gara2 gw dendam sama Perancis yang ngalahin Brazil di per4. Padahal Itali yang ngalahin Jerman di semifinal. Sama kayak taun ini kasusnya. Sama persis. Ternyata gw lebih dendam sama yang ngalahin Brazil ketimbang sama yang ngalahin Jerman. Udah ngalahin Jerman, ga boleh kalo ga menangin piala dunia.

Hm, lalu pemaen2 terbaik di World Cup tahun ini...

Golden Ball, the best player... Diego Forlan from Uruguay. Ga tau gw dia gimana selama ini. Gw jarang nonton Uruguay. Ni gw quote aja kata2nya FIFA "Forlan was the fulcrum and focus of all his team's best attacking moves" Fulcrum apa coba artinya. Kayak ramuan di Harry Potter.

Golden Shoe, top scorer... Thomas Muller. Oh Mueller (I'm still not sure, his name contains extra "e" or not). He really a superstar in this world cup. He also won the Hyundai Best Young Player. Menegaskan regenerasi Jerman yang bagus mengingal Poldi menang penghargaan ini juga 4 tahun yang lalu. Muller dapet Golden Shoe setelah unggul ngasih 3 asis, sementara pesaingnya Villa sama Sneijder cuma 1 asis. Whoooa... I'll write another quote from FIFA "The Germany forward rates as the biggest discovery of the 2010 FIFA World Cup™"

Golden Glove, the best keeper... Iker Casillas. Ya ya ya, semua orang kayaknya tau Casillas ni emang kiper yang terkenal. Di World Cup ini dia cuma kebobolan 2 kali. Dan gw inget ada foto cwenya Casillas di deket gawang lagi nyiarin berita. Hahaha.. that infamous photo... Ga ngaruh lah ya, masa gara2 ada cwenya jadi nervous. Sangat tidak profesional. Hahaha

FIFA fair play award... Spain. Who else.

So that World Cup is ended today... gw akan dengan santai menunggu Euro 2012 di Poland-Ukraine. 2 tahun pasti ga ada rasanya sama sekali. Jadi mari mengenang Piala Dunia kali ini bersama Jabulani, Paul the Octopus, Vuvuzela, Joachim Low's blue sweater, Duran Duran, youtube and Poldi's facebook... along with Plurking and Pico-ing. Hahaha... oh yes, of course reading FIFA.com like reading Omona. My FIFA avatar, from Botswana... hahaha.

Ah, it's kinda sad huh. I won't read FIFA.com again in the next four years. Apa 4 tahun lagi membership gw masih bisa kepake ya... jadi 4tahun lagi gw bakal ketemu si avatar ini lagi... hahaha. Brazil 2014!!! I'll be waiting!!!

Ah, it's been a great month. Walopun banyak kejadian aneh atau surprising di World Cup ini. Tapi overall nyenengin. It will be other vivid memories in my mind.

Now, it's time for picspam...

Spain - Netherland

Hahaha lucu deh ini. Orang biasa banget. Semua foto yang ada di dressing room berasa banget mereka emang manusia biasa. XD XD XD. Kayak liat temen lo aja gitu menang pertandingan bola terus seneng2 sendiri.

Ini mereka sangat bar bar. Harusnya mereka potoan di depan banner tulisannya "Champion World Cup Africa 2010". Tapi pada glongsoran di tanah, ga kliatan bannernya, pialanya aja entah dimana. Hahaha

Germany-Uruguay

Ah third place... harus puas pake podium di lapangan aja.. wkwkwk. Oh, the rain is still falling down...

More civilized (again). Mwahaha

Poldi from bench. He looks fine. Boong ah flu flu segala.

New Religion

2010-07-10T19:26:00.000+07:00

Today's lastfm of mine.. well, I'm still listening right now so it's not really a fixed one. Ya iyalah... ga bakalan jadi fixed juga slamanya.

Ahahaha.. poor DEAD END they was gone away. Swept by the almighty Duran Duran. Brrrhh.. mwakaka, pertamanya malu juga ada band setengah2 boiben di tengah 7 artis lain yang terlihat "rock". Tapi lama2 ya udah lah, emang rada obsessed sama Duran Duran juga gw akhir2 ini. Kasian The Pony ya, mau sehebat apa pun juga mereka cuma bisa bertahan pake satu album (well, DEAD END is quite the same). Sedangkan BUCK TICK ada ribuan, Duran Duran juga ada ribuan... ga deh, di library gw baru ada 4 album. Hahaha

David Bowie! He stays strong with another album, Super Creeps something.. panjang judulnya, ah, Scary Monsters and Super Creeps. Lagunya Bowie tu ya, anehhh banget pas pertama didengerin, tapi terus makin berasa wajar akhirnya jadi dengerin lagi lagi dan lagi.

Talking about Duran Duran... they really something in the 80s right. Hahahaha... if I read comments on youtube it was said "no one can touch them in the 80s!!". Yeah, well... beautiful faces and addictive sounds... hmh hmh hmh. There was also a saying that each of Duran Duran member is someone's favorite. Really a formula for boybands huh. But yesss!!! it's the plus point, they still make their own music!! yippieee... Duran Duran is the perfect balance between boyband and rockstar... sounds like meee... hahahaha

Even so, John Taylor never intended to make Duran Duran as a pop-idol band. Hahaha.. poor him, from an interview I watched in youtube, it seems that he wants to be rockstar. Ya gimana ya, mungkin awalnya cuma eksperimen sama sound2 tapi ujung2nya malah keseret jadi ben idol. Emang nasib sih, muka 5-5nya aja begitu. Udah idol banget emang. Hahaha

Kalo ngomongin muka, John Taylor emang yang paling beruntung di antara semuanya. Walopun dulu dia nerdy, thanks God he found Nick Rhodes. He born with that face!!! that face... that face which still beautiful when he turned 50 couple days ago. Gw bilang beruntung gimana ya, struktur mukanya emang udah beres banget sampe keriputnya aja berada di tempat yang tepat dan nggak mengganggu mukanya. Tau kan istilah "dia yang sekarang mukanya ya sama aja kaya dia bertahun2 yang lalu, cuma lebih tua". Hahaha... . Dan badannya, dia juga beruntung punya yang bentuknya kurus panjang2 gitu... aduuh curang banget ada manusia kayak gini. Sampe tua pun, struktur ini tetep sama. Curang kan.

Tapi ada satu yang kurang dari JT. He didn't have charming image. So it's still hotter to see him in his young days... nyanyanya. See... the point is you shouldn't be beautiful to aging beautifully. Hmmmmmmmmm yea.

You should see his smile!!!. But unfortunately I'm not lucky enough to find an image of smiling JT... hahaha... searching Duran Duran images is trickier than Ziggy Stardust... can't you believe that?!!! argh.

Lebih melo dari Fernando

2010-07-08T19:59:00.002+07:00

Dari kemaren gw kepikiran mau nulis status kayak gini kalo Jerman kalah

"Bad omeeen! Jerman kalaah. Kalo ampe Euro 2012 Jerman ga menang, kita ga jadi ke Mars pokoknya"

Tapi lawan Ghana, Jerman menang, lolos ke babak 16 besar, lawan Inggris menang lagi, lawan Argentina menang lagi. Satu pertandingan, dua pertandingan, tiga pertandingan Jerman berhasil bikin gw gagal nulis status kayak gitu. Sampe akhirnya kemaren kalah sama Spanyol. I realize that I'm so proud of them that it's no longer a bad omen. They will still join Colony space ship in 2012. Whether they lost it or won it, it doesn't matter. I just fall in love with them.

Hwahwahwahwa... *sob sob sob*. Mellow sekali gw... gw yang di masa depan kalo baca ini pasti senyum senyum. Hahaha. Ini semua gara2 Schweinsteiger. Aduh kalo liat foto2nya Jerman pas kalah kemaren... lagi2 dia yang paling keliatan kecewa. Gw tau dia berjuang ngusahain bola... tapi apa daya... di Euro 2008 juga kayak gini. Aduh dia kasian banget. Komentator2 di tipi bilang mereka dua2nya main hati hati. Neuer bilang mereka kurang berani buat nyerang. Dan tentu saja selalu ada kata kata "diambil hikmahnya". Hahaha... ya emang kalo gagal bisanya cuma gitu doang kan? masa mau nangis2 terus. Lagipula Jerman masih ada pertandingan lawan Uruguay Sabtu nanti. Gw harap mereka bisa maen lepas... membara... dan menang tentu saja.

Haaah... walopun kalah di semifinal lawan Spanyol, tim Jerman yang sekarang ini emang udah "against all odds" Bener ga tu istilah gw. Dari pertama masuk aja udah diragukan, bahkan sama negaranya sendiri, mereka bener2 bukan favorit buat menang. Tapi pas lawan Australia 4-0 langsung deh dipuji2, eh kalah sama Serbia tapi.. maki-maki lagi... "Tu kan, mereka overrated bla bla bla". Menang lawan Ghana masih biasa2 aja orang, menang lawan Inggris, Argentina dipuji2 lagi... pas kalah sama Spanyol kemaren... akhirnya orang2 punya kesempatan lain buat ngehina2 mereka. Those losers that badmouthing Germany... are losers.

Despite all, this WC2010 Germany team is really "better-than-expected" like what FIFA article said. Better than expected itu selalu lebih keren ketimbang udah dikira bakal bagus dari awal.

Congratulation for Spain btw, they play damn well. Pasti gara2 Torres ga dimaenin. Villa ama Torres kenapa ga boleh satu lapangan... padahal Euro 2008 mereka baik baik aja. Hahahaha... Gw mau liat Spanyol ngalahin Belanda di final. Somehow I annoyed with Netherland. Masih dendam kali gw gara2 mereka ngalahin Brazil waktu itu. Dipikiran gw mereka nyebelin pokoknya, kebanyakan akting juga, pas ngelawan Uruguay kemaren juga tuh. Haddaaah.. sebel pokoknya gw. Ini pendapat yang pake perasaan sekali ya... Hahaha. Gimana dong, ini kan blog gw, emang isinya udah seharusnya personal kan. XD XD XD

Haaah, World Cup bentar lagi selesai... siap2 mellow lagiii... I love mellowing like this.

Liat deh ni imej, jackpot banget ya? hahahahaha. Passs gitu dua2nya satu frame. Kalo gini kan bagus.. gw mau liat yang mukanya Poldi keliatan. Pasti dia lagi ketawa2 ato ga senyum2 imitatif. Taruhan deh.

Fuhrer's Diary

2010-07-05T19:55:00.003+07:00

MACH DICH AUF DEIN ENDE GEFASST
Prepare for the end. I don't understand German, but I got those words from a German "friend" with initial C A S N E Y. Why German?

Like we all know Hitler is a German. And his propaganda is probably the most successful one in our history, but of course I learn a lot from Mao and Kim Jong Il too. I'm still 19 if you curious, and I'm a Visual Communication student. Designing, advertising, it's all PROPAGANDA. That's the background how I develop my TALENT.

And like any other college students, I whining over assignments and need to go away. What I speak the most is I want to go to outer space because I wanna run till no one can find me. That's the spirit of a dreamer. Everything start from a dream. Then like it seems written in a book of destiny, I find Mr.David Bowie and his persona, ZIGGY STARDUST. The first song I listened to youtube is Space Oddity, that's the first prophecy from him so we must find someone called Tom to lead our journey through space. Then, there's a main prophecy, the title is "LIFE ON MARS". From all hidden meanings of that song, we know we must go to Mars. And about the biggest question, Yes, THERE IS a life on Mars.

I find out one of Martian called Vera, and a friend that shortly take attention to my words called Cia, she soon become the high counselor. We talked about Mars so much that I finally realize it was my destiny to fullfill Bowie's prophecy. So it was how this all started... from a simple runaway dreaming to PROPAGANDA go to Mars.

Mars Mars Mars... I know David Bowie and Von Braun invented the way to spread space and Mars talkings to human beings. But today in our world, who will care about Mars and outer space when people busy talking about movies and happening clothes stores? IT'S ME, of course in this case, who bring back the trend of MARS. You will find some people claiming they're from Mars or other planets, which is funny and stupid because there are no life in other planets, except I want to make it so. Remember, I'm a Fuhrer. You will find the news about Mars so much today, and so suddenly. It's a trend that Colony do. We're so good at propaganda, spreading the words about Mars.

But then, the question is... Are those people capable to be in the ship with us? No. Their mind quite dull and they don't know anything about Mr. Bowie, Einstein's law of gravity, Duran Duran, and Maroon 5's song Wont go home without you. Except they qualified in interview with me personally, they can't be in ship with us. They will rusted in earth, crying to our ship, whining to join us. Of course those are tears of admiring... Yes, of course they admire us, admire me, admire my colony. But sadly being so pathetic they are, they will taste the end of the world.

Colony is consists from 6 people approximately, but our space ship is enourmous so we can carry much more people. We still don't know how many people done our audition, but me, as a Fuhrer has my own list. These are people I will carry in the ship.

1. David Bowie
Should I write why he's in our list? Funnily I remember a line from him said
"I'm not a prophet or a stone aged man, just a mortal with potential of a superman. I'm living on."
Isn't that just amazing?.

2. Duran Duran
They will be the great entertainer in Mars. All young musician should know how to abuse synthesizer from Nick Rhodes and all Korean boybands that we will brought later should now how to charmed girls with beautiful face like John Taylor. Of course I will clone them in their 20s, it's wasteful to bring the today's Duran Duran. We can clone? OF COURSE WE CAN. We can clone anything from sheep to successful printed Samson Paper.

3. German WC2010 Football Team
I just told that in the previous entry. Good Looking guys, healthy, intelligent, what more you can expect... . Our breeding in Mars Colony will be high quality.

I think that's it. Other people will added soon.

So people, if you want to join my colony, send your letters to me. Nonetheless, if you feel you are saddening creature and not able to send me any letter, you can always said that you're from Mars and be saddening forever. It's always good to be your really self, isn't it?

Gute Nacht
Euer Fuhrer

Eins Zwei Drei Vier

2010-07-04T21:50:00.005+07:00

Ahahaha... satu dua tiga empat. Gw denger itungan itu pertama kali di lagunya LUNA SEA, Loveless. Gw ga tau itu bahasa apa sampe gw tanya Karin, ternyata bahasa Jerman. Akhirnya saat ini itungan itu jadi sesuatu yang gw ulang dimana-mana, gara2

JERMAN NGALAHIN ARGENTINA 4-0 DAN BAKAL MAJU KE SEMIFINAL!!!!

4 is German's magic number huh. Hahaha... after beat Aussie in first match with 4-0, England with 4-1. Now they killed Argentina with perfect 4-0 again!!!. How great they are!!! hahahaha

Mereka akhirnya masuk ke semifinal setelah ngalahin Argentina yang notabenenya tim yang diunggulkan sangat di piala dunia ini. 4 gol tanpa bales, men!!! gila ga tuh. Sesuatu yang pantes buat digembar gemborin emang. Tapi Joachim Low yang katanya kemaren nangis di pundak putrinya bilang "We need to keep our feet on the ground". Pasti gitu deh, kalo diwawancara komentarnya dia pasti menekankan kalo pengendalian emosi itu betapa pentingnya. Aduh Europe sekali, Jerman sekali. I will cited Top Gear sayings about how Germans always be so civilized, effective and modern. Hahaha... yeah, that's Germany.

Sementara di sisi lain, pemaen2 kalo diinterview pasti akan menekankan betapa pentingnya team work mereka. Dan mereka bangga sama itu. Emang keliatan sih kerja timnya bagus banget, ga ada yang egois, semuanya taktis. Cantik bener kemaren lawan Argentina pokoknya. Schweinsteiger (karena namanya keren banget harus ditulis lengkap) jadi man of the match. Lalu, couplenya, si Pangeran... hahaha, he did quite careless yesterday. Terlalu semangat apa labil? ga ngerti dah... hahaha. He's funny. Ah, dan si Muller yang di entri sebelom ini gw omongin, beneran bersinar dia... hahaha, ngegolin dua kali pas England sekaligus jadi man of the matchnya, dan ngegolin sekali lagi di menit ke-3 (bayangin!!! ketiga!!) pas lawan Argentina. Ckckck, ditulisnya di FIFA kalo Maradona ga akan lupa ama ni anak atu. Karena dulu pas pertama debut maen sama Jerman, si Maradona kira Muller ni "ballboy". LO LIAT TU SEKARANG SI MUELLER KEK APA KAN!... hahahaha

Ah iya, kemaren nonton pertandingan Jerman-Argentinanya di tempat Ebi. Nobar juga kita akhirnya, musti dibelain, sapa tau abis lawan Argentina ga bisa dukung Jerman lagi... eh, ternyata bisa kita nobar dua kali lagi nonton Jerman. Hahahaha... mayan asik sih, akhirnya gw bisa cerewet dan tosan sama orang. Kalo nonton sendiri cuma bisa nahan2 ketawa gw sambil grmbl grmbl... Hahahaha.

Sayangnya pas Spanyol-Paraguay pada ga bangun, yaudah gw nonton sendiri. Bener kan, kalo si Torres maen malah ga gol. Ada apa deh sama Villa dan Torres. Kasian lah si Torres pasti ngerasa ga guna gitu. Tapi lebih kasian lagi emang pemaen Paraguay, Cardovo yang gagal masukin penalti. Dia pas udah selese gamenya nangis gitu, kasian banget dah, sampe semua orang berusaha comfort dia, termasuk pemaen Spanyolnya juga, si Sergio Ramos. Tapi semuanya dia dorong, kesel banget kali ya rasanya. Hadeeeh...

Mau ngomongin apa lagi gw tadi kan... jadi lupa... hahaha. Pokoknya nanti taun 2012, gw bawa 23 pemaen Jerman yang maen di WC ini buat ke Mars. Hahaha... gw rasa mereka tepat buat jadi "bibit unggul" koloni. Selaen tentu saja gw tetep akan mengkloning Duran Duran in their 20s, dan beberapa orang2 tampan dan pintar buat jadi bibit unggul lain.

Here's a nice quotation from FIFA's article
"Low's 2010 FIFA World Cup™ side are the sexiest thing to come out of Germany since Claudia Schiffer became the supermodel face of Chanel"

I know these images will gone someday, so let's preserved it.
Again, I know FIFA protecting copyright, so it's captured from flash and cropped. All from Getty Images/FIFA.

Germany-Argentina

Germany - England

World Cup this far...

2010-06-24T20:27:00.004+07:00

JERMAN LOLOS KE BABAK 16!!! wowowowowowooo...

yea, I know FIFA protecting copyright, so it's captured from flash and cropped.

Hahaha. I end up obsessed with World Cup like the old days... hahaha. It's good. Wakakaka. I know I'm quite geeky about everything, it keeps me active. In front of my PC, yes.

Kenapa ya gw sering banget pake bahasa Inggris, padahal kayak gini nih, ujung2nya pake bahasa Indonesia. Jelek banget kalo dibaca. Hahaha, gw sebenernya benci sama yang suka nyampur2 bahasa sama English, kalo mau sekalian semuanya English ato ga semuanya bahasa. Ahahaha gw payaah, but I can't help it (aku tidak bisa menolongnya? aku tidak bisa menahannya? XD XD XD)

Ok, ternyata gw ga ngerasain euforia WC di tipi karena emang kebanyakan nonton Top Gear... hahaha, ternyata ada tuh acara kayak Histeria Piala Dunia (walopun judulnya lame) setiap jam 1/2 4 di RCTI. Ada tu pasukan RCTI yang dikirim ke Afsel. Gw cuma ga tau aja dulu... wakaka.

Haaah, kemaren gw bangun jam 1/2 2 bela-belain nonton Jerman vs Ghana. Serius tegang banget ma meeen... Gw paling melek pertandingan ini deh, biasa gw begadang sambil ngemil, bikin2 minum, sekarang gw di depan tivi aja mantengin. Sambil sesekali nge-plurk pake hape teriak2 sama Cia sama bang Rie. Hahaha... adoh sedih juga gw kalo dipikir, nonton bola selalu sendirian di rumah, seru sendiri, ngerti sendiri. Pengen dah nobar. Tapi sedih banget sekarang ni lagi2 UAS. Kenapa gw masuk binus yang ujiannya telat. Ga ada tu critanya nonton Piala Dunia pas masih aktif kuliah.. dulu gw nonton ginian pasti pas libur... GRRRR BINUSSSS!!!

Tapi... gw pikir2... mungkin justru seninya di situ. Nonton sendiri dan ngerti sendiri itu ada sensasinya... hahaha. Gw mulai aktif lagi nulis diary, nulis tentang WC ini. Aaah, in the future it will be such a vivid memories kan. Walopun nanti ujung2nya gw bakal sedih tau fakta bahwa 4 tahun itu cepet banget dan gw jelas menua. IT SUCKS.

Haah, kalo WC ini selesai juga, atau Jerman pulang di pertandingan berikut2nya, pasti rasanya sedih juga... I will mourn all day... Hahaha. I enjoyed mourning. Just another drama in my everyday life.

Well, nothing more to say... Mesut Ozil is young and talented. Lahm is my man of the match. And my prince... my Prince Poldi, where is he at yesterday's game? Schweinsteiger done a very good job. And Mueller, so tall and thin, and you can see him everywhere, in forward, midfield, defender... oh it's written that he's a midfielder. AND NO WAY he's a 89'ers...

Time goes by so fast. By the time year 2014, I will see a younger-than-me players in World Cup... NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO.. AGIIIING

SURVIVE

2010-06-13T22:58:00.004+07:00

Today is June 13th 2010. There always be a big sport event in even years. So yesss.. it's time for World Cup beibehhh... hahaha. This year, not like 2006 or 2002, the world cup phenomenon seems so dull. Not really exciting, I don't know it's because I watched too much Top Gear and Law & Order SVU instead of local channel or... dunno. Hahaha

Tapi dari yang gw pelajari dari diari gw, gw biasanya mulai excited pas tengah2 acara kalo udah per8 atau per4 final gitu. Wkwkwk, tapi bener deh, dulu tuh WC 2006 hingar bingar banget, ampe kalo nonton tipi dari jam 11 pagi sampe jam 4 pagi ada terus acara bolanya. Entah laporan terkini dari tempatnya langsung atau acara2 tematik kaya humor gitu. Tapi skarang ga ada nih kayanya. Katanya SCTV mau nayangin WC 2010 dulu... mana, kenapa jadi RCTI yang nayangin? hahaha

Gw lagi begadang ini nungguin Jerman vs Australia jam 1.30 pagi nanti. Hahaha... setelah kemaren2 ga nongkrongin negara2 unggulan laen macam Argentina, Perancis, Inggris, akhirnyaaa GW AKAN MENYAKSIKAN JERMAN. Sebagai Fuhrer Colony 2012 tentu saja gw akan mendukung penuh tim Jerman kali ini. Wkwkwk, selain itu juga, gw akan melihat lagi si Podolski. Hahaha, I go crazy about him in Euro 2008, ni masih ada "suvenir"nya di devART gw.

Hebat kan ni gambar, taon 2008 banget. Gw masih sok2 urban, ngetrace pake posterize dulu, di Photoshop pula ngerjainnya... hahaha. Tapi itu lah yang namanya belajar. Pegang ini itu bikin ini itu dulu, baru bisa bikin sesuatu. Wkwkwkwk

Kemaren gw pengen liat detil pertandingan WC 2006, di diary gw tentu saja. Yang ternyata catetannya sangat mendetil, sampe yang pertandingan final Perancis vs Itali tu kaya gw jelasin per adegan. Pas Zidane dikasih kartu merah abis itu Domenech tepok tangan sambil Bravo Bravo aja gw tulis... hahaha

Puas baca rincian pertandingan sambil haha hihihi, gw tergoda untuk membaca halaman2 sebelomnya. Hahaha.. ini jaman gw kelas 1 SMA. Jaman gw di X-i, jaman di kelas ujung ada XII SOS 1. Wkwkwk... jamannya... MIYAVI. Kangen lah gw dengerin lagunya. Yes, it's another "regression" after BUCK TICK last time. Akhirnya dengan kekuatan internet gw yang dulu ga gw miliki, gw donlotin lagi lagu2nya. And... DAMN.

Dulu istilahnya yang paling berarti dari MYV buat gw cuma looksnya doang, apa... eksentriknya... pokoknya personanya doang. Kenapa baru sekarang akhirnya gw bisa menghargai dia sebagai GITARIS. Hahahahaha... he's so talented. Natural born guitarist. Nyem nyem nyem, tapi gw hepi. Ada untungnya juga kaya gini, kalo straight dari SMA suka mulu ama dia, gw pasti sedih2 ga jelas tu pas tau kemaren dia punya anak. Tapi dengan sekarang gw ngehargain dia dengan musiknya (bla bla bla bla), kagumnya jadi lain. Hahaha, gitu deh. EVERYONE THAT CAN SEE WITH THEIR EYES SHOULD WATCH THIS

So MYV, now I can see you clearly as an artist. It's really great when I watch your lives, doing slapping wtih your guitar. Just do what you really love! That's what makes you in this stage right. Hahaha, I always believe if you do what you really love, it's not impossible to conquer the world.

Punk Poser

2010-05-30T21:26:00.003+07:00

HAPPY 21st ANNIVERSARY TO MY NO.1 IDOL

LUNA SEA!!!!

Ok, ini telat satu hari. Harusnya gw nulis kemaren. Bukannya sekarang saat gw harus ngerjain asis DKV gw. Yea... gw lagi menunda nunda pekerjaan. Hahahaha.

Something happening in LS' OHP. A simple word read "REBOOT" that enough to make all slaves in the whole world screaming like crazy. Hahaha, I love you guys. It's just a simple prove that LUNA SEA never die. Aging in your 30s, or just a newbie fans like me, loving LUNA SEA like that is just simply COOL.

Kemaren karena senang tak terkira, gw merayakan this reboot things with listened to LUNA SEA's old album again. Hahaha, lagu kayak Sandy Time, Call for Love, Wall... aduh kangen bangeet... hahahaha. Jadilah gw ke LastFM kan ngecek2, siapa tau gara2 itu LS mendahului LArc. Hahaha, ternyata ada maksud lain...

Akhirnya gara2 itu gw iseng liat2 ben lain, kayak Der Zibet. Wakaka, ada satu orang Jepang yang gw temuin di listener listnya, namanya MOJIZO. Ga ngerti deh ni orang. Aneh aja jaman sekarang dandanannya masih kayak gitu. Punk forever ma meeen. Hahaha, gw sempet bilang kan kemaren di plurk kalo LastFM adalah tempat berbahaya dimana gw bisa tau ben yang ga gw tau. Gw jalan2 dari satu account ke account lain, trus liat playlist orang2. Gw cobain deh ben2 yang kayaknya menarik.

Yang pertama gw cobain dari top artist-nya MOJIZO, The Stalin.
Sounds so familiar huh. The Stalin ini sering disebut2 sama artis JRock, yang mungkin emang bukan sama anak2 A9 atau Gajet. Hahaha.. they seem the biggest punk act in Japan? Akhirnya gw coba nonton mereka di youtube. Gw nonton live-nya. What should I say ya... hahaha... hum, remind me so much to Sex Pistols. Bit of boring. I don't hear an interesting sound in them. Dengan segitu dangkalnya menilai ben dari satu lagu, akhirnya gw ga nyari The Stalin lagi. Screaming randomly and puking is just so boring.

Yang kedua gw cobain... SOFT BALLET.
Sounds so familiar too, huh. Wahahaha. You can see their names a lot in jrock_scans. I bet morgiana sama is their fans too. I read their description in LastFM saying they sound like Depeche Mode. Oh, I think new wave is worth to try. I go to youtube, and watch White Shaman. Ok, they got 10 for attitude but 6 for music. It's boring tooo... oh Jesus. Being so shallow again, I leave them.

I keep searching random artist, and find what LastFM called "garage rock band", THEE MICHELLE ELEPHANT GUN. Or you can simply said TMEG. First I watch Smoking Billy. I thought they're so so. But somehow I manage to watch their other videos. Hahaha.. let's say Birdmen, Get Up Lucy, GWD, Baby Stardust and else. I watch them quite a lot on youtube. But they're still not clicked with me. I'm wondering what's wrong with them. And came up with the conclusion that they have a good sound, but I kinda hate the singer's voice. His voice is harsh? hoarse? harse?. Once or twice using that voice in a song is fine, but when you using it in whole song, it will be tiring. TIRING. Yes, ah... sayang banget kan. Akhirnya kemaren setelah buffer dan nonton video2nya TMEG sampe malem, gw nyerah, udah lah gw stay sama artis2 di list gw aja sekarang. Hahaha

Lalu.. hari ini, gw ketemu di kamarnya Scarlet pico, seorang wanita berumur 44 tahun bernama Fuku, fansnya tetsu.. wakaka. She's a punk in her young days. I thought this kind of person as "very interesting". Hahaha... then, we talk a bit about punk scene that time. Around early 80s I think. Hahaha, then she said she loves The Clash's early songs. I thought "AHHH. THE CLASH!". It seems everytime I talk about punk, the Clash always showed up. Bokapnya Ebi suka The Clash, di wiki punk rock ada The Clash, di Age of rock ada The Clash... dimana2 yang ngomongin punk ada The Clash pokoknya. Hahaha. Dulu waktu gw belom tau apa2, gw taunya punk itu cuma Sex Pistols sama Ramones. Gw ga pernah denger nama The Clash, jadi gw pikir alangkah baiknya gw cari tau mereka. Hahaha

Yang paling gw inget dari The Clash itu sampul albumnya mereka yang London Calling. I saw it first on VH1's best album cover. It reached quite high number, like 7 maybe?. When people said about The Clash, the first thing came up in my mind is this image:

Somehow it's iconic sih emang. Hahaha. Karena merasa London Calling sangat terkenal, gw cek lagunya di youtube, dan... gw kecewa. Ini ga punk kalo kata gw. Yea, gw ga expert musik sih. Tapi pokoknya ini bukan punk yang gw tau. Akhirnya gw inget kata2nya Fuku, dia suka sama early works-nya The Calling. Nggak mau kecewa, gw cek ke wiki discographynya mereka dan coba nonton single dari album pertama mereka, White Riot. And it was like DANG! this is the sound that I want from yesterday. Hahaha.

So, now I had The Clash in my playlist. Hahaha, only one album though. Gw dengerin The Clash emang asli bunyinya doang, gw ga tau dah judulnya apaan, membernya kayak apaan, namanya siapa aja, yang penting gw dengerin lagunya di kuping gw. Ini pertama kalinya gw kayak gini... XD XD XD. People know I'm a typical fangirl, right? Hahahaha

Ok, now I should thinking about my assignment, or, should I try listen to Ramones on youtube now?
Oh look, I'm a poser. Hahaha

History

2010-05-28T22:39:00.003+07:00

BUCK TICK... baru kemaren gw cari cari mereka lagi. Hahaha di awal2 blog ini gw sempet kan sering banget ngomongin om Atchuu, lalu Korean Wave masuk... blablablablbla... and now, it's fading away... then, I come back to my root. Old JRock bands. Well, I'm not an expert either, I'm just a newbie that only know about DEAD END, BUCK TICK, later on, Der Zibet. I know nothing about... hm, Boowy, Ziggy (why everything seems very David Bowie.. XD XD XD), Masami Tsuchiya, Soft Ballet...

Hahaha, ngomongin BUCK TICK lagi.. kenapa ya sebenernya kemarenan gw tertarik nyari mereka lagi. Oh oh oh, gw iseng2 liat lagi JRock.ink, trus bikin karya ini

gara2 iseng juga nonton PVnya National Media Boys. Sebenernya tu PVnya dan lagunya aneh. Tapi gw suka ada pabrik2nya... lama2 dibikin karyanya sambil diliatin PVnya kok oke juga ya lagunya. Akhirnya sekarang masuk library gw. Hahaha... dari situlah gw nyari2 BT lagi. Lucu kan, kangen gw baca translationnya Fish Tank, gw cari terus nemu Nopperabou. Lucu banget bacanya. Ahaha... trus gw sadar. Mereka udah brapa tahun ya? 26 tahun bareng2, personelnya yang terdiri dari Pisces, Libra, Akuarius, Gemini dan Leo itu ga pernah ganti2. Jago banget, mereka sampe pernah bikin parade yang skalanya gede. That's cool. Angkatannya mereka yang ga pernah bubar dari dulu cuma mereka. Yang ada terus singlenya cuma mereka. Kenapa gw baru sadar sekarang? hahaha... dulu gw terlalu terfokus sama muka vampirnya om Atchuu pasti ya.

Sambil mendalami BT (lagi), gw membanding2kan timeline musik di luar Jepang sama yang terjadi di dalem musik rock Jepang (later on, in this case, will be vkei bloodline). Gw belajar kayaknya musisi Jepang yang gw kenal2 itu mereka bikin musik berdasarkan musik yang mereka dengerin waktu mereka kecil, SMP-SMA lah. Yang artinya, udah bertahun2 yang lalu sebelum mereka bikin ben. Ahaha, mungkin itu alasan kenapa kayaknya pas musik luar udah dengerin Nirvana dengan gaya secuek2nya, musik rock di Jepang baru kenal dandan2an.... hahaha, yang udah berlalu 10 tahun yang lalu.

Menarik ya, mereka telat, tapi justru sekarang jadi sub kultur yang jadi komoditi musik Jepang sendiri. Bahkan kalo di Jepang sekarang vkei udah ga se-boom yang dulu, orang luar banyak yang suka gitu. Gw yakin fans2 yang baru kenal nganggep vkei itu "Jepang banget" walopun sebenernya nggak.

Hal lain yang gw tangkep, anak2 BT ni, khususnya Atsushi sama Imai sih, album2 favenya banyakan album New Wave. Ini lucu, walopun mereka emang selalu bilang musik mereka bebas, tapi dimana2 pasti selalu ditulis mereka ini salah satu pionir vkei, yang asumsinya selalu rock. What really happened in Japanese Rock music that times, then?

Ben yang re-create musik yang mereka dengerin waktu kecil, cowo2 yang dandan karena just simply like it, fashion yang ngambil new romantic campur2 glam. Hahaha... hebat deh. Itu saat dimana ga harus terlihat cakep atau cantik buat bikin ben rock. Ga harus ngecat rambut, act cute, pake mawar atau wig... so pure. Hahaha

Kalo pengen tau apa yang beneran terjadi di music scene Jepang saat itu, ga bisa nyari jawabannya di internet. Orang selalu nulis berdasarkan yang mereka cari di internet juga. Mereka nyimpulin sendiri, nulis sendiri. Yang paling salah adalah, mereka nggak ngalamin itu sendiri. Bahkan kalo orang yang nulis ngalamin itu sendiri, tulisannya apakah bisa dipercaya? Contoh kecilnya, fansnya BUCK TICK sama X-Japan pasti nulis hal yang beda tentang siapa yang mempionirkan vkei duluan. Dalam hal ini, berarti harus nyari orang yang hidup di jaman itu, dengan posisi penikmat segala, penonton, pengamat. Kalo di bahasa Indonesianya, orang ketiga serba tahu. Hahahaha

Pertanyaannya, adakah orang dari jaman itu yang nganggep pergerakan musik Jepang sepenting itu? nulis perkembangannya, sampe 20 tahun kemudian ada orang macem gw yang bener2 kepengen tau. Hahaha, itulah yang terjadi sama sejarah gw rasa. Disimpulin sendiri sama orang di masa depan. Nggak kompeten? Menurut lo?!. Hahaha... mau gimana pun, sejarah itu gw rasa cuma bisa dimengerti sama orang yang hidup di jaman itu. Apakah Ziggy Stardust sehebat yang gw simpulkan dan orang2 simpulkan? Apakah orang Roma bener-bener nyiptain arch untuk pertama kali?

Apakah beberapa figur dan peradaban dinilai terlalu hebat? Siapa yang bener2 bikin mereka hebat kalo gitu? ada berapa figur dan kejadian juga yang dilupain?

People from the future wrote the history. It came from reminiscences, personal opinions and preferences. Hahaha.

10 things that tremble OBOL's heart

2010-05-09T21:58:00.002+07:00

HOWLAAAAWWW... i'm back again. Ahaha, many things going on my mind now. So I decide to write 10 things that tremble my heart. Eeeeew...

10. Blue Sky

Clear sky in a daylight, a journey to somewhere... ahaha, feel so peaceful. Gw selalu pengen jalan pake mobil terbuka, trus pointing to the sky and just feel the wind. Jelas hal itu ga akan kejadian di sini.

09. Tiang Listrik

Gw suka liat tiang listrik beserta kabel2nya.... rasanya kota banget. Kering, rusak.

08. New day's dawn

Sunrise in general, are more beautiful compared to sunset. Hahaha, gw emang lebih suka liat sunrise, waktu langit yang gelap dikit2 jadi pink... trus lama-lama mataharinya muncul. Anginnya juga lebih enak angin pagi ketimbang angin sore. Trus... bau rumput yang masih ngembun... hhhh... heaven...

07. SPBU

SPBU... hahaha, yah terutama yang ada di jalan tol emang. Hmmm... nothing special in particular, cuma suka aja. Kalo malem2 di jalan tol cuma area ini yang ada kehidupannya... Mungkin di situ romannya. Area yang hidup di tengah tempat yang ga ada apa2nya.

06. School Rooftop

Hahaha, ini pasti gara2 gw kebanyakan baca komik atau nonton dorama. Sayangnya sekolah di Indonesia ga ada yang gedung kayak gini. Padahal kalo di komik biasanya cowok keren sering cabut terus sendirian di rooftop... hahaha. Dimana2 rooftop dijadiin tempat obrolan penting, perpisahan, bunuh diri atau menyatakan cinta. NYEMMM. Masa SMA yang kayak gitu pasti bakal diinget terus, berdua (atau bertiga berempat, berlima) di atap sekolah, ga ada yang liat... cuma kita aja.

05. Railway / Station

Waiting or saying good bye... walking towards nothing. Hahaha, itu rasanya kalo liat rel kereta... Lonely... ya ya.

04. Padang rumput / Ilalang

I LOOOVEEEE THIIIISSSS. berbagai macam rumput yang panjang atau pendek gw suka, yang grain2 gitu juga suka. Di berbagai cuaca pun gw suka, cerah ceria, rintik2 gloomy atau stormy2 berbahaya... padang ilalang selalu jadi tempat yang enak buat lari2... entah sambil ketawa atau nangis, dan selalu jadi tempat yang cocok buat background semuanya, dari adegan inget2 masa lalu, ketemu orang yang disuka, sampe footage film tornado. Oh ada satu padang rumput yang ga ada di sini. Kalo di Jepang di pinggir jalan deket sungai suka ada tu turunan yang melembah gitu menuju sungai... aish, itu oke banget.

03. Hujan

Like Morrie, every single of us can sing "I can hear the rain".

02. Industrial Area

Thanks to industry revolution we got this... wo hooo... Beberapa hari yang lalu gw baru sadar kalo gw bisa ngesearch "industrial area" di DA dengan keyword lain, kayak "power plant" atau "oil refinery" mwahaha. Oil Refinery is the most beautiful, industrial area yang paling alive. Gw yakin banget gw udah liat salah satunya pas naek kereta menuju Bromo. Cerita tentang gw liat ke jendela jam 2 pagi dan langit udah terang, ternyata pas mendekat ada kawasan industri yang terang banget di situ. Setelah gw cari2, gw hampir yakin kalo itu Cepu. Ahh, ada yang kayak gitu di Indo, gw harus liat kan?

01. Highway

Pasti ga ada mengejut2kannya sama sekali. Sebenernya, selain rooftop, lo bisa liat semua yang gw tulis di atas tadi kalo lo ke jalan tol. Hahaha... gw selalu suka sama ide pergi ke suatu tempat yang ga jelas... cuma jalan terus... enjoying freedom? kind of.

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Synthetic Stars

2010-05-07T19:42:00.001+07:00

Sad and lonely

That's me. Now. Lonely karena emang udah hampir seminggu ga ada kontak sama real human, except my mom and sister and yeah, nothing really called communication with them. Kemarenan gw kena sakit sesuatu semacam demam dan batuk2, sampe sekarang masih nggak enak dan lemes2 gitu. It's fucking annoying. Today and yesterday I still don't go to college, extending holiday. Not necessary because I'm not well yet, but simply because I'm lazy. Now I just realize I just wasting these two days away.

Gw harusnya ngerjain ulang packaging gw, tapi gw males banget ngerjainnya karena.. males. I don't have extraordinary vision about it, or I always have second thought about it will going well or not. Jadi gw nunda nunda nunda nunda... Kalo gw tetep kerjain aja yang ada di pikiran gw, apa hasilnya bakalan bagus, karena sebenernya ide packagingnya biasa banget. Extreme Sport... should it be rame and cheesy? I hate it. My design tend to be delicate and feminine. But a designer should be able to design with any needs... FUCK OFF. I have my identity crisis and that's what design school teach me. What should I do then. Ha???

I'm just so tired with all these things. Tadi pas mandi gw sempet mikir, apa gw tuh harusnya belajar di sastra aja dan tetep jadiin ngedesain sebagai hobi yang suatu saat bisa digunain. Bukannya kuliah desain ga ada gunanya, gw belajar.. idih, gw belajar apa ya selama ini?

Taste... yea... quite
Hmmm.. composition... gw punya komposisi mengalir ritmis, empasis, berpusat dan tumbuh dari pertama gw kenal photoshop. So, nope... composition... not really.
History... definitely.
Ah, drawing... anatomy... that's a good one, even our lecturer is... ah, unspeakable.
What else... FCC... bla bla bla... it sets boundaries and it SUCKS. We have it in our brain, we don't need to make it concrete or such, the boundary should be blur, not too clear. Our imagination is not going anywhere!!

What else... metaphore, same with FCC every human capable of it, don't make it too clear.

Mungkin gw belajar banyak tapi sekarang gw lagi ga sadar. Yea, mungkin hal2 itu yang paling bikin gw sad. Nilai DKV gw jatohh, terakhir gara2 gw ga bawa kertas asistensi. Ya, gw ngerjain package gw ngasal tapi masih dapet 75, lumayan deh, tapi gara2 ga ada kertas asisnya jadi 65. WHAT A SHAAAAME. Now I don't have any self confidence left. Typo kemaren secara mengejutkan gw dapet 85, walopun ngerjainnya yang penting jadi gitu. Well I'm quite happy, but not so happy. Apa gunanya dapet nilai bagus kalo lo sendiri nggak nikmatin kerjaannya. MRG kemaren gw juga untung masih dapet 75, yang itu gw bahagia banget sih karena gw ngerjainnya mepet banget dan hasil cetakannya yang cuma brapa biji hampir kotor semuanya... dan gw namain kopiannya pake drawing pen!!! even yang gw pajang jadi karya utama itu hasil cetak tangannya Edbert. Hahaha...

Hm, MRG itu walopun cuma dapet 75. I'm still happy... karena gw tau gambar gw emang bagus, hahaha. Gw yakin kalo ga kotor dan lain2nya gw bisa dapet nilai yang jaoh lebih tinggi. This kind of confidence. Gw sebenernya orang yang bisa value karya gw sendiri, yang gw ga ngerti itu orang lain. Yang selalu jadi lebih penting buat gw adalah value yang gw kasih sendiri. If you begin not to add any value to your own art, it doesn't have meaning anymore. The existence you want to build with your art all started with values.

Kemaren malem gw nulis diary sambil trance, hmm really complex feelings. Ada hal2 yang ga gw rasain lagi waktu gw sedih kayak gw masih SMA dulu. Gw bilang di diary mungkin untuk kesekian kalinya. I HATE GROWN UP, I WANT TO BE TEENAGER FOREVER Dulu waktu SMA, selalu masih ada pikiran buat benahin lagi besok2, sekarang kayaknya waktu makin mendekat, mendekat, ga banyak waktu lagi. Gimana kalo ga berhasil benahin, gimana kalo ga berhasil dapetin mimpi little girl gw? Taon ini gw bakal 20 tahun, 2 tahun lagi lulus, cuma 3 tahun lagi dari lulus gw bakal 25. Apa gw udah dapet impian gw di saat itu? Sementara sekarang gw males2an kayak gini. Lost ways.. or whatever... I always afraid of future.

Waktu gw trans kemaren, gw bilang

"Where's my freedom? I never find it again...
Where's my happiness? Do I actually walk toward it?
Is it lie in the future?
or buried in the past?"

eeew.

Pengen mudik gw. Liat patung monyet sama singa di tol Cipularang (emang ada ya? dimananya sih?). Hahahaha.. or, I really wanna see stars at dawn... those synthetic stars... the ones that so bright that even colored the night sky, make it looks like already dawn. It will be soooo beautiful, right?

Fruity story

2010-04-10T00:18:00.001+07:00

Crita karangan gw yang gw tekadkan akan selesai ternyata ga lanjut2 ampe sekarang. Keputusnya pas bagian yang kalo feelnya ga ada ga enak gitu lagi. Seperti biasa sebenernya gw udah tulis kronologinya di diary, abis gini gitu, abis gitu gini, akhirnya aja udah keliatan jelas. Tapi ya itu, malesnya.... haaaaaaaaah. Padahal personally gw suka ama critanya. Ini pertama kali gw bikin crita pake BL touch. Ahahaha, ternyata susah. Apalagi gw pengennya ga mau beneran jelas yang mana yang seme yang mana yang uke. Gw maunya mereka temenan tapi lebih dari temenan. Tapi tetep posisinya temenan. Ahahaha... Gw selalu dapet gambaran hubungan gay itu sebegitu rumitnya dan nggak dimengertinya.

Aduh gila crita yang gw mulai ga ada yang selesai dari awal, trus langkah2nya pasti sampe akhir. Ahh, paling ada yang crita lepas gitu yang selese, yang sebenernya bagian dari crita yang lebih gede lagi. Ahahaha. Pengen nulis cerita2 lepas lagi. Yang pendek, ga ruwet kebanyakan plot. Ahaha, tapi kadang jadi ga ngena. Tapi gw baru aja nemu komik crita2 pendek, yang begitu doang, dan critanya tentang hal2 biasa, tapi ngena. Dan ini komik Korea, ahahaha... tapi stylenya gambarnya gw suka, ga tipikal yang muka panjang mata tajem ato cewenya rambut ikel2 panjang gitu ihihi.

Judul komiknya "Fruits", karangan Kim Euy-Joong, walopun di ceritanya kadang ada bagian yang sedikit maksa dan terlalu "ih, gini doang?", tapi overall bagus. Harus baca nih, gw suka tipe2 komik kayak gini. Just ordinary things in ordinary life gitu... tapi kadang ada hal2 yang bisa lo kenang dan lo harukan dari situ. Hahaha...

Eh gw tuh udah gambar si Jiro (tokoh crita gw yang gw kasih tau di awal).

Tapi gw beneran ga bisa gambar si Hajime. Ahahaha...apa yang susah dari gambar cowo tipe kayak dia?! There's something annoyed me. Hahaha no way. It's a normal thing, the story itself doesn't have a title yet. I would love to pick "City in Blue"? atau "A town in blue" aja sekalian gw persisin sama lagunya AKFG. Hahaha, lagu itu sontreknya Tekkonkinkreet. Yah, crita gw ini sebenernya bisa sih dibilang heavily influenced sama Tekkonkinkreet. Cuma dengan penokohan yang beda dan masalah yang beda aja. Oh my... that story... I should finished it quick...

X-Day coming there

2010-03-14T00:56:00.000+07:00

Gw sekarang lagi di warnet. Grieving over my crash PC all day long. Had nothing to do. Maybe internet really had become an addiction to me. It feels clueless if it's not there.F!!!

Hmm tadi pas onlen di hape gw tiba2 iseng nyari manga yang dari lama pengen gw baca sampe selese. It's X-Day Coming There. Gw lupa kapan pertama kali gw baca manga ini... Kelas 3 SMP? yang gw inget waktu itu gw baca bajakannya yang vol.1 doang. Kakak gw beli manga bajakan... yeaa.. sebenernya manga bajakan itu suka bagus ceritanya. Hahaha... ada lagi manga bajakan bagus judulnya Ritchan (we'll talk about it later). Yang jelas pas pertama liat X-Day gw sama sekali nggak tertarik, pertama karena cover bajakannya jelek, seenaknya aja bikinnya. Hahaha... dan yes, itu bajakan. MANGA BAJAKAN, sangat2 kriminal somehow...

Tapi kayaknya gw iseng, gw buka, eh gambarnya gw suka, gw baca critanya, eh ternyata bagus banget. Gw inget terus ceritanya, tapi komiknya sempet ilang gara2 komik di rumah kebanyakan, lalu beberapa tahun kemudian gw nemu lagi komiknya, tapi akhirnya ni komik gw pinjemin ke orang ga dibalik2in. Hahaha, okei... itu adalah KOMIK BAJAKAN kawan2. Yang penting di sini, gw sadar betapa yang kita baca, liat, denger waktu dulu itu mempengaruhi pola pikir kita.

Gw ga lagi beneran mikir mau ngeledakin kampus, tapi gw masih bakal tepok tangan andai ada orang yang serius ngeledakin kampus dengan alasan labil macam "this life is just sucks". That's brave. That's cool. Gw masih sampe sekarang terpesona sama orang yang punya banyak masalah. Sama cerita2 macam X-Day begini. Fighting for "freedom", story about loneliness, depression... Waktu gw pertama kali baca X-Day, gw bener2 kagum sama ceritanya. Bener2 dark, pengarangnya pinter nggali perasaan tokoh2nya sampe lo ngerasa "real" dan punya koneksi, perasaan yang jahat, tapi karena lo manusia dan hidup dengan berbagai macam suntikan norma dan nilai lo ga pernah sadar perasaan jahat kayak gitu ada. Tapi perasaan kayak gitu tuh ada. Baca manga ini ya rasanya kayak gitu... surem pokoknya.

Hahaha... waktu SMA dan sangat terpengaruh dengan manga X-Day ini, gw beneran pengen ngeledakin sekolah, dikit2 bilang "ngeledakin sekolah". Banyak deh... istilahnya hal "ngeledakin sekolah" ini keren banget buat gw. Mungkin sadar ga sadar gw masih kebawa sampe sekarang, di cerita2 yang gw tulis. Dari dulu gw sering nulis cerita yang nyeritain kebencian tokohnya sama sekolah. Gw ga pernah mandang sekolah hal yang menyenangkan. Semua anak sekolah ngerasa gitu kayaknya. Bored to death. Peer, tugas, ujian, rutinitas, beban. We're all rebellions that time... hahaha, itulah indahnya masa SMA. Being a rebel. That's art of living as highschoolers.

Sekarang, setiap pagi pas berangkat ke kampus gw liat SMA gw. Liat anak2 pake seragam dan masuk ke gerbang. I felt jealous. High School life is nothing compared with real life. Hahaha.. gw yang sekarang emang belom ketemu sama si real life ini. Tapi waktu sekolah, sebenernya lo udah tinggal enaknya aja, karena ada orang lain yang ngatur hidup lo. Sekarang? harus tanggung jawab sama diri sendiri. Mau maju ato nggak, mau rajin ato nggak, mau hebat ato nggak. Ga semudah ngeledakin sekolah trus tiba2 semua masalah selese gitu aja.

I'm a loner, and I'm crying on television

2010-02-23T23:33:00.002+07:00

I just read this article Minhyuk about people sayings.
FUNNY? yes. That's how Korean music like. Boybands are there to make fangirls scream, idols are there to make ballad songs. No one really care about anything else than mainstream stuffs. They're stuck. All things are going pop-ish and idol-ish. Even the band that they called a "band" is truly a bunch of guys smiling and acting in front of the stage, singing music that written by someone else. People love that, actually. People love idols, I'm in love with idols too.. So why this Minhyuk crying like that?

WHAT HE CRYING FOR? If his goal joined CNBlue to gathered popularity, he got it. If his goal was respect in music, he got in the wrong path. You want people to respect you but you still doing other person's music? WHAT YOU EXPECT, KID?. Everyone knows if you want to be a band, you should write your own music first, I think being in a band is like dream to show the world who you really are. You want the world listen to your music, your talent, and of course a message to deliver. Sorry this might be too idealistic hahaha... but I believe that's the beauty of creating something by yourself and show it to the world.

Making your own music, is really the first rule.
After that, with YOUR OWN hands, start to grab small livehouses, doing YOUR music there, show some crowd what you got. If they love it, they will increase more and more day by day, you will find your self in bigger venue and have a contract with indie label, after that if you want to grab the whole world and being commercial at the same time, you'll have major label on your side. THAT SIMPLE, Minhyuk. Don't crying like that. Being an "idol-like-band" like you are now, people like me judged that you don't have a pure passion in music, we will never respect you in any way, we will treat you like any other boybands, or even worse. Sorry, we all know boybands are totally fine to have their music written by someone else, it won't be a problem, but a band like your band CNBlue? mmm, I don't think so. Minhyuk, if you really want to be respected, quit from your current agency, take chances, making your own music (again, this thing), and conquer the world. That's a real passion.

Band and idol groups always be a problem, even for the fans, like me. I'm a JRock fans too, and have people around me that look down my fond for boybands. They're silly.

Ini ngganjel banget jadi gw mau pake bahasa Indo aja.

Yea, kalo ada orang yang masih nganggep rendah boiben dari rockstar mereka itu wajar sih, stereotypes... hahaha. Gw juga dulu begini, sampe sekarang juga masih. Gw selamanya akan mendewa2kan orang yang bikin musik sendiri, maen instrumen sendiri. Harus dua2nya loh., maen instrumen sendiri tapi ga bikin musik sendiri, itu ga termasuk. TAPI!!! (balik ke masalah awal) Gw bangga tau ga karena gw udah tau boiben yang gw hina dina itu sebenernya kayak apa. I have a lot more eye candies than other JRock fans had. Dan boiben ini lucu lagi, beneran ga ada salahnya suka ama boiben, serius guwe. Diliat dulu baru di-judge. I was on that stage, guys.. So I know.

Gw sekarang kesel kalo ada yang meremehkan kesukaan gw akan boiben Korea. Ok, gw pernah jadi orang yang gitu juga (kasian banget gw kena karma). Yah, gw mau komen apa juga kan, gw cuma bisa komen "Lo belom liat mereka kan, belom tau mereka kayak apaan?". That's it, emang cuma itu problemnya. Paling betenya lagi, kalo yang "ngeremehin" gw bahkan ga "senge-rock" gw (apa ya, gimana ya ngomongnya. ISTILAHNYA gw apal mati sejarah vkei dan tau David Bowie (ini fakta yang sangat penting jadi harus disampaikan), sementara mungkin dia tau MUCC aja nggak.

HAAAH... males banget kan kalo kayak gitu?
I know things better than you all, guys!!!
Padahal gw lebih ngerti JRock, eh, gw ga tau ben2 baru sih, oke *ehem* gw lebih ngerti rock ketimbang mereka (kemana mana), sempet2nya ya mereka ngeremehin gw. Hahahahaha banget kan. Hahaha.. those people, I pitied them.

Ok, gw pilek, jadi gw mau tidur

With Love

2010-02-20T21:39:00.003+07:00

Heaven is no longer pink anymooore... woo hoooo. Ahaha, sekarang transformasi blog gw udah komplit. Sekarang warnanya abu2, putih, merah. As I said before... Walopun bannernya maksa abis itu.. ahaha, beneran ga ada waktu buat bikin yang serius gw... akhirnya gw pake tugas kalender AI gw pas semester satu. Gw bangga sama tugas gw yang itu... tugas kalender gw itu mengagumkan, bener2 nunjukkin gw. Gw waktu itu belom krisis identitas kayak sekarang. Ahahaha... oh Jesus Christ.. help me out of this crisis. Exploring is not always founding. Nyeh nyeh, but back to those days... I would like to. Hmm, udah lama banget gw ga maenan sama AI, di kompi gw yang sekarang kebetulan ga ada AI, gw mau install tapi DVDnya ada trojannya.. ngek ngok. Gw harus kasih liat tugas kalender gw...

Look, they're gorgeus aren't they? Ah my babies... If I had time and mood, I really want to complete the series...
The world should see me this way. But I can't carry on this colors and taste all the time... haaahahaha... ampun dah, gw emang lagi krisis identitas.

LANJOOOOOOOOOOOOT. Hal itu ntar gw pikirin kapan2 lagi aja
Gw nulis karena gw lagi nungguin donlotan DVD ripnya hyper D. It's DEAD END, beybeeehh.. wo hoooo... 4 part, satu partnya 225MB. Manteb yak, hmmm 800MB, dan cuma satu jam. Bayangin sama Velvet Goldmine, 700MB tapi dua jam. Ini DVD ripnya hyper D sebagus apa coba. Gw aja nggak pernah donlot video LUNA SEA dengan kualitas sebagus ini. Hahaha, iseng abis gw donlot DEAD END. Gw penasaran banget sih tiba2 mau nonton livenya DEAD END. Dan ini barang langka loh, yang tau DEAD END aja langka, apa lagi yang punya DVD ripnya. I will be one of those rare people!!! That's cool. Really cool.

Semenjak donlot Velvet Goldmine kayaknya gw sekarang donlot segede2 gini ga mikir lagi, mana ada Download Manager sekarang, hahaha bisa gw pause trus gw terusin lagi, bisa gw tinggal tidur trus shut down sendiri. INI CANGGIH. Future is near, people!! Wahahaha.

Ah, ada satu note yang ditinggalin uploadernya hyper D. Katanya "Morrie's so hot. It's not even funny". Hahaha... gw langsung bisa mbayangin dan menyetujui kata2nya. DEAD END lived in glam era. They're still pure. Jadi masih kocak2 gitu, soalnya jadul abis. Tapi Morrie ini karismanya emang nusuk2, jadi sekonyol apa pun visualisasinya segala macem. Dia bakal tetep keliatan hot. See, dibilangin gini aja gw bisa langsung setujuin, apalagi nonton videonya kan... Hmm... skarang udah 66% donlot part terakhir. Ini perjuangan selama dua hari kawan2... Niatnya pengen buat ngisi liburan, tapi nyatanya senen udah masuk. Yah lumayan deh supply buat masuk kuliah brarti. Besok ni donlotan harus selese gw tonton pokoknya.

Eh, moso gw ga punya label DEAD END ato JRock, buck tick juga ga ada... how could it be. Gw prasaan sering banget ngomongin DEAD END sama BUCK TICK dulu, 2PM aja ada, GD sama BIG BANG aja ada. Ini ga adil. Akan segera gw perbaiki labeling gw.

Oh ya, tadi gw abis nonton From Paris with Love. Akhirnya liat juga gw Jonathan Rhys Meyers di layar yang begitu besarrr... dan matanya yang biru yang jernih.. oh, killerrrrr. Wakaka, critanya standar abis, walopun ternyata lebih bagus dari yang gw bayangkan, karena sebelomnya gw udah baca reviewnya di Rotten Tomato. At least masih bisa bikin ketawa lah ni pelem. Gw menantikan dimana Jonathan Rhys Meyers (namanya panjang) bisa jadi A-classed actor di Hollywood... ahaha... Cepet2 lah dapet main role buat felem keren, oom.. lo udah 30 lebih kan? Liat tuh si Cristian Bale yang maen sama lo di Velvet Goldmine udah jadi segede apa sekarang.. padahal dulu dia di Velvet Goldmine dapet peran yang paling lame dari yang lame. Hahaha... Oke sgitu dulu.. dadah

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Ya ampun, gara2 benerin label gw jadi baca2 entri gw yang dulu, ternyata taon 2009 aja gw selabil itu. Astaga... ckckck... MAAFKAN AKU DUNIA

Ngupil pake keris

2010-02-15T22:44:00.002+07:00

Mystery mystery... mystery mystery WHY

Hi guys, udah lama ga bersua. Hari ini saya ingin menulis bahwa nilai DKV saya 84, pas pertama liat syok memang, tapi abis itu biasa aja. Kayaknya gw udah mulai biasa sama kejatuhan kayak begini, dapet poster 82 datar, apa2 datar deh pokoknya. Tapi gw yang insecure ini selalu memikirkan pikiran orang lain... Do they think this or that about me? Do they expect me to griefing with my scores? Do they pitied me? Hahaha... kalo yang itu masih sering gw pikirin, jadi walopun sebenernya gw datar sama nilai gw, gw masih bingung ngadepinnya. Kalo gw beneran bersikap datar, apakah orang2 akan menilai gw sok kuat? Kalo gw bersikap nangis menangis, apa itu yang normal? Hahahaha. No. The fact is I'm totally fine with my scores. What happen happened. Selalu ada alasan buat semuanya terjadi. The thing I'm not fine with is, when people said comments that expect me to grieving over my scores. I believed it's a form of sympathy, somehow... but still.. *deep sigh*

Hahaha... but that's okaay... People are people.
Tadi gw mau ngomong apa ya jadi lupa. Gw abis nonton Dalja Spring sebentar. Ah, agak lucu neh, pertamanya gw mau nonton ini kan gara2 ada Kim Jaewook yang muncul sebentar2, trus tapi pasangan tokoh utamanya lama2 diliat kok menarik juga. Dia ni Lee Minki. Hahaha.. gw udah tau dia dari lama, semenjak felem Haeundae sering banget disebut2... gw sadar kalo dia ni cakepnya emang beda. Pas nonton Dalja Spring aja gw langsung "Eh, ini si Lee Minki itu ya". Akhirnya gw tergoda buat ngeklik tag Lee Minki di Omona, dan JENG JENG JEEENG... he had an album. How cool is that, he played the guitar.. walopun yah, gitu doang sih emang. Dan MVnya menarik, lagunya bagus.. langsung lah gw tancap gas donlot albumnya. And... the album is belong on a runway show. It really is. Ahahaha... but I'm totally in love with the album. I love "his" music over his acting. Lucunya ni orang kalo difoto editorial bagus banget deh. Walopun dia ga punya abs, tapi dia sering banget nge-ekspos badannya. It should be a problem, but it's not for him. Hahaha.. walopun ada baenya emang dia workout lah sedikit. And have a model body, it would be great.
Nah, tapi waktu diliat di felem biasa aja... pokoknya impactnya ga segede kalo liat fotonya, ato bahkan liat di MV atauu.. di atas panggung. Wahahaha, it could be only my fetish... Sorry, I love rockstars...

Minki Capricorn, sama kayak David Bowie... elegant charm. Is that Capricorn main attraction?. Hmm ga tau ya, selain zodiak selamanya ga bisa dijadiin acuan, gw ga gitu kenal banyak cowok Capricorn. Ah, ngomongin zodiak, gw sering banget "wow this guy is interesting", trus cek di gugel dan ternyata dia Sagitarius, kalo ga Leo, kalo ga Aries. INI TERLALU SERING, hampir selalu malah.

Gw banyak observasi akhir2 ini... ga semua Leo itu "COWOK" banget. Karakteristik yang justru (menurut gw) paling keliatan itu sikap sosialnya, apa ya.. mulai dari easy going, ramah, selalu bersedia membantu... In case of GDragon, lihatlah dia selalu mendahulukan teman2nya ketimbang dirinya sendiri. Hahaha...
Aries... hmmm... ga tau, bit of stubborn? still observing. Noo... ahaha, ga ada yang bisa bener2 di observe sebenernya. Sagitarius ya.. ahh, males ngomongin diri sendiri. Ga mau ngalah sebenernya, selalu bikin alasan. Selalu berpegang pada pandangannya sendiri. Tapi ya, insting tu kadang emang harus diikutin.
Gw rasa Sagitarius punya bakat di sini.

Religion in JRock scene

2010-02-12T11:27:00.005+07:00

Hello guys. My friend gave me this "article" just today. Gw pikir dia mau ngasih apa tanya2 imel gw. Ternyata dia mau ngasih liat ini. Gw udah pernah baca artikel ini sebelomnya, pas jaman2nya FAITH baru keluar kali ya... hmm, it's interesting and funny... ahahaha. Jadi gw mau nulis pendapat personal gw.

Well, ga salah juga kalo si Constantine ini ngirain albumnya HYDE (bacanya Haido, bukan Hide, Hide itu gitarisnya XJap) album rohani, mengingat kover dan judul2nya seperti yang dia katakan. Dia ngaku dia tau HYDE, tapi gw rasa cuman sekedar tau2 doang. Orang yang ngefans pasti tau kalo JAPANESE DON'T HAVE ANY RELIGION. So, there's no way HYDE will wrote about one. Itu satu, yang kedua... kita semua tau kalo sejak album 666, HYDE bangun imej satanic yang mulai menjiwai identitasnya sebagai idola. That's called gimmick, bikin lagu yang kesannya satanic itu bagian dari imejnya HYDE, image is really important if you an artist, everyone should agree with me.

HYDE is a humble man, yah walopun gw ga kenal ama dia, tapi toh gw pernah ngefans mati2an. Dia mau ngomong ini itu tentang bunuh diri ato bunuh orang lain, but he's totally normal. He's not Marilyn Manson, walopun gw rasa dia ngefans sama si Manson. Christianity, in this case, also a gimmick. Jaoh sebelom HYDE nulis tentang apa2 about Jesus Christ, di awal tahun 90an, dimana VKei lagi bener2 bertumbuh, banyak ben yang ambil tema2 Kristen buat penampilan atau lirik lagu. Contohnya, tahun 1993 di album Eden, LUNA SEA (another legendary JRock band) udah nulis lagu yang judulnya JESUS, dengan lirik seperti ini

Jesus, don't you love me?

Why was I born on the way to the confrontation at the end of everything? I'm on the edge
I dream the angel waits for the end of time now the bell resounds

This moment you liberated somewhere in my heart, I ask you. Just wait for you
Just wait for you
In this moment you liberate, the true meaning will appear
Just wait for you

JESUS

Before the brilliance plunges into the depths before I have been satisfied too much and decay, I'm on the edge
In this room I am offering a prayer to you alone I search for salvation, and

This moment you liberate somewhere in my heart, I ask you. Just wait for you
Just wait for you
In this moment you liberate something I feel in the middle of my dream
Just wait for you

Hey, Jesus

It continued the pledge, this dream now I am wrapped in the light
Just wait for you
It continued the pledge, this dream now convert it in the brilliance
Just wait for you
Jesus begin the countdown I want to erase all the lies Just wait for you
Just wait for you
Jesus if my sin is extinguished now convert me in the brilliance
Just wait for you

Jesus, don't you love me?
Jesus, don't you love me?
Jesus, don't you love me?
Jesus, don't you love me?
Jesus, don't you love me?
Jesus, don't you love me?

Karena LUNA SEA is my hero, so I should write down the lyrics completely... Ahaha. Agak beda sama HYDE, mereka nulis tentang keraguan dan minta tolong dengan cara yang lebih humane. Gw sempet kagum sama lagu ini karena it sounds so desperate dan minta tolongnya beneran bener2, sampe dia ragu dan ngomong "Jesus, don't you love me?". Dan kebetulan lagi lagu ini yang bikin Om Je, gw selalu ngerasa punya koneksi sama lagu2 yang dibikin sama dia. Om Je adalah contoh sempurna dari artis Jepang yang ngambil Christianity buat bangun imej tertentu. Amplinya dia gambarnya Virgin Mary, waktu jaman VKei, dia juga ambil tema2 ini buat photoshoot. Terus terang gw sangat berharap dia emang beneran nganut Kristen (oh I'm so innocent), tapi nyatanya di sebuah interview dia bilang dia cuma tertarik sama budaya Kristen dan hal2 yang meliputinya. Hahaha... balik ke teori dasar JAPANESE DON'T HAVE ANY RELIGION.

Yak, itulah... artis2 Jepang itu nganggep agama kita "sesuatu yang menarik". Jadi kita anggep apa yang mereka tulis itu sekedar "sesuatu yang menarik" juga. I mean, don't get so serious, dude. Jangan terlalu serius sampe ngomong "OHHH it's a tainted album!!! This album should be burnt in hell!" atau "OOOH... HYDE lagi ngasih pesan tersembunyi di lagunya, dan kenapa dia terasa benar... ahhh I should killed myself". Those kind of things... ahahaha

Read more about Japanese Religion in wiki.
It's a useful article. About syncretism, I believe SUGIZO is a perfect example for it.

UFO #4

2010-01-24T22:57:00.004+07:00

It's another UFO time. Karena gw pengen mengutarakan banyak hal tanpa harus ada penyelesaiannya

Sexy is a complex word. Karena kata dasarnya adalah sex, berarti sexy itu bersifat seks. Mungkin pada awal kata ini digunakan, artinya beneran konkrit, semacam liat belahan dada cewe dan terangsang. Tapi sekarang, gw rasa artinya makin abstrak. Kalo gw liat Hide main gitar dan bilang itu seksi, apakah artinya gw dengan langsung membayangkan tindak seksual? ahaha, jawabannya nggak. Sama kayak gw liat tatapannya Atsushi, I called it sexy but not directly having imagination doing some sexual things with him. So, what happened until we can say something sexy and something not? Human feelings are complicated huh. Waktu liat hal2 yang "seksi" ada satu bagian dari diri kita yang tergelitik, apa hal itu seksual?.
Bowie's old teeth are sexy... I told that all the time
Then I started scratching my tongue to my fangs,
bitting my lips a little while keep looking at Bowie...
I don't even think any certain things... Is that sexual?
It happened under my conciousness... hahaha... interesting, isn't it?

"Sexy" is not belonged to Artistic Nude. If it's "sexy" it's no longer "artistic". Sexy is filthy, art is pure. Beauty.
People should understand this. Artistic nude doesn't make you feel embarassed, it's not suggestive. So why we felt really taboo to talking about this?. Human body is basically piece of art, but people minds are really another thing. The beauty of it is when you can show the art and pull aside other things in one frame. So we should celebrate all artistic nude photographers out there... I really adore them. For other nudity photographers... yeaa nothing wrong with your job.

Hmm masalah lain, tadi abis baca Omona, ada wartawan2 Jepang yang masalahin kenapa Lee Byunghun jadi ninja di GI Joe, sementara dia orang Korea. Hahaha... trus ada yang komen di entrynya "but there are American guys playing French guys and British guys playing Russian guys and... etc.". THIS THIS! hahaha... bener ya? Temen gw juga waktu itu ada yang ga mau nonton Memoirs of Geisha karena yang maen bukan orang Jepang. Well, awalnya gw juga ngerasa gitu, kenapa yang main bukan orang Jepang, tapi pas gw tonton ternyata everything is alright... haha, felemnya bagus banget. Sayang ya kalo ga ditonton gara2 yang maen bukan orang Jepang. Emang Jepang ni ironis, felem Ninja Assassin yang maen juga Rain, tapi terus moso mau nyalahin artis non-Jepang karena artis Jepang ga ada yang pas? (pas di sini artinya bisa macem2 dari kadar terkenalnya, aktingnya ato cocoknya). Daul Kim pernah ngebales netizen yang protes rambutnya di blonde, dia bilang, kenapa gw ga boleh nge-blonde rambut sementara orang bule boleh ngecat rambut item? Kalo yang ini emang bego banget si netizennya... ahaha. Gw sekarang menertawakan hal2 kayak gini, tapi pas bayangin kalo ada felem Sinden yang maen orang Malaysia, gw benci juga kali ya? hmmm

Di dunia ini rasisme itu emang ada, pandangan kalo orang bule lebih tinggi dari orang Asia itu berakar. Bahkan orang Asia-nya mikir kayak gitu. Kalo tiba2 sekarang boiben dan padding menjamur lagi, apa masih capek2 nyari artis2 bule? sedangkan jelas2 ini gara2 Korean Wave. Kayaknya nerima yang mulai itu orang Korea aja susah banget, rasanya pengen nyari sumber yang "lebih masuk akal". Kenapa kalo di luar ngefans sama anime ato JRockers dianggap loser? kenapa kalo orang asia ngefans sama artis bule ga kenapa2? Ah, this is the world we living, people. Somehow we need to wake up.

Flames

2010-01-17T21:40:00.000+07:00

Setelah beberapa lama, akhirnya gw mikir negatif yang lumayan berat sampe ga bisa konsen. Itu tadi sore karena teringat sesuatu dan sesuatu lain yang nampak berhubungan dan sesuatu lain lagi yang kesannya ada hubungannya sehingga semuanya terlihat terhubung. Cara paling pertama buat nyelesein suatu pikiran adalah accepting kenyataan. Kenyataan kalo kemungkinan itu ada. Dan yang kedua ngasih excuse, alasan kenapa itu mungkin, dan dengan alasan itu gw akan cari tindakan buat pikiran gw. Ketiga, kalo masih berantakan isi otaknya... take a break. Liat hal baik yang sebenernya ada kemungkinan buat terjadi juga. It's hard. Tapi sekarang gw udah mulai biasa aja. Well, there are people out there, and there is you here. Do farmers thinking about dead bird in the air instead of his dying crops? I don't think so.

What else... cuma mau ngomong itu. Tadi gw abis baca notepad yang judulnya "curahan hatiku", jayus abis dan sangat menangkap mata, pas gw baca taunya isi draft blog yang ngomongin JRockers yang gw suka... ahahaha. Jamannya BUCK TICK ini, ntar lah kapan2 gw post. Lumayan seru isinya walopun sangat menunjukkan kesukaan gw pada kata2 "seksi". Hahaha... how many girls like me exist in your circle of friends?. I'm one of a kind, don't I. Gw sendiri sering ngerasa mau temenan sama diri gw sendiri. Mau curhat sama diri gw sendiri, mau hidup sama diri gw sendiri. Yeaa.. mungkin itu jalan menuju kedewasaan. Betapa gw ngerasa sangat labil akhir2 ini, bayangin curhat sama diri sendiri apa rasanya, kalo nggak tambah depresi. Yang bener itu curhat sama yang mengerti diri kita, maunya kita, pikiran bawah sadar kita. Ngatur tapi nggak ngejudge, ngasih masukan tapi nggak sombong, ngasih pertimbangan tapi ga bimbang. Bener2 bukan gw... haha, that's why curhat itu sama orang lain, bukan sama diri sendiri.

Pain never really goes away. Fact, we just elevate and get used to it by growing "stronger"

Whuoooh, abis liat stats temen di YM... it's somehow true. But by growing stronger we won't bear any grudge anymore, and keep walking on. Kalo kata saktinya Cia, THAT'S LIFE. Hahaha... tapi yeaa kadang mau kan ngerengek gini gitu, that's life juga. Hahahaha, apa lah ini. Gw bingung, gw masih sampe sekarang mau ngerengek dan ga mau usaha apa2. Hmmm hmmm hmmmmmmmmmmmm.. ah kemaren ada stats FB temen yang intinya menguatkan kata2 ini "Semua indah pada saatnya". Haha, dulu gw suka banget pake kalimat ini, karna emang selalu ada alasan buat yang terjadi sekarang. God has prepared everything for us. Tapi saat gw baca stats FB itu, hal yang pertama terlintas di benak gw "Ngapain lo santai2 begitu, hah? mau gunain kalimat itu buat tameng karna lo nggak mau usaha?!". Ga ngerti kenapa... emang nggak boleh make itu buat tameng kan, dulu pas curhat sama Gino juga gw pernah ngomong kayak gini. Hahaha, gw malu sama Tuhan, kenapa ngomong kayak gitu pas nggak mau usaha apa2... kasian banget. Tapi emang kadang sesuatu baik2 aja kalo gw berpegang sama Dia. Yang sekarang gw rasain itu gw takut, padahal kalo ada Dia ngapain ya gw mempertanyakan banyak hal dan takut. Oh God... why am I like this? I'm such a fool, ain't I?. Gw rasa gw harus nulis diary malem ini.

Ah, satu lagi, gw kayak gini ga cuma sekali, pas gw baca diary gw kemaren2 ternyata gw kayak gini juga pas akhir2 semester 1 dan 2. Tertulis seperti ini "Terus kalo bukan ini yang beneran gw pengenin, trus apa?". Hahaha kata2 macam apa ituuuu... bener banget, lagi ngerasa kayak gitu juga. Well, there's a time when I'll get all things that I want. Fuuuu... ga akan takut dan ragu gw... Semua indah pada saatnya kan? XD XD XD

Terus kalo nggak salah lagi, gw pernah curhat ginian ke kk ichi juga, terus dia bilang "lo dulu waktu SMA juga kayak gini kan, tapi semuanya fine2 aja". Yeaaa.. bener banget die... kata2 penyelesaian yang sangat selesai. Mau leleplz sampe lidah gw kering ke seluruh dunia... lelelele lelelelelelele

7 kali 100MB

2009-12-31T21:22:00.004+07:00

Semua yang ada di dunia ini berhubungan. Betul?
Oke, gw harus mulai darimana ya.. ahahaha

Pertama, gw nonton Paradise Kiss. This anime really captured my heart. Yea, the story and everything... emang kayak diciptain buat gw tonton. Gw juga udah sering sebut2 anime ini di post sebelum2nya kan? You know I love this anime so much. Lalu suatu hari di saat gw masih demam Paradise Kiss, gw ngecek anime ini di wiki. Dan ini quote tentang George yang gw paste langsung dari sana:

"His appearance is loosely based on Brian Slade of Velvet Goldmine"

Jadi gw cek apa itu Velvet Goldmine dan merasa film tentang bisexuality ini oke menarik dan gw bisa melihat kenapa George bisa based on si Brian Slade itu. Tapi cuma gitu aja...

Lanjut dan tiba saatnya gw nonton iklan Hugo Boss yang ada Jonathan Rhys Meyers-nya. Go crazy over him... nonton August Rush bareng temen yang laen, nonton The Tudors again n again, ngimpiin dia, sampe bikin vektor dia dengan mati2an nge-trace matanya yang unbelievably beautiful. Lalu gw kemungkinan baca di wiki lagi tentang dia dan menemukan film Velvet Goldmine lagi di filmographynya. Woow, gw semakin tertarik sama ni felem karena ada dianya dong. Liat2 di yutub oke banget lagi dianya... ahahaha.

Saat itu bukan gw belom perhatian kalo felem ini heavily based on David Bowie dan Iggy Pop. Percayalah saya sangat menyukai acara biografi di tv yang membahas rockstar jaman dulu. Jadi gw udah tau lah siapa si David Bowie ini and yes, he's interesting. SO SO INTERESTING. Gw inget gimana gw nonton acara itu sampe habis, dan waktu kakak gw pulang gw sempet bingung mau ngomong apa biar ga diganti gitu salurannya... Haha, mungkin waktu itu gw cuma simply said "This guy is so cool isn't he?". That time also I first watched his video, Space Oddity and it's ODD. Edit! gw salah, ternyata gw nonton Ashes to Ashes waktu itu. Ini jaoh lebih aneh MVnya kan...

Haaaah.. tapi semua berlalu begitu aja, sampe skarang gw tiba2 menggilai David Bowie. JENG JENG.. terkuaklah kembali si felem Velvet Goldmine ini. Diawali dengan beberapa menit yang lalu gw nonton MVnya Bowie yang Life On Mars? dan langsung inget videonya Maxwell Demon yang waktu itu gw tonton saat demam Jonathan Rhys Meyers. Gw nonton ulang video itu lagi, dan wow sangat David Bowie, memang. Lanjut nonton cuplikan Velvet Goldmine yang lain lagi, wowww... terlalu David Bowie. Liat lagi waktu Brian Slade rambutnya panjang dan nyanyi "Sebastian" dan... WOOOOWWW... Ini David Bowie jaman Hunky Dory... atau apalah, pokoknya dia gayanya pernah kayak gitu. Berambut panjaaang dan sangat perempuan... XD XD XD.

Gw pun menelusuri wiki lagi, baca ulasan Velvet Goldmine (lagi) dan yeaaa.. emang sangat David Bowie. Dan yang lucunya dia ga suka sama script felem ini dan memutuskan untuk tidak mengijinkan lagunya dipakai dalam film ini. Hahahaha. Oke, dengan fakta sebanyak ini gw tau gw harus nonton film ini untuk menuntaskan lingkaran yang belum bertemu ujungnya. Akhirnya saya ambil keputusan berani untuk mendownload 7 part felemnya yang masing2 berbobot 100MB. Hahahaha... GILA. Abis mau gimana? nyari DVDnya pun susah, selain ini bukan felem box office, felemnya udah lama dibuatnya (1998).

Well, mungkin ini felem yang bukan buat semua orang, jadi gw ga berharap banyak. Tapi toh selama browsing tentang felem ini gw menemui banyak orang yang nampak sangat fanatik dengan Velvet Goldmine. Dan lagi ada aktor2 yang terkenal kayak Ewan McGregor sama Christian Bale. Oke, dulu mereka mungkin emang belom sebesar sekarang... tapi lumayan dong... ahahaha. Karir aktor itu emang aneh kalo diliat2.

Pendapat lain... Jonathan Rhys Meyers buat gw cocok banget meranin Brian Slade di sini, karena seperti kita semua sudah ketahui dia cocok banget akting lebai. Hahaha... dan cuplikannya di yutub bener2 ga ngecewain (mata) gw. Muka cantik macam model, gaya flamboyan, akting lebai2 feminin... haaah. FITS PERFECTLY ON HIM pokoknya. So yeah... Doain gw bisa mendonlot semuanya dengan aman damai dan tentram.

Hahaha... it's still funny kalo dipikir... David Bowie... Jonathan Rhys Meyers... gw suka dua2nya... dan awalnya bukan karena suka David Bowie, nonton Velvet Goldmine trus suka juga sama Jonathan Rhys Meyers atau sebaliknya. Dua2nya hal yang ga berhubungan tapi akhirnya ada hubungannya juga. HAHAHAHAHA... seru kan?

Inilah hidup.

Theme. Bowie. Art.

2009-12-26T21:19:00.001+07:00

Oke, critanya blog ganti tema. Tapi headernya masih sama... hahaha sempet ganti template laen, tapi ternyata ga nyaman. Ujungnya ini2 lagi... Lebih teratur bentuknya. Sekarang temanya ga lagi Heaven is Shocking Pink. Not that I'm anti pink right now... just digging new things... hehehe. Tema warna yang gw ambil merah-monokrom. It's about GD? yes. It's about my C510 cellphone? yes. And I have great feeling that next year red will colored this universe. Just wait and see... it's red vs white all the way... ahahaha.

And what about STATION TO STATION?
Hahaha, it should be shame if I got that from someone else right? Yes, true. It's David Bowie. He's really something that steal his album title not embarassing for me. Hahaha...
Eh, wait.. I listen David Bowie? YESSS. YES, PEOPLE I LISTEN TO HIM.

Ceritanya capek gw sok2 pake bahasa Inggris. Iya gw dengerin David Bowie skarang, please people all hail meee! ahahaha. Dari pulang ke Jawa gw udah spik2 mau dengerin dia, karna waktu itu iseng gugling gambar dia. Tapi ga sampe tante koro tiba2 nyuruh gw dengerin dia pas ngomongin ben JRock jadul di status FBnya Badil gw baru mengunduh albumnya Bowie. Kekeke... yang pertama gw donlot Space Oddity, taon 1969 meeen... even Om Je belon lahir. Gw donlot album ini karena gw tau si Bowie emang identik sama imej "alienated", paling deket sama SPACE Oddity dong. Haha... . First impression.. dia ga seaneh yang gw bayangin. Lagunya tipikal lagu lama... serius deh... Tapi dia nulis tentang hal2 yang menarik. So far so good, lalu gw mengunduh album Station to Station, simply because its title. Hahaha.. keren gitu STATION TO STATION.
And this album is really good, I falling in love with Golden Years, it's typical song that I've been looking for todaaaay...!
Dan baru tadi gw dapet albumnya yang Low... oke, it must be his lowest point of his life that he created this kind of album. Hahaha, ternyata album Station to Station yang merupakan album transitional menuju Low itu lebih bagus. Hmmm next apa lagi ya? Album yang Ziggy Stardust must be great ya... besok donlot itu ahhh... aneh ga ya... hihihihi

David Bowie brings statement to music industry. Buat yang cinta JRock dan VKei... dia lah bapak dari semua ben berdandan, okeeeiii... hahahaha. Di balik personanya entah kenapa gw bisa liat dia juga orang yang cheerful. Interesting, huh...! Gw inget Om Gijo skali pernah bilang di blognya; Kalo sampe skarang David Bowie masih nyari gitaris, dia bakal mati2an berusaha dapetin posisi itu. Hahaha... I know he loves Bowie that much. Maybe next time I should find about his other idol, Prince. Hahaha.. that man.... diliat skali juga langsung mikir kalo dia BEDA dari yang lain kan. Haaah... music scene jaman dulu emang menarik ya? Kalo dipikir yang ada sekarang, entah musik, fashion, art semuanya barang recycle. Dari dulu emang recycle semua sih, melihat Psychedelic yang ngambil unsur Noveau, arsitektur Renaissance yang ambil unsur Ancient Greek/Rome, dan lain2nya... Hmmm but whatever it is, it's fun to know the history. So interesting....

So, udah tau asalnya STATION TO STATION darimana kan... dan udah gw bilang juga judulnya emang langsung suka pas pertama liat. Hubungannya sama blog ini? Tagline blog gw dari kemaren adalah "Endless way to nothing", cocok dong sama Station to Station... dan lagi, life is just... station to station. Hahaha..

NB: I'm just an ordinary poser, if I wrote something wrong about Bowie or art just correct me :D

That kind of stuff

2009-12-08T22:33:00.002+07:00

Suddenly it felt really stupid katanya. Stop doing that katanya.

When thing felt really stupid, we should stop doing it, right?

But how if that thing is something that unfinished? even it feels so damn stupid, there's a sense that we should keep doing it till we find the end.

Aduh si Obol ngomonginnya beginian mulu yak. Haaah haaah haduuuh kenapa hidup gw surammm?

Kalo si Vera nggak ngungkit2 ini gw mungkin ga akan sadar kalo gw sering banget ngeluh. Oh damn. Hahaha, cmon, kalo ga dikeluhin kayak gitu harus dengan cara apa lagi gw meringankan beban di pundak gw (again, another drama). Pernah kan gw tulis "Do I really have a problem or I just overthinking it?"

Tadi abis ngomong cuek-mencueki bareng Hencoi dan Vera dan Cia. Gw sebenernya termasuk orang yang kayak Vera, gw ga suka kalo gw ngomong trus "dicuekin", apa pun alasannya, maksudnya di sini gw bakal terus mikirin kenapa dia kayak gitu, apa hal yang dia pikirkan tentang gw sampe dia kayak gitu ke gw. Tapi si Hencoi bisa dengan santainya ngomong "itu urusan dia". It's cool. Inget deh kata2nya meme, harusnya umur segini udah bisa standing on our feet, ga mikirin orang lain lagi. Hahaha.. but let's take a mirror. I'm still a person who so aware about my surroundings, it's suffocating to see many people. It feels like their watching at me. Padahal mah nggak juga. Apa dia mikir A ke gw? apa dia mikir B ke gw?. Gw orangnya gampang sadar kalo gw ngelakuin hal yang orang ga suka. But sometimes I can't help it and did it twice or more... Kalo udah more ya brarti emang nature-nya gw ya?

Gw baru akhir2 ini sadar I'm bad at maintaining relationship with people. Ada yang bilang gw cuek, ya at some points bener. That's why temen gw ga pernah curhat sama gw. Alhasil pas ngumpul bareng gw ga ngerti tiba2 si A udah ada aja masalah sama si B, atau si A putus ama cwonya, trus gini trus gitu. It feels like "Hey people, where am I when y'all busy talking about your life?". Mungkin bener katanya kakak Ichi atau Cia, tentang hal memberikan yang terbaik buat orang lain. Sementara selama ini gw pegang prinsip ada sebab ada akibat. Tapi gw bukan orang sebaik itu, gw adalah orang yang dengan bangganya naik perahu duluan dan ga peduli apakah orang lain tenggelam. That kind of stuff...

HAH...! gw critanya ga mau ngeluh lagi. I'll try my best. And live the fullest... It's my life after all...

There's still a dream to catch on. Stay focus.

Hey, me

2009-12-03T23:38:00.001+07:00

Well today's typo is not go so well and CB got 65, my UTS is not amazing...
But this song really taught me something

Do you remember as a girl,
You had a picture of the world
And you'd think about the great things you would find?
The thing is 9 to 5
And a struggle to survive
Ain't exactly what you had in mind.
But that's the beauty of life,
It takes a while to find,
And you can't have things your own way all the time

Hey, you know you're gonna live
To find another day,
It's just today things ain't so good.

Get yourself back again,
You've got so much love
That you can't afford to lose

Goodbye Heartbreak
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now
So long heartache
Don't look for me
'Cause I don't need you now

Yes I'm still a little girl deep down inside. Yes I can't have things my own way all the time...
But that's the beauty of life... ahaha

I will grow more mature from now on, not grieving or blaming.
It's just today things ain't so good.

Bollipop

2009-11-26T00:39:00.001+07:00

SWEETS YOU'VE BEEN LOOKING FOR

IS RIGHT HERE HERE HERE

Hhhh... my typo assignment. Lagi2 ga total, tapi udah males... hhh akhir2 ini tugas gw ga wow...

Mau bikin yang wow nih, tapi males... kayaknya gw butuh liburan.

Apa pun yang menyangkut rutinitas itu mematikan kreatifitas... is it is it is it... ???

WANNA BREAK FREE!!

Where my place...

Where my truth...

Where my dreams... hoo wooo wooo woo

At the edge of that sky,

what is waiting?

Ano sora no hate ni nani ga matteiru no darou?

Nakushita rhythm aosugiru umi ga toketa...

AH OM JE!

Let's go somewhere beyond the sky

Leave this reality

I began to hate it again.

Ahh, coman lagi dapet lo, Bol.. santeee...

Hahahaha, anjing, bentar lagi gila gw

Otakbolong's Library

2009-11-23T21:10:00.004+07:00

OOOOHHHH YURERU MIRAAAGE...

Hahaha.... gw sudah membikin Lastfm karna sepertinya menarik... mari kita lihat peringkat artis tertanggal hari ini...

Hebat ya LArc en Ciel itu... moso dia nomer satu, ngalahin LS dan om om LS...

Gw bilang diri gw SLAVE, tapi apaaa.. nomer satunya LArc? mana 1000 sendiri, susah lah dikejar sama yang lain. Haaah! bukti tu ya, betapa LArc hebat bener lagunya buat gw... hahaha....

Nomer duanya LUNA SEA, yah wajar deh, om Je, wajar juga, om Ino, wajar juga... tiba2... JENG JEEENG

Nomer limanya The Pony... ngalahin DEAD END? ngalahin BUCK TICK? Hebat banget lo, The Pony... dahsyoooot banget pesonanya... GD juga dahsyot nih... tiba2 menelusup dia.. Suju ga ada dong, 2PM ga ada, Big Bang ga ada... ahahaha

Yang ada GD sama The Pony... Mengezudkan...

Iya udah, cuman mau ngomongin itu gw... nyeh nyeh nyeh

Ahhh tapi mau manjang2in ah...

Apa dong ya... Ngemeng2in lagu2 di WMP gw... akhir2 ini emang hidup gw dipenuhi lagu2 berbahasa Korea... haha... setiap ada lagu om om yang keputer langsung gw skip, maunya dengerin GD doang... hahaha. Kalo lagi fresh2nya emang gitu tu. Tapi kemaren2 gw bikin playlist baru judulnya Melancholia... yah menyambeot musim hujan, perlu lah playlist semacam itu. Sudah saya jelaskan kemaren2 kalo saya memang menikmati masa2 lebai saya dikala labil.

Oke lalu, tadi ada lagunya om Je yang Mirage... saat lagi Koreanism, kalo ada ni lagu pasti gw skip.. Tapi kalo lagi saatnya lebai aja... dinyanyiin ampe teriak2... hahaha... liriknya asik soalnya

IS IT SHALLOW MY DREAM, IS IT SHALLOW MY DEAR DREAM

KONO KAWAKI O AAAH IYASHITEKUREEEEE....

I think the lyric is greatly bodep too... With my poor pooorrrr Japanese, I tried to translate it and post this to a forum. Searching for J's translation is effing hard, you know... So, this song might be talking about this

I embrace my ripped hope
Under this sky, my way become dark
Ah... I keep believing
When the night opened
That door opened and the light come in

Ah, I still search for my only one,
in hurt past days
can I tell you more? If only that voice could reach to your place

I've just wanna touch you now...

Is it shallow my dream? Is it shallow my dearing dream?
In this thirst, I want to tell you...

Ah, My wish keep flowing, seeing waving distant dream
Slowly I feel my trembling heartbeat vanish
If only this hope could reach to your place

I've just wanna let you know

Is it shallow my dream? Is it shallow my dearing dream?
In this thirst, I want to tell you...

If it still cannot reach you, is it okay if I wanna be like this forever, and being erased?
Erase me now

In a place where your loud screaming voice vanished

I'm in a clueless night
I'm in a clueless night
Is it shallow my dream? Is it shallow my dearing dream?
In this thirst, I want to tell you now...

In the end of path that I walked on,
Shivering mirage.

Don't believe my translation so much tough, there could be a massive mistake... ahahaha

Golden Apple

2009-11-10T14:22:00.012+07:00

Once upon a time, in a cyberpunk village that all things are explosive, lived a cute little apple seller called Jiyong. She's not naturally pretty, but there's something about her that attract many people. Her sweet looks? innocent smile? or bright blond hair? All of them. Everything about Jiyongie is adorable.

So that lived a poor guy called Seungri. His confidence is above the roof, not many poor guy like him. He had a job at coal mining and earn living from that. It's not much, but at least can bought some apples from Jiyong. Yeah, so like what you might expect, Seungri falling in love with this cute apple seller. Falling in love? Seungri himself couldn't decide. But that feeling about seeing Jiyong everyday just to buy apples--- isn't that what people called falling in love?. Seungri's confidence is falling apart in front of Jiyong. That's another evidence of falling in love, he thought.

Just like anouther evening, Seungri take a step to dark alley where a bright cute girl standing, selling apple with her fine voice.
" Jiyong-ah, are there any apples left?", Seungri said.
" Yes, of course! I kept these apples for you, oppa!"
Jiyong always said that with her adorable smile, an innocent looks that would definitely melt every single guy on earth. Seungri really weak in things like this, so with awkward smile he took couple coins from his pocket.
" Ah oppa... these too much"
" It's okay... just keep the changes"
" Ooh, oppa... you're so kind!"
Having these words from Jiyong is like everything for Seungri. He cannot ask for more. So, he left and see Jiyong from distance. This kind of conversation--- this kind of seller-buyer conversation--- is sadly the only conversation that Seungri had with Jiyong.

The other buyer then appeared as Seungri eyes sticked on Jiyong while he leaves. That cool guy is TOP. Who doesn't know about this hyung? He's a famous criminal in this area. Being so tough he is, he also loves cute creature like Jiyong. Seungri never envy TOP's good look, but basically he hates all male-buyers that seems love Jiyong like he does.

Another guy that close to Jiyong is no other than Taeyang. Taeyang is also a top fighters in this area, we can see from his eyes that actually he felt certain rivalry with TOP. But that's still okay since both of them came from the same area. Taeyang is all girls wanted. Besides his gorgeus body, this guy also good with sweet talks and has a beautiful voice. Badass-look guy that romantic in the other side, we know why Jiyong seems falling in his arms. If this reason not convicing yet, let's say that Taeyang and Jiyong are childhood friends... Hahaha, Seungri really hates this fact.

One day, like any other usual day... Seungri came towards Jiyong to buy apple. But there's TOP with his black coat standing before. He had a really fun conversation with Jiyong. Aah, Seungri felt like he wants to explode. Why looking at this scene feels so hurt?, Seungri thinks. It's usually him that came first for evening time, but why now TOP is here?

" Ya! what you looking at?! Do you have problem with me, kid?!", TOP yelled at Seungri.
" Ah, nothing, hyungnim..."
TOP sees Seungri awhile and talk to Jiyong again, and then he left.
" Today's apples are so pretty... It's sparkling sparkling, don't you want to buy them, oppa?"
" You love apples that much, don't you, Jiyongie...?"
It seems like his brain drained away, so he said silly things like that.
" Yeah, oppa know me! I really love apple, that's why I sold them"
Really an unexpected response from Jiyong.

So happy about this, Seungri keeps smiling on his way back home but that smile disappeared when he remember about TOP. Ah, this life is full with choices. Why he should wasting his time on thinking about this?

As Seungri walks through darkening alleys, he decided to organize his mind, sitting on a wooden, ah since this is a cyberpunk village--- a steel made bench in a park. Suddenly from out of nowhere, a trot song echoes and it come closer and closer...

Look at me, gwisoon gwisoon
Look at me, gwisoon gwisoon, it said.

" Yaaa! what a young guy like you sadden about?"
Seungri shocked when an ahjumma with cheesy-sparkling outfit showed up and asked him that question.
" I... I... who are you?", Seungri asked her back.
" O ho ho ho, I'm Daesung the greatest idol ever, didn't you recognize me?"
Seungri could only shake his head.
" Okay, I'm atually a witch that granted people wishes"
" But, ahjumma..."
" Nah! you can called me noona, young man. I knew you're in love, don't you?. I have something good for you", she winked to Seungri.
" What's that?", suddenly Seungri got interested.
" O ho ho ho, the girl you loved loves apple so much, huh. This is an golden apple seed that can make her falling for you"
" That kind of thing exists?"
" Yeah, but this seed should receive special treatment in order to grow"
So Daesung ahjumma, eh, I meah Daesung noona told Seungri what to do. It's a long long list to make that seed grow, seriously. Seungri has second thought about it.
" For growing that seed I must sacrifice that much time?. I can't even see Jiyong for couple days..."
" Love needs sacrifice, young man"
" But I..."
" Remember, this seed can grows a golden apple that make her yours.... Compared to growing your heading-to-nothing feelings, this seed is more useful"
While Seungri thinking, Daesung gives him that seed right away, it almost loke force him to do so.
" Grow that seed well, young man. I hope the best for you"
Daesung smiles happily and then disappeared with Look at me Gwisoon song echoing.

>>>to be continued

The Pony

2009-10-18T19:41:00.001+07:00

Hi guys. Today I will write fully in English. I wanna feel how write blog in a language that need to be thought first, whether its grammar or equality in Indonesian. See, I used "equality", is that work? XD. I will type fast, I won't really care about grammar and such... weee'

Ok, one reason I want to write in English is The Pony. You know who The Pony is? They are a Korean indie band. First I know about them is from omona, you know, it was like "Oooh Korean indie band! a rare stuff!". I before listened to Hot Potato and like their single Rain Tears a lot. So, it must be something about other indie bands. So I watched their Disturbance MV on youtube, and like what said in Omona, they're really a four scarily charming guys. DEAD.

I added their MS listened to couple songs and falling in love with their music, and yes I directly falling in love with the bassist. Haha, but it just like that and not continue to crazy fangirling things. I even don't know their names. But Disturbance really a good song. I download the MV and watch it several times. At that time maybe I still attached with those boybands stuff, when Jaebum still in 2PM and such. So time passes by... couple days ago I visited their MS again, and somewhat watched their 1st album teaser...

Then, it all changed from that point on. I got hooked with their sounds and looks and attitude and all. GAHHH. I came back to omona and read their interview, remember their names and such. It such a crazy moment. That "voila" things came up right away, I listened their songs on MS again and again and again. Ah, maybe this is what "ALBUM TEASER" worked for. Mwahaha...

Finally I got their full album and so so happy with that. I listened the whole album continuously... it's a rare thing for me. There were just couple albums that enjoyable to listened from beginning to the end, yes, without skipping any of the songs. So, it's magical to know The Pony. I never liked this kind of music, that now made me feel that my ears actually available for any kind of music.

The beauty of music I listened a lot is in their rarity. I love that. Not many people fall in love with LUNA SEA or DEAD END like I do, so do with The Pony. Firstly I thought The Pony is that-so-special. If we compared to Korean mainstream music, yes they are. But actually there are a lot indie bands sound like them. For now, The Pony is enough, digging about them is quite tricky, I don't know about the other bands.

And about their bassist, SeungBo, I go crazy about him. Ah... I don't know why, there's something about him... attitude? style?. I don't know...hahaha... But when I asked whether I love The Pony because of their looks... I said "of course NOT". Love a band just because their looks is TOTAL NONSENSE for me. Come on, they're musician not model or actor...

Couple things to watch or download:
Listened their songs at Myspace
Their first album teaser at Youtube
Their live cover "Boys Don't Cry"
And, my fave song "Shoot"

Yureru Mirage

2009-09-27T09:35:00.001+07:00

I wanna take SeulOng back home, introduced him to my parents. Mwahahaha... itu lah kata2 yang terlintas di kepala gw waktu liat poto2nya 2AM di Men's Health. Sounds bit crazy, coz I dunno why I said that in my mind.

Oke, harusnya pertama kali kalimat yang gw tulis di entri ini bukan itu. Seminggu ke belakang gw mudik ke Jawa. Gw ngenet dari hape selalu. Kenapa? Because nothing I can do there. It's been a very very nothing journey. Hahaahaha... Ga biasanya loh kayak gitu, biasanya gw mudik exciting banget, tapi dua tahun terakhir ini emang agak datar ya. WTF banget pokoknya. Gw dapet pelajaran kalo suatu hal sering2 dilakuin emang ga bakal menarik lagi, tapi come on! setahun sekali kan ga sering ya? XD XD XD

Hmmm.. need something different. Pagi waktu gw off ke Jawa gw liat jalan tol waktu sunrise lagi, liat industrial area... warna langitnya pink gitu.. It should be a wonderful memory ya, tapi nyatanya biasa aja tuh. Sunrisenya ga sebagus tahun2 yang lalu, atau at least begitu menurut ingatan gw. Ingatan kan ga nyata, kita bisa ngemodifikasi ingatan kita, secara otomatis, dan nganggep hal itu nyata dan pernah kejadian beneran.

Kayak misalnya kemaren gw liat industrial area dengan langit warna pink, terus gw crita ke temen2 gw kalo pagi itu indah banget pemandangannya, gw akan mulai memodifikasi siluet industrial area plus langit pink itu dengan pemandangan industri yang massive, asepnya bertiup, belang2 merah cerobongnya keliatan jelas, langitnya semburat jingga dengan awan yang mengintip di kejauhan, masih tersisa kabut sedikit, di pinggirnya rumput2 hijau, dsb. Kalo udah mulai ngubah ingatan otomatis gitu, dan crita indahnya pagi gw ulang2 ke temen gw terus menerus, lama2 gw bakal nganggep itu nyata.

That's why gw sering keinget suatu scene yang gw suka, tapi pas gw inget kapan dan dimana kejadiannya gw ga inget apa2. Is it okay like that, then? Inget sesuatu yang indah tapi ga beneran kejadian. Uuh, yureru mirage... haha, pas banget lagi dengerin lagu ini. Mirage ya... hmmm... do Rika felt the same when she met Ryuu then he just vanished like that? But Rika live in with those beautiful memories and keep moving on. Even tough the most beautiful thing she'd ever know could be only a mirage, but she lives with it, and go on chasing her dreams.

Apa deh... hmmm.. thinking too much lately. Nyeehehe.. ngomongin scene di ingatan gw yang gw suka... ada satu dimana gw lagi naek mobil (lagi di jalan of course), langitnya mendung banget... di kiri ada semacam parit, pinggirnya ilalang2 yang ga terlalu hijau... trus ada pancang beton, entah jembatan belom jadi atau apa... tapi kayaknya juga itu jembatan yang udan jadi deh... mobilnya padet, tapi masih bisa jalan... wangi udaranya lembab gitu udah mau hujan... paritnya ada aernya nggenang2 dikit...
Itu dimana ya? lagi macet kah? lagi perjalanan pulang abis mudik juga kah? Hari2 mendung yang gw suka, jembatan beton yang menyilang, ilalang, jalan tol... Ah, ni beneran apa cuma modifikasi ya... Hoahaha.

Someday make it real lah. Gw foto... gw cetak, gw tulis. Apa pun yang bikin semua ingatan gw jadi nyata.

Imitation

2009-09-16T22:23:00.000+07:00

KENAPA... KENAPA...
KENAPAAAA!!!
Nope, ini bukan entri spin-offnya Cia... ahahaha

Gw obsessed banget ya sama industrial area. Pas di FB ada orang yang statsnya nyinggung tentang pabrik dikit aja, gw langsung komentar. Dulu... ada Tria yang ke pabrik Holcim, skarang ada Bayu-nya Amakusa yang ke Indocement. Ahhhh... ahhh!!!

Kenapa yang ke pabrik bukan orang2 yang obsessed sama pabrik kayak gw?. Kenapa gw yang obsessed sama pabrik malah ga ke pabrik?. Bingung kan, kesannya ga adil gitu... Dunia ini emang kayak gini ya.

Ahh... begitulah hidup. Rumput tetangga memang sering terlihat lebih hijau. Pas dicabutin rumputnya, ditanem di halaman kita kok rasanya biasa aja ya. Trus ntar mule liat... eh, kok pohon mangga tetangga gw lebih banyak buahnya? Pas dipetik, eh ternyata manisan buah mangga kita. Hehehe... yah, Tuhan emang udah nyiapin halaman rumah buat masing2 orang. Yang bisa ngebagusin halaman rumahnya ya cuma si pemilik rumah aja toh...

Bayu bilang di dalem pabrik Indocemen kayak Gotham City. Katanya keren banget. Oh God, is there any way I can go inside an industry? Butuh ijin khusus kalo mau masuk ke dalem. Gw inget pernah ngefave foto pabrik anak DA. Dia sampe dikejar sama officernya situ gara2 manjat pager... sebenernya fotonya biasa aja sih... hahaha. Tapi gw fave karna usahanya buat moto pabrik itu.
Walopun dia juga bukan orang yang obsessed sama industrial kayak gw... tapi gw seneng aja ada orang yang usaha buat industrial area ampe kayak gitu. Hahaha... ah, kapan ya gw bakal usaha kayak dia.

Bisa ga ya?
Pertanyaan itu yang muncul di benak gw akhir2 ini. BISA GA YA?. Waktu lo ilang keyakinan, rasanya kosong banget ya, mau terjun ke jurang kan. Mau diakhiri tapi sedih, mau dilanjutin tapi sakit. Jalan menuju masa depan yang berkilauan emang penuh kerikil, kawan!
Jay ga jadi idola dalam satu malam, dia jadi idola dengan tangis airmata dan lelah peluh memeluh.

Capek ya jadi gw. Capek ya jadi orang Sagitarius. Karna... coba lah baca2 pasti Sagitarius dibilangnya suka berfilosofi melulu dimana2. Kadang seru, kadang capek.
Emo ya entrinya... hahaha
Emo is another word for puberty... is it so? Gw masih remaja ya... yah, let's see ntar kalo udah umur 25 gw masih kek gini apa nggak. OOOHhhh... umur 25 itu cuma 5 tahun lagi. Umurnya Rika pas ngalamin semuanya. Rikaaaa.. Rikaaa.. why you seems walking away from me... you far far away you...

Gw lagi suka banget sama foto gw yang ini. HAHAHAHAHAHA... sungguh2 imitasi. Tapi suka... kapan ya bisa sepositif ini... PASTI SENENG.

UFO ep.3

2009-09-09T14:19:00.001+07:00

UFO, Unimportant Facts and Opinions... dulu di FS sering banget gw ngentri ginian, tapi di sini belom pernah ya?

# Ada di FB komen status gini "seperti melihat selembar kertas yang ada coretan hitam di tengah... apakah kita sibuk melihat si titik hitam yang cuman 1% ketimbang melihat 99% bagian putih bersih di sklilingnya?? =)". Iya lah sibuk, orang titiknya item, kecuali titiknya putih, ga bakal kliatan... It's human nature... kalo udah capek ngapus tu titik tapi ga ilang2, baru deh liat ke sisi2 lainnya.. gitu kan?

#Gw suka bingung bales komen orang. Saking bingungnya kadanng suka gw tinggalin gitu aja. There's a burden. Don't know what.

#JAY PASTI BALIK. PASTI KAAAN!!! huhuhu. Gw tadi abis nonton making the artist-nya Jay... gw suka banget sama kata2nya dia tentang dance.. "To get away from the real world... to forget... and to remember". It feels so romantic ya. My typical fave quote. Hahaha

#Donghae mukanya mulai inhuman. Cakepnya mulai inhuman! sori karna selalu curiga, tapi... ah, hidungnya brubah lagi ya!!! Haaah!!!. Oplas bikin lo mati, Donghae.. percaya deh. Gw ga pernah bayangin gimana ya rasanya memejamkan mata di meja operasi, pas melek, liat cermin, muka lo berubah. Serem ya.

#Gw baru tau caranya nge-follow orang... ternyata gampang banget.

#Tiba tiba pengen SMA lagi... why why why...
Semester tiga udah jalan, rasanya sama aja pas kayak liburan, tapi ini ada acara dengerin dosen spik2 di depan. Auranya kok beda banget sama semester satu dan dua. Yang ini kayaknya boring berat. Apa gara2 plajaran awal2nya emang sejarah sama CB dkk gitu ya? Besok typo sih... apa bakal agak ga ngebosenin? I don't know... there's something wrong with this 3rd semester. Things don't feel like they're used to be. And one more thing. The parting groups of our class is growing bigger... and bigger... and B I G G E R. Feel the air, guys... huuuuh... haaaah... huuuuh haaaaah...
This class is disfunctional

#Vera bikin poster dengan warna yang gw banget. Hahaha.. this funny feelings... again. My syndrome usually deadly, but I don't know, this time might be better.

#Let's Not is my motto? I laughed till dead when I did that game. Some parts of me tell it's so true. Then the other part said, No you're not like that. My feelings and thoughts must be the most complex one in this whole world.

#Hari ini Rabu, jadwal liburnya anak PBU. Rasanya kayak ngulang sebulan yang lalu saat masih liburan, bangun siang, ngenet, tidur... hmm... what a beautiful world.

#Abis masuk seminggu ini, trus senen, slasa depan, eh rabunya libur lagi. Mudik... ah, mana ya excitementnya, kok ga sekenceng kemaren?

#Akhir2 ini susah nangis... hahahaha... bagus apa nggak ya... gw diem2 suka romantisme dalam diri gw soalnya.

#Anis bilang lukisan romanticism tu lope2... hahaha, trus gw bilang lukisan yang bunuh2an lebai2an itu romanticism... Dia jawab "apa romantisnya coba". Pengen jelasin romantis tu ga harus cinta2an.. tapi males.

For fun

2009-09-05T14:11:00.001+07:00

A network cable is unplugged.
This annoying text annoyed me all the time.
Beneran butuh modem baru...

Gw abis aja buka2 note FB gw gara2 iseng... pas baca entri ini, rasanya kangen2 lucu ya...
Haha, si ebi sama cia masih gitu komennya, baru buka di tempat adit... masih mayan akrab sama anak2 cielers, masih all about om Je sama LS, masih belom sekelas sama Vera... udah lama deh...
Fave gw tu pertanyaan nomer 4 tentang first impression. Gw paling suka sama jawabannya Gino...
FREEDOM. Bahkan lebih keren dari jawaban rai "cool"... . Sementara mayoritas jawaban laen bilang gw jutek atau galak. Is it so? Gw ga galak ato jutek guys, gw cuma nervous....
Lalu di tengah temen2 gw yang ngisi note itu, ada si kakak ichi.

Aah... udah lama juga ga ngomong2 sama dia, beneran apa kabar deh tu anak. Akhirnya gw kunjungi FBnya... ah, isinya juga orang2 yang ga gw kenal... Gw kunjungi pula blognya, ah... isinya banyak yang ga gw ngerti. Dikomen pun ga bisa, jadi ya sudahlah... Saya tulis saja di sini... .
Si kakak ichi ini tulisannya emang menarik, jadi gw baca entri2nya ke belakang, eh kebetulan banget ada entri yang ngomongin frenship. Kok kayaknya pas banget sama alasan tadi gw nge-view FBnya.
Dia ngomongin best friend, dulu ada si A dan si B yang dianggep dia sebagai besties, tapi seiring berjalannya waktu lama2 hubungan itu menjauh juga. It's true isn't it? Semuanya begitu kan...
Dulu gw sama si kakak ichi sering maen bareng ke acara jepang, ngomongin ini itu, sampe skarang akhirnya beneran lose contact. Dari dulu gw emang ga ngerti best friend kayak gimana, tapi kalo lo punya, it must be great.
Gw bukannya ga percaya best friend itu ada, tapi ga ngerti yang kayak apa yang best friend. Toh temen gw ada yang punya bestie dari kecil, masih temenan sama dia sampe skarang, dia bahkan bilang bestie-nya udah kayak kembarannya. See... ada juga yang kayak gitu. Dan rasanya kayaknya seneng ya.

Sementara ada orang kayak gitu, ada gw yang kerjanya ragu2 dan berprasangka. Skali gw temenan deket sama orang, gw ga pernah mikir buat percaya 100% ke dia, ada terus buat dia, dan lain lain. Slalu ada pikiran "ah, this won't lasts forever". Perasaan kayak gini bagus atau nggak? soalnya gw udah liat gimana temen2 emang terus berubah seiring waktu.... Dan juga ada betrayal, benci, dan hal lain yang kayaknya ga bisa lo omongin karna dia temen lo. Ada sih orang2 yang lebih suka terus terang, tapi gw pribadi lebih nerima yang cuek, toh itu hidup dia, dan ini hidup gw.

Kakak ichi sendiri bilang skali dia nganggep A atau B sebagai besties-nya, dia bakal ngelakuin apa pun buat nolong mereka. It's a great thing... Tapi terus dia lanjut lagi bilang, gimana kalo cuma dia yang nganggep si A dan B bestiesnya, sementara A dan B nggak nganggep begitu. Terus gw mikir... apa gw pernah ya ada di sisi si A dan B ini... . Ah bingung.

Kalo punya temen yang nganggep best friend kayak kakak ichi gitu sebenernya precious ya. Selama ini gw pernah ketemu yang kayak gitu ga ya? Kalo iya apa gw pernah nyia-nyia-in mereka ya?

What friends are for? For fun.
What was I for my friends? For fun.

I will give what other person gave to me. Gitu aja sih intinya...
Love you, guys...

Wajahmu mengalihkan duniaku?

2009-08-31T23:32:00.001+07:00

There are so much things going on my head right now. The most annoying thing is...
IT'S FRIGHTENING HOW PEOPLE CAN SEE YOUR PAGES. I mean, all pages in all websites where your accounts in it.
Well, selama ini gw ngerasa nulis di blog ini lumayan aman. Maksudnya kalo gw tiba2 nulis ini itu walopun dengan kata2 yang ga dimengerti tapi pasti bisa *at least* membuat prasangka pada pihak yang dimaksud, pihak tersebut tidak akan membacanya. Yah... paling2 yang baca Cia, Feriin... udah? XD XD XD
Tapi tadi baru aja gw berpikir ulang... apa bener kayak gitu? Slama ini gw sering mampir page FB orang trus ngeklik2in web yang mereka taro di-profile. Bukan gara2 iseng doang, tapi dengan pikiran... "Ada apa ya dengan hidupnya?". Gw rasa gw punya bakat alami buat stalking, sama kayak gw habis2an nyari gambar HQ idola2 gw. Abis tau ini itu, gw ga bakalan juga sih crita ama temen2 gw... "Eh tau gaa, si anu ternyata itu loh sama si ini". Gw punya kepuasan aja tau tentang hidup orang yang belom gw tau. Hahaha... "ooo... ternyata dia gini tho".
That's it. Kata "kepuasan" emang bikin gw kayak maniak. Hahaha... but it's not that bad! XD XD XD

Nah, gw aja sering liat2 page orang random gitu... apa ada orang2 yang ngelakuin hal yang sama ke gw?. Gw kmaren2 ngerasa "Aaah.. sapa sih yang minat liat2 page gw". Tapi trus gw baca2 archive message sana sini... Inget2 kejadian2... trus sampe pada kesimpulan "Ih gile.. tau dari mana ni orang... padahal gw ga pernah ngomongin hal ini ke dia". AHA HA HA!!! Now it's possible those people randomly checking my page. Haaah... ini tu kayak ngebayangin tiba2 Dosen A (skarang disamarin) baca entry gw yang ngomongin ketemu dia di indomaret trus gw terpana. Yaaa... oke mungkin dia ga bakal crita ke dosen2 lain kalo ada mahasiswi bernama Arum Padma berNIM 1200960511 yang ngefans sama dia. Tapi tau kalo dia tau fakta itu aja kayaknya serem ya? SEREM KAN! serem ga sih???

Globalisasi ya emang, dunia bisa liat macam2 hal... hahaha
Ah iya, mungkin di situ pelajarannya. Jangan suka ngepos yang aneh2 kalo ga mau dunia tau. Kukukukuku.

The other things going on in my head is...
Kmaren2 gw ngepos videonya Dirty Eyed Girls di forum... Gw nyangka semua orang bakal ketawa sambil terjun dari lantai 8 kayak yang gw sama Amel lakuin. Tapi ternyata nggak. Ada seorang temen gw yang bilang kalo cowok2 macam gitu bisa ditemuin di Glodok.
Pikiran pertama: Bah! Glodok mah Cina, ini Korea!
Pikiran kedua: Ooh... dia liat JoKwon sama Wooyoung kali
Pikiran ketiga: Hahaha... dulu gw pas liat mereka juga first impression gw "ga cakep2 ya"
Akhirnya gw bales postingan temen gw itu sambil ada ketawa2nya juga, walopun ada ga terimanya juga...

TAPIIII... mereka nggak ngakak kayak gw sama amel. Aneh ya...
Apa karna gw udah suka ya jadi itu kocak bener... nggak ada geli2nya lagi... mwahahaha...
Tu kaaan... gw sekarang gila banget ama 2PM. KARMA BENAR BENAR EKSIS. Tapi yaaah... it's being an outcast lagi. Sama kayak ngefans sama LS, orang liat LS pertamanya pasti "apaan sih". Iya vokalisnya ga secakep HYDE, tapi suaranya jaoh di atas dia. Iya bassistnya ga cakep, tapi attitudenya yang bikin dia jadi tipe cwo perfect gw sampe skarang. Iya gitarisnya lebai, but it's what called rockstar, shit. And he makes music, not just a random noise. Being an outcast is depressing? not really.. I actually... hmmm kinda like it. Yah uknow yunho, gw punya sindrom harus beda. Walopun ga harus juga deh.... @___@

Ah, ya itu tadi. Dunia ini emang ngejudge book from its cover ya. Oke di-judge boleh, tapi kalo dinilai jangan. Baca dulu bukunya sampe abis. Kayak anak 2PM itu... diliat skali pasti ngejudge.. "hah! idol macam apa!!!". Tapi skarang setelah nontonin acara mereka, baca2 interview... gw tergila2... Hahaha.... Liat senyumnya Jay rasanya meleleh dooong... ah...
Skarang setelah baca "buku"nya sampe abis, gw bisa ngasih 2PM 10 points out of 10!. It should work in other field juga ya. Gw pengen semua orang kayak gitu. Gw juga selalu berusaha kayak gitu.
Walopun ga slalu kayak gitu toh gw udah usaha... XD XD XD. Tapi sindrom macam ini kadang jadi dilema juga buat gw.. misalnya... hmmm...
Walopun gw udah tau Donghae sering kliatan bego (he's too pure... T__T), dan gw sebel ngeliat itu, tapi kenapa kalo liat fotonya, masih aja gw ngomong "ih lucu" sambil ngeklik kanan, Save As. Abis itu masih senyum2 lagi.. gw memaafkan kebegoannya karna wajah tampannya. Hhh... trus abis itu gw sebel sendiri... ngerasa
KNAPA GW DANGKAL BANGET SIH.... Suka sama orang ga harusnya kayak gini... Eh, kalo ini kan cuma ngefans ya... Yah, tapi kalo suka juga ga kayak gitu kan harusnya?

Hahaha.. begitulah... penting banget ya dilema gw...
Kalo mukanya kayak Jonathan Rhys Meyers gitu gimana ya... wajahnya mengalihkan dunia gitu soalnya tu orang. Cwe yang suka sama dia dan punya dilema kayak gw pasti stress. Setiap dia ngelakuin hal yang ga lo suka, pas lo liat mukanya langsung "Hh... ok, it's alright"...
Pasti berat banget idupnya... WAHAHAHAHAHA

Ah, cuma...

2009-08-30T23:35:00.003+07:00

Happy thoughts where are you going my deaaar~~~
Biasanya gw kalo nulis ga pernah sepotong2, tapi rasanya kalo skarang pengennya cuma nulis itu doang. Hehehe

Ah, semester tiga sebentar lagi... gw udah mulai membayangkan pemandangan indomaret, the box yang penuh tiap pagi, pisang ijo, takoyaki, jatim... gang apa tu yang sebelahnya warung padang.. haha... dah setahun gw lewatin, tetep ga tau namanya...
Yah pemandangan yang bakal terus gw liat sampe 3 tahun ke depan. Rutinitas tu ga ada yang asik. Yang dipaksa tu ga ada yang asik. Ga ada yang maksa lo hidup juga ya... XD
Liburan gw tinggal seminggu lagi.. selama liburan kerjaan gw emang gini2 aja. Jam 11 siang bangun, ngenet ampe jam 6, jam 6 sampe jam 11 nonton tipi, jam 11 sampe jam 3 pagi ngenet lagi, trus tidur, bangun jam 11 siang... Gitu2 terus.. again n again n again n again...

Bosen? iyalah, I'm still a normal human being yang butuh interaksi sosial yang nyata. Tapi kalo bisa milih mau masuk kuliah lagi yang artinya berinteraksi sosial ato liburan dengan kegiatan yang gitu2 lagi, gw masih pengen liburan... hahaha
Gw ngenet tidur ngenet ga dipaksa... kalo masuk kuliah, ngerjain tugas... dipaksa kan.
Aduh, ga mau gw ketemu Mr. D lagi.. kompi gw masalah mulu pula... Ah gilaaaa... sesak sesak. Mikirin hal2 kecil sesak rasanya.
Ntar begini, lalu begitu, kalo begini nanti begitu... ah aaahhh aaaahhh

Oooh... happy thoughts... where are you go...

Ah, cuma lagi labil aja ini, maklum masih remaja...

Kepingan2 Mimpi =="

2009-07-13T10:01:00.001+07:00

Kmaren gw tidur ga nyenyak banget, flu2 gitu, idung mampet pet pet... gw sampe tidur dengan prasaan takut bakal mati karna ga bisa nafas *lebai*
Gw mimpi banyak bangeet... tapi yang bisa gw inget dengan jelas cuma 3...

Mimpi 1
Waktu itu gw baru keluar kelas, trus gw duduk di luar sambil nulisin buku, yang ditulisin bagian kanan atasnya gitu...
Later on, ternyata gw lagi ngisi absen dan anak2 sekeliling gw juga lagi pada nitip absen... semacam "Eh, absenin gw dong". Trus tiba2 Donghae melintas di depan gw (kbanyakan nonton suju di yutub)
Gw: Donghae, tungguin bentar dong! Ini dikit lagi kok...
Donghae: Yaudah ayo cepetan (sambil ngeliat buku yang gw tulisin)
Gw ngeliatin buku lagi, di sini kayaknya gw ragu mau bareng dia ke rumahnya ato ga...
Gw: Ah, masih banyak sih.. lo duluan aja deh
Donghae cuma senyum trus nge-yaudahin gt ke gw... Trus gw kembali mengisi absen dengan prasaan tak tentu

Mimpi 2
Masih ada hubungannya ni ama mimpi 1...
Gw lagi jalan pulang sama 2 temen gw, Amel sama Feriin, kita nyebrang jalan... trus mulai ngomong2
Gw: Amel... Donghae cakep yaaa...
Feriin: Awas, JJ...
Di sini gw bingung... JJ? eh, Donghae kan idola ya? bukan temen sekelas?
Amel: Iya! beneer...!
Karna Amel menyetujui, gw pun kembali dengan pikiran kalo Donghae adalah temen sekelas...
Gw: Hahaha... tapi masalahnya dia temen sekelas sih...

Gara2 2 mimpi ini gw skarang kalo liat Donghae di yutub jadi deg2an... HAHAHAHAHA.. GILLA GW! sapa dia sapa gw... aduh ppun, dia bukan temen sekelas lo.. dia bukan siapa2... dia bukan siapa2... *hipnotis diri*

Mimpi 3
Yang nni paling aneh ni...
Di awalin sama gw yang lagi buka FB, trus ada wall dari tmen gw, Meda. Si Meda ini sering gw titipin link buat donlotin LUNA SEA
Wall dia ke gw isinya
"LUNA SEA lo udah beres, sekarang tolong bantuin gw nyari koleksinya Destiny dong"
Trus dia ngasih link tentang band yang namanya "Destiny" itu ke gw...
Sampailah gw ke page ben Destiny ini, yang jelas bukan OHP, kayaknya sih bikinan fans gitu, critanya Destiny ini ben lama yang hampir2 hilang tanpa jejak gitu
Pas masuk, langsung kesetel lagu berirama tipikal ben lama, trus gw liat fotonya, ternyata mereka aliran visualnya Mediteranian, mirip banget sama LArc. Gw denger2in lagu BGnya tu page, kok lama2 lagunya kayak lagu2 Lebaran gitu
Pas gw liat discographynya, ternyata judul lagunya pake bahasa Arab semua!!!
Langsung lah gw bales wall temen gw itu, gini

"Weh! keren banget! Dulu di tengah ben yang trend dengan gaya Mediterannian, ternyata ada ben yang ga cuma fashionnya doang yang ikut2an, tapi musiknya juga Mediteranian... Nanti coba gw tanyain deh sama temen2 LJ gw yang suka ben2 lama juga..."

HANCURKAN SAJA BIAR RAMAI

2009-06-10T23:43:00.000+07:00

Ah.. melancholia...
Harusnya skarang gw ngerjain asis DKV. Tapi gw ga mau... males berat.
Oh oh.. kuliahku skarang ga gw jalani dengan happy lagi. Dulu ga gini.. semester 1 masih lumayan smangat gw... skarang kok gila gini ya rasanya. Hhh
Dulu uliah masih ada yang agak2 siang dikit.. skarang pagi smua... Aaaargh, iya sih kalo pulang jadinya ga pernah naek bis sambil berdiri...

Kmaren Ebi nulis tentang oknum XXXXX si jurnal DAnya, gw mikir napa dia kepikiran banget ama tu orang ampe nulisin kebodohannya di jurnal. Ah, gila emang.. hari ini baru brasa knapa dia senyebelin itu. Trus kpikiran terus gw... nyebelin abis pokoknya. BODO AMAT, mang mau sebel sama dia aja pokoknya... Ahhh, semester tiga should be better lahhh... males lah dapet begituan dua kali.
Kembalikan kelas 01 PBU-kuuuu... I need theeem... ugaugaugaaaa....
They much much better la ya... hmmm =__="

Bingung gw mo ngerjain asis DKV apa ga... apa bolos aja besok.. toh absen gw masih banyak sisa... haha...
Apa nekat aja trace smua ampe selesai ya...
Ahhh.. gila ahhhh... bingung ahhhhh BABI ahhhh...
Kalo kerjain vektor staon ni baru jadi. Ah, mau lah gw bayar Crisvector buat ngerjain asis DKV gw.... Gw bayar sini pake C I N T A... haha, jadi kayak nuts gw...

Hadoh, cepetan lah lulus, abis itu gw mau kabur ke suatu tempat dimana kalo liat ke Timur ada jalan tol, ke barat ada cityscape, ke utara ada ilalang, ke selatan ada industrial area... Ganti identitas, biar ga ada yang nyari2 gw buat ngasih kerjaan ato beresin kamar...

AAAAAHHHHH
HANCURKAN SAJA BIAR RAMAI
BAKAR BIAR HANCUR
HANCUR BIAR RAMAI
RIBUT BIAR RAMAI
RAMAI BIAR HANCUR
HANCUR LALU BAKAR

Spear of Longinus

2009-02-23T20:25:00.000+07:00

Abis donlot felemnya om Atchu, Longinus. It's a pretty good film, actually. Film dengan banyak pertanyaan, tapi gw kurang suka sama akhirnya yang maksa. Ahhh... tau deee... ga dapet aja kalo kata gw. Padahal dah bagus tu filosofi trakhir2nya, tapi knapa tu cwe tiba2 ngemeng gitu!!! Maksaaa!!!
Tapi seru sih, at least gw bisa ngeliat senyum setannya om Atchuu... Ahaha, kalo vampir kayak dia sih ya minta digigitin terus gw tiap hari... XD

Ahahahaha.. Maso! Maso! iya ah, maso aja biar bisa pairing sama sado kayak om Gijooo... XD

Well, gw ga tau Longinus itu idenya dari om Atchuu apa bukan, atau dari sutradaranya... Lumayan dark sih, walopun banyak hal klisenya. Tapi beberapa part emang bikin gw senyum pahit. Pertanyaan tentang hidup dan kata2 "mungkin mati adalah satu2nya jalan keluar dari hidup yang penuh keputusasaan"
Ga ada yang tau knapa kita tetep ngelanjutin hidup... hei, bukan cuma elo.. semuanya juga kayak gitu.
Oh om Atchuu, gw ga tau rasanya jadi elo sih... Ditinggal mati orangtua, cere sama cwe, ato hampir mati gara2 penyakit. Apakah hidup lo segelap itu sampe2 lo terlihat seksi walopun dengan baju lengkap????? T___T
Om Atchuu there's something about you that killed meee!!! GAAAAAHHHHHHHH...
Gw mungkin punya ketertarikan sama hidup orang lain yang terlihat gelap atau suram. Knapa ya... gw sering ditanyain ini sama nuts, dan gw ga tau... Knapa ya...
Hidup gw ga knapa2 kok. Gw bae2 aja...

Semua orang bakal tumbuh dewasa and won't be a rebellious kid forever... Apa jadi dewasa itu keren ya?
Apa lebih keren dari jadi orang egois yang ga mau ngerti orang lain?
Gw kadang desperate banget sampe maksain semuanya biar jadi apa yang gw pengen. Karna gw nganggep gw pantes buat dapet itu. Knapa ga boleh dapet? Knapa ga boleh saat itu juga? Knapa harus gw yang ga boleh?

Apapun itu... Morrie emang lebih keren sih kalo bikin lirik lagu. Sering ngomongin kematian dan ga cuma sedangkal ngomong "I want your love"... XD
The night when I died.. ooh, lonely night...
Haha, baru tau yang itu doang, tapi kayaknya emang banyak aa yang kayak gitu (maksa). Apalagi Serafine, akhirnya gw bisa baca ngerti kata2nya setelah dengerin yang versi ayah Ryu, karna lafalnya lebih jelas... XD

Yamanai tsumetai kaze wa
Chigereta koe o hakonde kuru
Semai kuru hakai ni kizukanai no ka?
Sono mae ni mou ichido dake
Omae ni aitakute

Angin dingin yang tak berhenti bertiup
Meng-hakonde-kan suara yang terkoyak (ah lucu deh, gw ga tau artinya hakonde apaan!!!)
Entah aku sadar akan makam yang terus menyempit
Di sisi lain itu,
aku ingin menemuimu sekali lagi

Yeaaa.. Morrie... om Morrie... XD

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Tau gaaa, dari Jumat tanggal 20 sampe Sabtunya gw maen ke puncak bareng temen2 01PBU gw. Sebenernya banyak yang bisa ditulis. Tapi udah ga mood nulisnya lagi. Gw pun belom mendokumentasikannya di diary gw sama skali. Entah apa yang ingin kutulis.. aku tak mengerti...
But actually it's a fun journey.. ahahaha, journey. Apaan sih...

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Aaa parah! gw cek tulisan Jepangnya ternyata bukan Semai, tapi Semari.
Au deh.. ngaco tu translate-an Serafine gw... (sok sok-an sih)

Om Atchuu tidur aja mikir... Lucu deeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New header

2009-02-13T16:55:00.000+07:00

Yes, my header contains stock, for further info of the stocks, go to my deviation above.

Yeaaa.. new header...
Say good bye to old header...

Lagi norak make wacom makanya ganti header... ahahahaha

Chopped Ice

2009-02-06T22:15:00.000+07:00

Grand opening of Chopped Ice is today!
Yeay, get on your car and ride away to CI guys!

Mau meracau... tapi ngantuuk... belom bikin modul nirdat lagi... T____T

Ini ni yang bikin gw kurang tidur...

Gw baru sadar seprei gw masih sama kayak pas gw beli jaket pink di mangga dua itu... ohohohohohoho
GO GO CI YEAH YEAH

stock:
girl
ice cream
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2009-01-26T23:48:00.000+07:00

Kmarennya kemarennya kemaren, gw ketemu dia, kemarennya kemaren, gw ketemu dia lagi... hari ini ketemu dia lagi... Knapa gw harus ketemu dia lagi?

Cih, I hate this... I want to kill this feeling, but somehow want to keep it alive too...
It hurts...

Wanna forget about it... pretend that nothing ever happened.
Wanna go... wanna leave... wanna run...

IYA GA ADA APA APA KAN
GA ADA APA APA

GA MIKIRIN

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Just stopped at wikipedia tonight, searching what vermillion really is.
Gw tau vermillion tu lagunya Girugamesh, dulu pas gw liat di kamus artinya merah, beberapa saat setelah itu, gw liat di cat poster gw yang menurut gw oranye, tulisannya vermillion.
Jadi gw berkesimpulan vermillion itu merah yang ke oranye2an. Trus hari ini gw liat temen gw di MSN nicknya Vermillion. Kayaknya ni warna menghantui gw mlulu, akhirnya gw search di wiki...

Mang bener Vermillion tu merah ke oren2an...

Trus... selese liat2 vermillion, gw akhirnya liat list of colors
Gw sedih soalnya warna fave gw, #ff0099 ga ada...
Adanya si Magenta yang #ff0090
Haha, hampir ga ada bedanya sih emang... tapi gw kbiasaan pake si #ff0099. Dan lebih enak aja kan... FF 00 99...
Eh, kalo maen di AI gw mang pake magenta sih... soalnya kan tu warna ada di swatch default... hehehe

Let's see...
Magenta sendiri dibagi tiga, yang paling mirip ma pinknya gw tu yang ini:

Ini pinknya gw

Can you see the difference? Hampir2 ga kliatan ya...

Trus puas liat2, akhirnya gw ke sini
Trus ternyataaa... yang namanya Shocking Pink tu kayak gini

Haha... ternyata gw salah namain blog gw slama ini...
Mungkin besok bakal ganti namanya jadi HEAVEN IS #FF0099
zzzz

Gangster Girl and Ordinary Guy?

2009-01-25T18:44:00.000+07:00

Ah tumben2an gw nulis blog sore2 gini. Gw dah brusaha ngumpulin niat buat ngerjain komgraf dari tadi siang dan sampe skarang blom juga gw kerjain. Mana AI yang orang itu kacau banget... ah tae ah. AI gw ga mau baca,,, blablablabla
Udah liat itu dan desperate, gw memustuskan buat ngerjain yang BG aja, namun nyatanya aku malas las las lassss
Padahal tinggal ganti warnanya jadi greyscale gitu... T___T

Hm, beberapa hari yang lalu gw rikues sama flat-cat minta digambarin 2 tokoh crita gw yang terbaru. She said yes... horeeee...
Walopun katanya masih sibuk2 gitu, gw ga tau deh kapan jadinya. But still a "hooray" for me :D
Trus akhirnya gw bikinin sketch kasar. Pertamanya gw mikir kayak apa ya 2 orang itu...
Yang satu cwe gangster yang satunya just an ordinary guy. Akhirnya setelah lama berpikir, gw menemukan model yang pas... GW SAMA OM INO.
Taeee... XD

Trus tu cwe gw tambahin tai lalat biar keren. Yoi kaaan... XD
Yeah, gw sama om Ino adalah gangster n ordinary guy~~
Haha, gw ga bisa gambar pistol dan gw anak DKV... Ah, c'mon.. tu kan cuma sketch kasaaar.... *nyari excuse*

Ah, harusnya om Ino ga se-innocent itu mukanya. Harusnya dia datar trus ignorant gitu...
Kayak giniii...

Like "Now what?"

Ehh.. kok om Ino alisnya setengah gitu sih oom...
Gw tau dia mang satu2nya anggota LS yang masih sering cukur alis. Tapi kayaknya ada yang salah... XD
Ah, he looks exhausted...

MANA ALBUM BARUNYA! CEPETAN DIRILIS! AYO BIKIN SINGLEEEE!!! *ngambil cambuk* hohohohohohohoho
Karna gw cwe gangster, jadi gw yang berkuasa... XD

Hmm... ada yang mau ngasih nama karakter gw?
Si cwe gangster dan si ordinary guy...
^o^

Today is...

2009-01-15T00:17:00.001+07:00

Ga adaaaaa apa apaaaa... YEAAAAAAAA

Gw bisa nyelesein tugas gw sebelum jam dua dan skarang gw dah mau tidur. Hebat kaaaan....

Well, lagi2 ni hari endless rain ya, dulu saat gw masih SMA, jam sgini sih dah selese nulis diary, trus mule tidur... Apa? diary? XD
Dah lama ih ga nulis di sana. Enak sih nyampah di blog kayak gini. Tapi tetep blog itu kurang personal. Soalnya ada kemungkinan ini dibaca orang. That's why...
Lagian ini kan ketikan, ga ada emosinya, lain sama nulis tangan. Bisa tiba2 gambar, coret coret...
Oh God.. I miss ALIVE.

Who's Alive? dia tu nama diary gw yang kesebelas kayaknya... apa dia yang keduabelas ya? (abis liat foto; ternyata yang keduabelas, satu diary gw ktinggalan ga kefoto)
Hihihihi... ah, gila.. parah deh, gw dah jarang banget nulis. Ayo salahkan jurusan gw!! XD

Apa emang ga ada yang enak ditulis ya. Jujur akhir2 ini otak gw kosong, ga ada imajinasi yang harus gw tulis, ato hal nyenengin yang bikin deg2an. Kalo pun ada, sensasinya sebentar, abis itu ilang gitu aja. Duh, gw knapa ya...
Kadang emang beneran ada saatnya dimana gw kangen sama masa SMA gw. Atau... yah, pokoknya dulu deh.. waktu gw punya banyak hal buat ditulis. Padahal kalo dipikir, kehidupan gw yang skarang lebih banyak yang dikerjain, SMA tu apaan.. bosenin gitu. Justru karna bosenin ya, gw jadi bisa nyiptain dunia yang gw pengen itu. Hahaha
Lucu ya, gw kangen sama kebosanan.

Tadi baru aja gw dapet komen di FS dari Lola. Yeah... my FS still alive loh! hahaha
Kangen sama d'7.. iya.. mo jalan bareng lagi guys... ><
Setiap mo jalan, pasti ada aja hal yang gagalin... payah ya.
Smua dah punya acara sendiri sendiri... ga nyalahin sih gw. Tapi yah.. itu.

Kadang gw mikir, temen tu ya emang kayak gitu, dateng dan pergi. Semua ada masanya. Kalo berakhir ya selese aja, cari temen baru. Hahaha.. orang macam apa gw? padahal akrab sama orang juga ga gampang. Tapi ternyata kangen sama temen tu ada juga ya. "Dah lama ih ga jalan bareng sama mereka", gitu...
Hh, I wish I could hangout with d'7 real soon.
Ayo ke puncak lagi! Ayo maen flying fox lagi!

Time is dead
Lagunya LS. Andai bisa gitu ya, freezing time, jalanin smuanya sampe puas, kalo udah ga suka, baru lanjutin lagi waktunya. Masa depan sampe skarang masih gw anggep sesuatu yang nyeremin. Ga mau, ga mau tau masa depan, ga mau rencanain, ga mau peduli. Again, lagi2 tentang gw yang ga mau dengan jantan ngadepin smuanya, karna gw betina.
zzzzzzz

Semua kan indah pada waktunya ya...
Kata2 itu slalu gw pegang, dan pengen terus gw pegang.

This is my first

2008-07-05T19:32:00.000+07:00

Ah, coba2 bikin blog... enak ga ya,,,